Ttc month one, Am I going crazy?

[caspacutie]

Hello everyone,

Well a little about me, I'm 25 and my boyfriend is 34. We decided that I should come off the pill on the 23rd Feb, I was on cerazette for around eight months.

I bled from the 27th and decided to use a clearblue digital ovulation kit as I knew my cycles wouldnt be textbook. I stopped bleeding on 1st march which was thursday and got my smiley face on Friday.

We had sex on Friday with the pillow under the hips and I Stayed there for an hour, too scared to move lol same again on saturday.

Since friday I have had really dull lower back ache (i never notmally notice ovulation pains) headaches, im exhausted but cant seem to sleep very well. Then yesterday (saturday) I had cramps below my belly button as though I was about to get af, a strange pulling and fluttering, almost a vibrating kind of feeling inside accompanied by backache and then spotting pink blood when I wipe (sorry tmi) and I feel wetter than normal. Oh and heartburn.

Today i have stopped spotting but everything else is still there..... surley it must all be just in my head, this 2ww sucks!!!!

Good luck it does sound quite hopeful :)

Thanks. I do hope so. There was something that I forgot to mention, my bf had an accident years ago and was told he may never have children and in his previous ten year relationship he never used protection but never activley tried so even though I want this so bad, I have a little voice reminding me it may never happen xx

Ok this really isnt like me and considering im new to all this i must be getting some raised eyebrows but im slightly freaking out about it (in a good way) feel very anxious which just isnt me. since posting this a few hours ago I keep refreshing like evey ten minutes!!! Am i going completley crackers?!

You're just experiencing the TTC madness we all seem to get. If you are lucky this month, remember how lucky you are!! If not, take a deep breath & expect to feel just as loopy every month. That's why these forums are full of 2WW induced hysteria/anguish/frustration type threads. Fingers crossed for you.

You are not alone!!! And yes it all sounds promising to me.

Thanks ladies. the backache is making me just want to lie down and sleep.

Ive just bought four first response tests from superdrug. Instead of £7.50 each, they were four for £10! Ohhh i can let myself go a little hysterical lol xx

Me too! They were a bargain i couldnt resist! I have four tests sat waiting but I am using all my will power to leave them, as I think I'm still only 10dpo if my calculating is correct. I feel like a becrazed lunatic, especially as I really doubt anything will come of this 2ww.

Yes im hiding my head in shame as I broke down and done a test already!! Its not logical at all because even if i am it wont show yet.

period type pains have returned with the pulling pains and im spotting again

Its so lovely to share my loonatic rants! Xx

I've had so many diff pains i don't know if I'm imaging them. Pulling, aching, pinching, lower back. I havent had a period in so long (since having mirena removed 3 months ago) so I bought them to see if I actually was ovulating. Took them daily for ages and finally had a surge then a peak so its nice to know i should either get AF or a + result, but I'm so damn impatient! Im not much better, I did a cheapy Internet test at lunchtime today?! Logic in that is?! I should show thurs/fri I'm thinking, but don't know if my cycle will be 'normal' so we shall see. But yeh it's turned me crazy.. Don't know if that makes you feel any better?! X

Wahoo i have a crazy buddy already hehe

I wouldnt get a resuly until the earliest, next sunday but I just know that the stick will jump into my hand in the morning on the way to the loo.... its as if all reason goes out the window once there is baby dust floating around hehe

Ha yes it brings me comfort. I really feel like if there's people in the same boat as you it will make things happen.. Some magical baby dust for all please

I just don't have the best feeling, my partner had an injury to his 'boy area' years ago in his fighting teens, and he smoked heavily for years, I just worry I can be doing everything right under the sun but if those swimmers aren't great it won't make a difference

That silly bfn from the test before has left me feeling very unpregnant (even though i still have backache)

yes my partner is in exactly the same boat as yours..... really really really frustrating as he keeps reminding me not to get my hopes up as it may never happen. i just growl at him and keep returning home with armfulls of tests. hysteria in full swing

My tests etc are all a little bit on the low, he would shake his head at me for wasting money if he knew and as much as he knows me I just don't think he would understand. He's so laid back about it all, I don't know if it's his way of dealing with things or what, but I can't help but worry. Damn being a woman with crazy hormones. You never know though, it might not have been down to his swimmers that he hasn't impregnated previously?! It's just typical that my DS's father literally looks at women and makes them pregnant.

I can feel twinges on my left hand side as I write this - I want to know what it means!! X

I think they may need to get the white coats ready for us soon lol

yeah it may not be his swimmers as his ex was 20 years older than me, making her now 45! So im pinning my hopes on the fact that she was just shriveled up (i really shouldnt talk like that)

ive got twinges on the right and a funny fluttering down below

how old r u cookie? X

You never know, she could have had unknown fertility probs, not had sex at the right time ( I think I read somewhere that even if you do everything right on the correct day etc you still only have a 20-25% chance of conception. I was like oh- gutted!

I'm 24, I have a DS who's 3 this year and I just have this weird need to be pregnant soon, like my body wants it?! And when the fella said to ME 'I want to try for a baby' i really was like OMG. Yessss. Now I don't want to wait like the brat that I am.

I feel like My symptoms have disappeared, and I've not had any possible implantation bleed (I know theyre not necessary, and I don't think I had one before) but I can't help but feel a bit .

I really do wish you lots of luck, I know it's easier said than done and I'm being a complete hypocrit, but try not to do too many tests, they only make you sad when they come up neg, I know only too well! I'm going to try my best to wait . Xx

Haha yes i too am a self confessed brat!

Well fingers crossed for you too and keep me updated xx

Ok the spotting has stopped, so have all the pains and strange feelings, im full of energy and bloated... how does this sound???

Please give me a slap someone!! Lol

caspacutie haven't posted on this thread for a while but just wanted to say my DP also had an accident a few years back where it was suggested he may not be able to have babies, Number 2 is on its way now, so never say never. good luck :)

Awww thankyou so much :) have a massive smile on my face now. bring on the support and sticky baby dust!! Xx

Ah brilliant thank you for a success story- always good to know congratulations.

Caspa- sounds good to me but try to manage your expectations I guess. But i really wish you the best of luck. I've had some funny funny pains, but I'm convinced they're just dodgy AF pains.

i got another BFN today as excpected...... i have no control left ladies :( ive been googling and reading that people have had BFP's 6DPO!!! It's not helping lol

6 days?! Most people won't have implanted at that point- madness! I feel sick as a dog today, I think it's unrelated but still- meh. Hense not POAS to avoid disappointing result!

Well cookie i had a POAS urge this morning at 6am as i was dying for the loo and the strangest thing happened. two very very squint lines straight away and by the time i went to bed test line was very dark but still a very very very very faint line next to it..... then i fell asleep and woke an hour later to just one line.

i know deep inside that this was just a freak blip abd i wont be lucky enough to get a bfp first time.

I am full of energy today and feel mega happy but have craps on left side and what feels like a cold coming on :( xxx

You shouldn't read the result after more than 5-10 mins (each test will probs vary a bit) but an hour is too long. What test did you do Casper?

I think I might bite the bullet and POAS tomorrow but not knowing when I'm deff due for AF makes me uncertain. Oh no not a cold hope you feel better soon. Maybe do another test tomorrow morning?
X

Do it tomorrow.... i need good news from somewhere.

yeah i know an hour is too long, damn sleepiness! roll on tomorrow morning, one of us has to have some happy news xx