Round up your ghosties and ghoulies and long legged beasties, the BESH are going to scare out the BFPs!

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Its true, NGCECOAWT, so the BESH move on.

Join us in spooky October, for a different sort of Pagen fun. Sod the lentil weaving and organic bean bags, we're channelling pointy black hats, green tinged foundation and probably a bit of Harry Potter.

Join us for cursing of the insta-diffs, moments of pure love and the horrors of the cam of the fanjo - post the Beshtionnaire and the coven will judge you.

This is not a woo thread (TINAWT)

faith has hit the nail on the head I think. It's about expectations and then having to reframe them when those expectations turn out to be completely wrong!

I definitely find myself irritable with those people whose lives working out exactly as they thought it should be. I need to be more gracious but I find it annoying!

God yes. I am so graceless and bitter about people who seem to have it easy, even though I know perfectly well they could be secretly living with all sorts of awfulness, just not choosing to share it.

I can manage to pretend to be graceful about it for a short period of time but not for long. I sometimes have to restrain myself from posting very unhelpful things on the boards here when people complain about babies not sleeping or unexpected/unwanted pregnancies

Oh gosh I'm completely lacking in grace. It's quite bad actually. Slightly better since being diffed but not much I saw my friend whose (?who's) baybee was still born in July. She is so very gracious. Obviously hurting a lot still but grateful that she had her daughter despite what happened. Hugged me when I said I was diffed. I don't think I'd be so gracious in her position. She has a wonderful nature though! I found it humbling to spend time with her.

Oh gosh, your poor friend, fee. How very courageous she sounds.

I saw her on a good day it seems but yes, she's amazing.

Hello hags. Droid showed up today, after a week of on and off spotting. I'm now waiting for the clinic to call me back and let me know if they can fit me in this cycle. More than a little gutted to be honest, part of me was still clinging to the hope that we might manage a baybee win without help. Daft I know, considering all previous evidence.

Not daft at all, FSR. I think everyone hopes that.

Sorry, fsr. Definitely not daft to have hoped. I think everyone does.

Droidal invasions :( Sorry guys.

It's not daft to hope fsr, we all do it.

Sorry bugs :( But good luck with investigations. Are these the ones for recurrent miscarriage?

Sorry for hogging the sunshine again. I just fell asleep on the living room floor - sun pouring through the back door v soporific! Very odd, mind, I'm not a daytime napper usually.

Sorry for all afflicted by droid. Frankel, I reckon everyone has those hopes, not daft at all. Especially given that the world and his wife has an anecdote about a friend of a friend getting diffed in the cyle before starting IVF (or similar).

Thanks all, and sorry about your droid Bugsy.

Clinic called back, they have room so I'm having my baseline scan and blood test on Monday morning. Then, it's self-stabbing time!

Eek! I must admit, I am really not looking forward to any self-stabbing that comes my way.

Had prepped everything for a roast tonight, but have been overcome with weariness and can't face cooking or eating it.

Now then ladies, none of this "self stabbing". Apparently it really doesn't hurt and it's nothing like normal injections . We must ask Jethro as she is about to get her first lesson.

Faithy, your poor friend :(

I have a v important observation to prep resources for, so CGH is cooking tonight! Steak for him, fish for me!

We ate celebrating because MSB is now officially on leave too :) we ate having steak (cremated for me of course!) before going out for our next Relate session. Only 1 week til the scan now :)

Commiserations all round for droidal invasions. However I am glad that things are moving forward. Frank good luck with the stabbing, sending baybee winning thoughts your way! bugs you will have your win, blood tests are the first step to winning that sticky baybee. Have a gentle halibut slap.

Good luck with the observation, al.

When is jethro doing the stabbing??

Quite soon I think. Don't know exactly.

Did someone mention me

I've had my protocol letter. We need to order the drugs then book in for a stabbing lesson. Then I need to start on CD21. I think as I'm on CD 12 now we won't have enough time this cycle so will wait until next one. Also gives me a bit more time to get my head round it all. Even though it's been almost 3 years I never really thought it would actually happen.

Stabbing sounds quite complicated. Interesting, though. Take notes for us, Jethro!

Futility Friend has rearranged my ov day from 17 to 22. I have no clue if it's remotely correct. Day 22 is the day of mystery spotting, does that help or hinder the idea?! We shall see. Droid is bound to arrive on time in any case, though, why break the habit of a lifetime, etc...

To those asking about stabbing, it really is fine. I've done a trigger shot on my Letrozole attempt and two weeks of downregging. I'm not bothered by needles and it really didn't hurt. You just grab a bit of tummy chub and stick the needle in. It really is as simple as that.

We didn't get as far as using the Gonal F pens but we were given the demonstration. They have a dial system and you have to change the needles on them each time. They didn't look too bad. I think menopur is the one you have to mix from sachets and that looks a bit more complicated, but we weren't going to use that so I don't know the details.

BTW, the first few injections I did completely by myself. After that I decided KFZK should be involved, so I got him to prep the injection for me each evening.

Did you have any sort f mental block about actually sticking it into yourself, euro? A bit like the mental block about tearing off a plaster I suppose - the knowledge that it might hurt kicks in?

Gonal-f pens sound like insulin. I imagine it's something that seems complicated initially but becomes routine quite quickly. As long as you have some belly fat it's not too painful to inject.

Today MSB is building a shed base. I feel like crap so have crawled back into bed!