All ttc or expecting their BFPs welcome. Fingers crossed for a fantastically fertile February!

[MrsF2510]

For those who have jumped off the January bus. May need assistance for the wonderfully organised ladies who are so brilliant at keeping the stats up to date!

So to start the engine MrsF2510 ttc #1 cycle 2 BFP due 1st Feb x

Having thought I OVd earlier this week I now have slight ewcm!! Weird! My temp was up yesterday but down today (pre "OV" was 36.18-36.23 ish, yesterday was 36.41 and today back to 36.28)

Come on body, sort yourself out!!

I'm now so confused about everything. And to top it all off my DP has hit a bad patch. He has undiagnosed depression and it's really tough at the moment. I'm now really worried if I do get BFP that it's the wrong time and that all the ttc DTD has triggered his depression. Also worried when the right time will be to have a family (if ever!) and if we've made a terrible mistake. He's been fine for months and looking forward to ttc so this is a real shock. :(

So...I think I'm in the TWW but now got sickningly mixed feelings and feel so horribly lost. I wanted it so so much and now it feels like the scariest thing in the world.

OK. DH is back home. But apparently he's too tired and wants to chill. Dtd postponed to tomorrow!!!

Oh pebble82…

How long has he been depressed? Could it be work? Or do you really think it's about tic? You said he's been fine for months - does that mean he has had depression before?

Would it be possible to see a couples therapist to talk about what you two are going through?

Thanks Snowbells.

He goes through "episodes". Usually lasting about a week. We've been together 3 years and it's happened about 4 or 5 times. On some occassions he just doesn't go to work, stays in bed, lights off, curtains drawn and then eventually just gets better. It's heartbreaking and also really frustrating as I always feel it's something I've done (but also don't think it is).

He's said it's work but I'm not sure why or whether this is an excuse/reason to shut me up asking. He snaps at me when I try and talk to him and is unwilling to agree that it could be actual depression rather than him "just wanting to be left alone"

Unfortunately he's really not a therepy kind of person. Last time he went through this, after he felt better I suggested he see his/my GP but he says I'm being ridiculous and changes the subject.

I just fear that the thought of the responsibility of a baby is the REAL issue (rather than work) but he doesn't want to say for fear of upsetting me. This could all be in my mind though.

I've read up on depression and it says people have to be down for periods of weeks at a time. I don't think he is - it's more extreme sadness for a few days. I think I'll make an appointment with a doctor soon to try and talk through things.

Sorry to moan - it feels good writing it down but this is probably the wrong place!

I'm on my 2ww also, defo ovd earlier this month, although only watching cm and ov pain. If it doesn't happen this month i'm buying it all!!

Hello!

Can I tentatively take a seat on the bus please?

Barmybunting ttc #1 cycle 4 bfp due 28 Feb
(but could be any time as my cycles are all over the place).

My last two cycles have shown faint bfps then bleeding late, so I'm not sure if they've been chem pregnancies. Hopefully February will be the month .

Good to see some heading for early Feb bfps, good luck for the tww!

It's Burns Day/Night tonight so I hope there is much haggis and ceilidh enjoyment planned for some of us tonight . Have fun!

Can I just the bus also! TTC #1 cycle 4 AF/BFP due somewhere around 24th Feb!

Welcome charlie and any other newbies I've missed!

My boobs were on fire yesterday! Deep shooting and burning type pains! I had to take my bra off they were that uncomfortable! Trying not to symptom spot is impossible when i know I haven't had that happen ever before!

Happy burns day :)

I got a positive opk on tuesday so dtd wed and fri. Maybe not enough but not convinced I ovulated. Last month I had ovulation pains for a couple of days but nothing this time. And a lot less ewcm too. So will keep dtd every second day anyway. Dh will be happy! Haha x

barmy No!!! So sorry to see you on the bus (IYKWIM!) enjoy yourself tonight and try to forget about TTC if you can! Look forward to seeing us all get BFP on this 'love month'

It is lovely to also see some new passengers on the bus - I hope you all enjoy the ride!

I'm going to buy myself some CB Digi OPKs today. Last month I used Boots own brand and didn't get a positive reading at all. Hoping the digis are clearer. In addition, I'm going to Holland and Barrett and getting manuka honey and the proper pregnacare conception vits) I'm going to do you proud this month MrsKoala!!!!!!!

