BFP in 2012 Part 2 - step away from the COD and into this thread.

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We filled the last one so I thought I would start no 2.

Coke would be OK...now to find time to leave my desk!!

Feeling really dehydrated, it has to said.

Oh kitty Im just gutted for you. Go and lick your wounds for a while. We're all here for you when your ready to peek out of the COD. Life really can just be a bitch sometimes. Do you think you might go to the Drs and see if theres any problem or is it too raw and early for that yet? You take care of yourself. X

OMG are you going to test... at WORK!!????????

Wow as usual lots to catch up on even half a day!
kitty I'm so so sorry hun. I can totally sympathise with what u r going through. I lost my baby at 7 weeks a month ago. The pain becomes bearable but u will never forget. Try to think on the positive which is that u can get pg (I'm not sure u have kids already). So it will happen again for u I'm sure.
kick I'm sorry u feeling down today. Each day is different while ttc isn't it? Roller coaster!
nic your drama is killing me! Id like to find out almost as much as you
I continue to feel queasy. Could it be pregnacare conception?

Lol - I've been taking pregnacare for over a year and never had nausea or anything changes whatsoever...

Erm actually wait - it does leave a bit of a yucky taste though

Kitty really sorry hun. I hope your OH gives you a big hug from us all xxx

Well over a year long roller coaster that I get to "set aside" because was more than likely the diabetes.

So it's like...I just have to "suck it up" and try again. Forget how long I've been trying. Forget everything that's happened. It didn't happen because it was "probably not" a fertility issue.

Fucking excellent. Great. Makes it SO much better then,

kitty - I'm so sorry to hear your news. Take care of yourself.

kick - you sound like me a few days back. It sucks doesn't it?

Every day, it sucks a little bit more, winkle

kitty :(:( i'm so sorry for you. It's horrible but life always seems to have that little extra knife in the back when something shit happens. Make sure you take some time to look after yourself , and yes copius wine and chocolate

Ha ha, Lol...glad you're on tenterhooks too.

And no, RIBS, no testing at work. I did release my sore boobs from my bra in the loo yesterday though!! Luckily not as sore today, just HEAVY.

Now got a headache. Should the vet put me down?!

I think the pregnancy unit thing at the hospitals are a nightmare tho. I was in for Medical Management of MMC, for 2 days (bastards - diff story) and all I could hear during that time between the pain and dealing with the massive blood clots, was other women having scans and hearing the heartbeats. It was just torture.

kitty I am so sorry to hear your news. Just wanted to say that I am thinking of you.

OMG nicola!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If you were in London I'd be marching round to your office, stick in hand, and forcing you to pee on it RIGHT NOW!! Seriously, the suspense is killing me here! :o

kick you sound like me today, i actually had to take myself off to the office toilets this morning as i was getting all weepy at my desk :( I'm not even really sure why. You have a good reason to be weepy though - but you know you will get through this. In the words of my bonkers spin teacher "push down, pull back, pull up and push forward" Ok so she's talking about cycling, but I think I might start applying that to life generally :o

We are nic For years I always thought it was "tenderhooks" and wondered what a tenderhook may look like or be used for!

You testing again tonight or just in the morning?

oh god that read wrong didn't it - I meant I would have a stick in my hand......not that i would be sticking my hand anywhere

Kitten

I feel like a fraud for being so sad about it. My life is great in general but I just feel like...a complete and utter fucking failure. I feel like it's one thing in life where it's not a case of how hard you work or how nice you are to anyone else. It's got nothing to do with who "deserves" it or who wants it. I know some horrible, horrible women who don't even want the children they have (they are NOT friends - I wish very bad things happen to them) but people who want kids can't have them? People who use children for their own gain can have them, but those who just want to love and care for and just, see a little mini-me running around, can't?

Grump. I am going swimming

The amount of pregnant chavs smoking whilst effing and jeffing to their small kids absolutely shocks me. In RL i swear like a sailor (I wish i didnt), particularly after a few drinkys, but NEVER in front or at kids.

Kitten your post made me laugh. Maybe one step too far :)

I'm going to feel like a total knob if not pregnant! All this anticipation.

RIBS...no testing at work, no. I will POAS later though. A cheapie.

LOL at kitten!!

HA HA and I will like a total knob if I am

But I'm not

Swum 1.2kms. Feel better. Ish

Kitten

Kick ? ditto your post of 14:25 minus the going for a swim bit

Kitten - Keep your hands to yourself mate

Lately I have actually been constantly thinking if stress has something to do with us me not falling pregnant easily. Do you think we really work ourselves and our bodies up? Which somehow causes a non-fertilized egg?

I mean come on 3 million sperm - swimming into you - DTD EOD - 1 egg - 12-24 hour window. How can they not meet? HOW? How is it even possible?

Then I wonder if the stress stops the magic somehow? This article somehow makes sense.

www.babycenter.com/404_can-stress-get-in-the-way-of-getting-pregnant_1336350.bc

There is a connection - I mean acupuncture has had a lot success for a reason!

Hmmm... I am going to muse things I can do to relax over the next 10 days. Theres no harm in trying.

Kick you are not a failure - chin up and have a good cuddle with DH.
I think we all need those chocs and wine today