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Just feel like crying today

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 13/07/2012 20:11

Been trying for 14 months now and started tests for issues??? I do not know what is wrong but today 4 days before period due i just want to cry- unexplanable crying! I feel that all the cheerful words i tell myself normally are not working and feel disappointed before the due date is even here! took test today and negative and its a 10ml sens test so again looks like another heartbreaking month! My sister has just advised me she is 3/12 preg and is disappointed as was earlier falling than she wished and i just wish it were me! ( totally selfish and i hate the person i have become for feeling it unfair that it isn't me!) so so so upset right now! My partner just keeps saying it will happen but just unsure it will! is anyone else feeling crap right now? xx

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fanjodisfunction · 13/07/2012 20:40

Im feeling everything you are hellokitty we have been trying for 14 months now after the stillbirth of my daughter I have had two early miscarraiges since. Before I fell pg with my daughter we were ttc for 18 months. Its such a tough thing to go through, you wonder if theres something wrong, sometimes wishing there was to explain your heartache but also wishing there wasnt so you could just fall pg without all this waiting.

I really get fed up with peeing on sticks and peeing in cups all the bloody time. Waiting for ov time then waiting for Af, then waiting for ov. My life revolves around a two week cycle of waiting for different things, one makes me happy but also a bit stressed, (ov) and the other makes me want to punch it in the face (af).

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 13/07/2012 21:08

so sorry to hear your sad news and really sorry your feeling the same way! its such a rollar coaster and struggle to find a friend or family member i can talk to that understands . we had a miscarriage march which was pants and was told by everyone that i would be more fertile for next few months what a crock of poo !!! big hugs to you xx

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fanjodisfunction · 13/07/2012 21:26

hellokitty same here that's when my last miscarriage was. I am also expecting af in the next four days. I'm here to hold your hand, if you will hold mine.

Pocket1 · 13/07/2012 21:36

Hey HelloKitty have missed you on the other thread. I'm so sorry you're having a rubbish day. You know what, just cry, let it all out. You'll feel better for it. Sending you a big hug and really hope you get some good news soon. Smile xxx

Pipbin · 13/07/2012 23:21

I'm with you Hello. I've been trying for 14 months too and have never ever been pg. Now under the fertility clinic. Why does everyone else seem to find it so bloody easy?

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 15/07/2012 08:42

For sure i am holding your hand tightly Fanjo! its just pants.
Pocket- have missed being on here i have abandoned post for a few weeks as work issues but now settled and i have the hours i have been fighting for. Just been reading how you have been getting along- you are so brave and i feel horrid for feeling like i do esp when only starting the hourney in comparison- how are you doing?
Pipbin- come hold hands with us - good that you have now started the fertility way- get some anwers. Its totally unfair that we all cant just fall preg - my friend looks at her partner and falls- but she also is so understanding of me aand i have been asked to be godmother for her latest addition which is lovely.
Fanjo has the AF arrived yet? i am hoping she goes away for us both soon!!!! xxx

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blondebaby111 · 15/07/2012 15:26

I feel your pain hellokitty, its been 4 years for us. I.m so fed up of tracking each month then crying when yet again af arrives! It sucks tbh made even worse now sister in law is pregnant! Just last month my body played all sorts of tricks on me and so thought I was but sadly wasn't. What sort of tests have you had so far?? A very high percentage fall pregnant while these tests are ongoing so never give up..I know its hard and upsetting but I got told just a few days ago the more upset and uptight u get the more your body can reject these things. Unfortunately when u want something so bad it can consume your every waking moment :( wish u lotts of luck xx

fanjodisfunction · 15/07/2012 15:43

Well hellokitty, no AF so far it is only CD29, but I couldnt resist earlier using a ov test as a POAS and well it was negative. Dont know if that means I am or i am not. Im just so fed up of this.

blondebaby111 I cant imagine what you must go through every month, it does suck when you are told others in the family are pg.

I will have to wait a while I guess for tests, I think they will not even look at me untill I have had three miscarraiges, or if I dont fall for another year? Though I do know someone who hadnt fallen for a year and the doctor said that you should wait two years? I dont think I can, another two years from this one, I think it would make me mad.

Any sign of af hellokitty?

CaveMum · 15/07/2012 16:15

kitty, and others. There are many women in a similar situation (2 years trying for me) and there are a number of support threads in conception that might be useful to join, for support and banter.

I'm on the BESH thread, but there are others.