Sorry to moan - it feels good writing it down but this is probably the wrong place!

pebble82 Please, never apologise! We will always listen and offer support-even if we don't fully understand what you are going through it sounds like you are doing everything to support your DH. It must be difficult to live with depression. Is there anyone else that he also trusts who can help you to convince him to see a GP?

Oh no barmy :( sorry AF arrived.

The koala plan began yesterday and my first flashing smiley this morning :)

Also, pebble I sort of know how you feel as my DH struggles with depression on and off. However he hasn't while we have been TTC so I can't imagine how that feels.
Remember that while he feels that way, you are also under stress. Try and look after yourself and know he will come out the other side.

Morning all

I need to be dtd now!!!! Will ov tomorrow or Monday! Going to use everything I've got to get dp in the mood tonight!!!!!

Pebble....I'm sorry you're having a difficult time with your dh. Depression isn't something I know a lot about it. But it would be good if you could get him to the docs, with some medication he may feel much better. Sounds like you're doing all you can for him. Hope he comes out of it soon

Thanks everyone. It really does mean a lot to hear caring words.

I've tried to keep my stress levels down just in case as I think being stressed releases a stress hormone that stops conception/implantation. I'm sure next week all will be back to "normal".

He's up today and has made a coffee. Says he's not up for leaving the house but at least it's slight progress.

Baby steps I suppose. (no pun intended)

Can I just pop in to say hello again? as I've fallen off the thread already. Hope you all have a lovely weekend dtd.

Can I just say Pebble, my mum has suffered depression over the years along with anxiety, it's extremely frustrating at times but after seeing a very good doctor and having some counselling she's a million times better. No longer on super strength happy pills and her anxiety is almost non-existant. My point is - help is there, sometimes it's hard to admit you need it but a low dose anti-depressant might be just what he needs at times like this. Hope you manage to persuade him.

On another note - how fucking expensive is manuka honey?! €20 here!! For honey!!

I'm going to try talking to him next week when he's not feeling as low.

I can't bring myself to buy manuka honey. Daylight robbery! Why so much?? Is it a rare type of bee making it?

Just read another tip to add to our collection. Get your DP/DHs to have a cold shower 30mins before DTD. It helps speed up the sperm apparently.

English I was wondering about the manuka honey thing. Just looking at holland and Barrett website. You can get hand hand nail cream which is decidedly tempting as an alternative as I'm not sure I'm going to be any good at eating it

Just have to share something - have been ttc since May, and really not sure whether I've been ovulating or not, but got my first line on an ovulation predictor stick yesterday - just really happy to think even that is happening! ( obviously been DTd lots in a very hopeful manner! ) Good luck everyone! Xxx

I've just been daydreaming about getting a bfp and realised if it doesn't happen soon, ie next 2 cycles we'll all be having Christmas babies!!!!! How lovely would that be....although not good to have birthday so close to Christmas!

Hi again everyone! Need to read back up the thread, but I've been getting flashing smileys the last two days so it's aaaaall starting again! Good luck to us all xx

Spinning I like the sound of Christmas baby . It does slightly alarm me that if not that, it would mean a 2015 baby though, that seems a very long time away! Hopefully Feb will be the month for everyone!

Pebbles similar to English, my DM has struggled with depression for a long time, since her early 20s and she is in her 60s now. It can be so hard to live with sometimes, and I really do feel for you and your DH. My DM was never keen to see anyone about it, and has frequently taken herself off anti-depressants at various points in recent years, only to totally spiral into it again. However, in the last two years or so, she has found that counselling and reflexology really helped and is now much more stable on a very low dosage of anti-depressants. It can be so hard to persuade someone to seek help, but if you go to the gp yourself and discuss it, they can give you some info to take home around other types of help available, as well as support for the stress you will be feeling as his partner. My DDad isn't a man to talk much about these things, but he tried that eventually and that was the catalyst for my DM going to talk to the GP again. It may be worth having a chat with your gp to see what they can suggest without your poor DP having to go in himself if he isn't ready at this stage.

Try to look after yourselves. It can be a very frustrating, tiring situation especially in the midst of ttc I imagine. Thinking of you and please keep talking away, you both need support in this. .

TTC officially started this cycle. Even did the entire bit of the Koala Plan, completely confusing DH.

Me: "Apparently, it helps."
DH: "Bizarre."