Round up your ghosties and ghoulies and long legged beasties, the BESH are going to scare out the BFPs!

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Its true, NGCECOAWT, so the BESH move on.

Join us in spooky October, for a different sort of Pagen fun. Sod the lentil weaving and organic bean bags, we're channelling pointy black hats, green tinged foundation and probably a bit of Harry Potter.

Join us for cursing of the insta-diffs, moments of pure love and the horrors of the cam of the fanjo - post the Beshtionnaire and the coven will judge you.

This is not a woo thread (TINAWT)

I sobbed when we were told that a. Our best chance of conceiving was IVF and b. I was too fat and had to lose weight first. I think it's a daunting process and you will avoid accepting its a reality until you face it and once again you're grieving for the life you thought you'd have e.g. An easy win, pure lurve shagging rather than the clinical process. Ultimately the win will be worth it but coming to terms with the clinical process can't be easy. Luff you jeffers!

Aww, I know how you feel Jethro, and it is totally understandable and not in the slightest bit daft.

I had my most recent sob-fest in Wednesday when droid showed up and it hit home that it wasn't going to happen "naturally" for us.

It's all a big steaming pile of turd

Yes, faith. It's particularly galling to be told I'm too fat to be pregnant when so many friends get diffed so easily, several of whom are a good deal bigger than me. It's clearly not that simple! My parents tried for two years to onceive me, apparently, and my mum was a waif compared to me, so I suspect there may be inherited crap-at-getting-diffed issues too. But who knows, it's all "unexplained"

HOTB has departed for his cycling weekend. It's very quiet. I think I might put big bang theory on...

Of course you're gibbering, lovely. It would be a miracle if you weren't. Don't cry, sweetie. Or rather, cry if you want to and we will all offer our collective shoulder till you have cried it all out and feel better again. You are among ice queens here, who all totally understand the suppressing of mentalness and the awfulness of giving way to it at last.

Who had the Cod of Comfort last and didn't put it back?

Blimey you lot have been busy! I've had a busy day so only managed to check in once, the cheek of it - work actually expecting me to complete actual work on a FRIDAY. What is the world coming to.

lemon I think I'd have slapped your SIL, what an awful thing to say. The UnBarren really don't get it at all, yet the thing that makes it worse is the fact that they think they do 'know'. But really ..... they absolutely have not got a clue and no amount of telling will change their mind. I have a friend who tries to be sensitive (I think) but then bangs on about adoption/surrogacy/are we having sex at the right time/we obviously aren't doing it right....why am I not watching out for pant snot.... bangs head against wall Drives me potty.

Jethro I sympathise lovely, I'm feeling a bit wobbly about it at the moment and know it will get worse. Until this thread I never thought about why though and I guess it is as you've all said, its about grieving for the life we wanted, the way we wanted to do it. (((((hugs)))))

I'm on day 29 of my 30 day (I reckon) cycle. I feel a bit sick and definitely very tired but starting to get crampy and have had headaches the last few days. I don't know whether to test? I pee'd on an opk and a second line came along but not as thick and dark as the control line so can't convince myself much with that! I might wait until Monday, I really can't face a BFN, it's worse than getting the bitch turn up. And I want to have my bottle of Bulmers Berry Cider.

Cold Comfort Cod.

I like it.

I saw something nasty in the egg-shed? a depressing lack of eggs

Hola. Am a bit drunk on red wine.

driz, I have punched your SIL in the ovary. Hope that helps.

I also have a friend who "knows how I feel" because she tried for 8 months pre diffedness. Her comment when I went to see her with baybee was along the lines of that I'm lucky to not be able to have kids because they cry a lot. Lucky me. With my insurmountable infertility eh?

Anyway. fsr may I stroke your head in sorrow at Frankles departure. But think of the little Frankles to come!..

Norf, egg-shed? Now I'm thinking Divine Comedy, some thing in the woodshed..

And in me news, have thrown myself into work. This means baybee would be v inconvenient. It's all too much for something that may never happen. And I happen to be quite good at my job. I maybe rethinking things.