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 15/07/2012 18:25

Hi lovelys - sorry to hear a 4 year storey sweet and def understand the others pg, my sis and my sis in law . No ad yet but tested today still negative on day 27 and a 28 day cycle with a high sens test!!! They have checked this week if I ovulate find out results of this test tomorrow. Will update you all! My heart goes to you all on this thread as you are all feeling the same! Lets be here for each other and pray it happens for us all soon!!! X x

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fanjodisfunction · 15/07/2012 19:09

Im here for you hellokitty hoping the test results tomorrow are positive ones.

Im really feeling tearful today, just want to be pregnant so much!

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 15/07/2012 19:18

Fanjo and I for you! There is nothing I can say to make the tears go away but send you a huge hug and be here with a listening ear! Bloody hell this is such a hard time and babies and pregnant ladies everywhere x

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fanjodisfunction · 15/07/2012 19:27

hellokitty was saying that on my other thread (rainbow babies) when you want to be pg thats all you see newborns and pregnant women. And especially women who dont seam to care at all about their children.

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 15/07/2012 19:53

Bless you I know that! It's very calming to realise your not the only one noticing these behaviours and them impacting so on your emotional well being ! I am adamant its not my month and am going to try so hard this month like never before! Care to join me? X

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fanjodisfunction · 15/07/2012 20:52

hellokitty I'm with you all the way.

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 15/07/2012 21:02

Well thats great Fanjo! Will both be going mad together!! :-) dp is now making tomato soup and asking should the seeds blend down? Oh dear that's the last question on my mind x x

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KylieP · 15/07/2012 21:09

Hi all, just had a real low point and was crying so logged in here (have had a self-imposed ban lately as have been trying to relax about the whole thing - yeah right!) anyway I was in tears as had friends round today with all their little children and am getting so frustrated with everyone in my life, including DH, telling me it will happen, stop obsessing etc. Now been ttc for 8 months and nothing has happened at all, not one ovulation as far as I'm aware, no clear cycle even. My doc is looking into it but sounds like a long and scary process. One of my friends said today I should enjoy my life before kids and book as many hols as poss etc, I'd love to do that but I just want to know I can conceive. Sorry for the rant, reading your stories did make me feel like I'm not the only one struggling and massive hugs to those who've struggled even more with the whole thing x

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 16/07/2012 06:39

Welcome kylie glad to see you have come for support as its very important in this hideously stressful time!! Cry and rant with us as much as you need too! Sorry it's not happening as. Quick for you either! Big hugs back and good luck for gp visits xx

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 16/07/2012 16:46

Hi ladies confirmed today by gp I ovulate so awaiting her advice on next step!! Will know tomorrow! How are you all ? X x

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emeraldgirl1 · 16/07/2012 16:56

hellokitty are they investigating your prolactin levels? I don't know if it's a periods issue for you or something else but if you are having v irregular cycles then it could be a prolactin related thing.

I have everything crossed for you and just really feel your sadness.

I had a couple of days that sound like your 'can't stop crying' ones a couple of months ago and MN was GREAT and really did make me feel better and less like an idiot (not that I'm saying you're being an idiot, you're NOT, but you know what I mean I hope)

It's horrible, just horrible, when the entire world is getting pregnant just by looking at the milkman.

All luck and love! And don't feel bad about 'the kind of person' you think you're becoming - PMS is effing horrible and worse than ever in the TWW.

Plus, peeing on sticks is SO tedious... Wink

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 16/07/2012 20:57

Thank you for you support emerald, it was my sisters scan today and although envious very happy all is well for her bless her! Sorry you have experienced the crap days too!! My cycles are spot on 28 days usually so am not sure what or why they tested ovulating will find out more tomorrow x x

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fanjodisfunction · 16/07/2012 21:02

thats good to hear hellokits. As AF reared her ugly head?

Well AF still hasnt arrived its either CD31 or CD29, for the past few months its arrived on CD28/29, so not sure whats goin gon, I dont feel pg, but I dont feel like AF is coming. (so thinking it will turn up tomorrow.) Ive resisted to poas, though I so want to. Its driving me mad all this, I hate myself at the moment Im all smiles on the outside but inside Im screaming!

thats right kylie we are here to listen, so rant away.

fanjodisfunction · 16/07/2012 21:03

meant thats good to hear your ovulating. (my brain isnt working tday I think)

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hellokittydrivesmenuts · 16/07/2012 21:33

I thought so to Fanjo. Good news af has stayed clear, not here for me either but will be as neg test today and pains !! Boo! But positive cn start again soon ! Keeping fingers crosses for you! One of us has to get a bfp soon x

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winkle2 · 16/07/2012 22:57

I went to the docs today as I was using the CBFM, got a peak on CD13 yet I'm on CD38 and no sign of AF and BFNs.

So we are now officially in the hands of fertility docs.

Feel so crappy, down and can't believe this is happening to me.