Jethro I identify with every word you posted. I never thought I would end up there either. My two best friends had IVF and I kept thinking "what are the odds of all three of us needing it? Surely one of us will get a FCFU?" But apparently not.

Witch I am doing something similar. My work isn't that busy BUT I have been headhunted. No offer yet but we are in talks. It would, fertility-wise, be a dreadful time to move (with more IVF looming) but I feel like I have put my life on hold enough. And this would be a promotion. Hmmmm.

It's from Cold Comfort Farm, sink. Some old woman kept going on about how she once saw something nasty in the woodshed.

Rethinking things??

Sorry. I may have given the impression with my Cold Comfort Cod comment that I am au fait with Cold Comfort Farm. I haven't - I lack culture.

I am going to post just one more before I stagger to bed. This was his win in the 2,000 Guineas, one of the most prestigious races a colt can win, back in May 2011. I was there, screaming my head off near the winning post. Every time I watch this race back I am blown away.

Even if you don't like or understand racing, you can hear from the incredulity in the commentators voice that this horse is something special.

Here endeth the sermon

I once watched an episode of the tv series Cold Comfort Farm? Not sure if that makes me cultured. I suspect not.

Rethink in a "life is passing me by while I fanny around trying to make the improbable possible" kind of way.

I shall adjourn, and dream of Frankle. And possibly be in a better mood tomorrow after a run and a dose of the woo needle man. But no herbs. Managed that one dose, almost vomed and have hidden the rest in a tea caddy.

Arrrrgh, I feel sick. This is not allowed. I have no problem with throwing up if I'm ill (which I'm not), or if I'm diffed (which I'm not). Feeling sick otherwise is NOT OKAY.

Do you know why, draf?

I feel a bit crap too. In my case it's from overeating yesterday and then sleeping badly.

Probably just getting up too early, norf. I have a very weak stomach/bowel that panics and ejects all contents at the slightest sign of illness/stress. It means I am completely au fait with throwing up, but it is tiresome.

I seem to have a wobbly stomach this morning as well. Probably as a result of the aforementioned overeating last night.

What are you stressing about?

Oh, nothing really. But getting up at 5.45 and watching qualifying is not "normal" so my innards go WTF and play up. Stress doesn't have to be very severe to affect my insides! You can imagine the state I was in during my last couple of months at work, with HR heavily involved and then resigning due to stress! I became quite good at downing tools and getting to the loo as quickly as possible.

I was hopeful that being a lady of leisure (and associated lack of stress) would help us win a baybee, but that hope is dwindling now I've had two and a half cycles since my last day. Still, it means more gin-time, I guess.

Leaving a stressful job (in what sound like similar circs - I was quite deranged by the end) and taking some time off won me a bfp last year. I think it took 3 cycles, so you are due a win.

In which case, I shall remain hopeful! :)

Day two of droid's stay so far. If it's still here at day ten I'm going to go to the GP - the last three cycles have had droid here for 12-14 days, which is taking te piss.

It was another ectopic, in my case. Just mentioning it in case you get the wrong end of the stick and ask me how my baybee is, btw.

at Cod of Comfort Norf you need to trademark that!

Thanks for understanding BESH. It's shitty being a Barren but at least I have other Barrens that don't think I'm a complete weirdo.

Why are so many of us up early on a Saturday anyway - don't us Barrens live the life of Riley, lazing in bed on silk sheets and having loads of The Sechs because We Don't Have Children?!

It's all about the formula one, Jethro! Stupid Korea, being in an inconvenient time zone...

Norf, I guessed from your earlier posts that the win did not last - so sorry :(

I was at 6am by a very insistent colon... Also because there was no oxygen left in the bedroom after AMNH's post-curry flatulence. These truly are the joys of a childless existence.

How are you feeling this morning?

I was woken at 6 by ghj going to work, but losing his phone in the bedroom first.

Am now luxuriating in bed with tea and jammy toast. And pealed grapes, obvs.