Angels and Rainbows - The beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. But it can provide colour and hope.

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“Rainbow Babies” is the understanding that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of the storm. When a rainbow appears, it doesn’t mean the storm never happened or that the family is not still dealing with its aftermath. What it means is that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover but the rainbow provides a counter balance of color, energy and hope.

Razz good luck Friday xxx keep your chin up nearly there .xxx
Whatever a planned section was great. As relaxed & chilled as can be. I'd highly recommend it.
Hi all: love to all xxx

angel I'm not surprised your friend said that, I can totally believe it!

Too you're right, I should just stop worrying about why I don't feel bad and be happy :) 3 days! Wow, so close now :o Oops re the email, I hope things smooth over.

Razz watch those low numbers, that's why I was induced, I couldn't keep them up and ended up with lower readings after eating than I had before I ate. How low are you?

Well just got back from SW and it looks pretty easy have already written out my food for tomorrow. I was pretty mortified that I was that heavy, I havnt weighed myself since before I feel pg woth Fi and well from that weight to this its over three stone! Ooops! I'm feeling good that I'm doing something about it.

Fx razz that LO can stay in a little longer.

too pack you bag lady! Lol. Do you want me to pop round a do it for you? I love packing! I'm so excited for you, can't wait to hear of Theas sisters arrival and her name and everything really.

angel how did your meeting go?

fan there are loads of free foods on SW too, have a couple of books here from when dh was doing it. I think they go by cutting fats and oils out, so with cooking use the fry light sprays. They're actually nice to cook food in as well, there are a few different ones like a buttery one, normal one etc. If you like quorn/meatfree then they're a really good food to use as some are free foods, I think the sausages are and the "ham" etc.

Oh Blizy that must be so hard to hear. I think your reaction is natural and understandable. I hope she has the foresight to be healthy through her pregnancy this time - I would find it hard to hold my tongue in your situation if not.

Do you think she might have text you so that you had time for it to sink in on your own and measure your reply rather than face to face or on the phone where you might have been expected to be happy and excited and found it harder? My SIL text me to tell me and I think it was in case I burst in to tears or something and it was awkward.

Big hugs lovely - be gentle on yourself today xxxx

Too hope the steroid injections aren't too painful today xx

Whatever- I don't know, she said in the message she was texting because she didn't know when she would see me next. ( she lives 2 mins away) I think it's just the shock of it, I will be ok once it has sunk in a bit. Who knows, we might be of at the same time.
Thanks for listening to me moaning away. X

Oh love it is a shock for you. You're not moaning at all. I hope your family understand this might be difficult for you xxx

Too you re be fine ... Nearly there. The steroid injections are totally fine xxx
Fan meeting was boring, boring, boring as they are!!! I came back confused!!! Used to be able to have 2 extra A or Bs!!! However, now it's only of each : bummer. That used to cover my milk,cereal & bread fir lunch ( quite often have beans on toast, boiled eggs with toast) but now has to count my bread as a syn. What a pain??
So , here we go again!!! I m sticking to " extra easy" for now. Good luck. My SW leader texted Morrisons are selling chocolate philedelphia , mix with Quark & have with scran bran : whatever that is?? So I m off to try it.
Blizy so sorry. When my sister get pg 2 months after ttc ( I love her to death) I too felt a little jealous that it was all so easy however, she did mc a month later.not telling you this for anyothet reason other than I know where you re coming from(ie: I m not saying that's what ll happen to your sister) Stacey Soloman also caught smoking when pg why??? Don t these people have a clue what others go through to get where they are???!!
Take care , wallow for now if it helps xx
Hi all; hope everyone's well?
Phebs at HV today to be weighed , that ll ve interesting!!! Talk to her about weaning now. Phebs now 20 weeks can t believe it , time really is flying.xxx
Special hugs for Blizy it's shit ??!xxxx

Oh Blizy sweetheart, that must be so hard to deal with. Big hugs, my love - you will be pg soon. I find it so hard to deal with the idea that we should be over it by now - wtf? In some ways I don't think you ever get over losing a baby.

Off to the hospital for the first jab in 20 mins - hope it doesn't hurt!

blizy oh poor you. I think that if you didn't feel a tiny bit jealous, then you would be up for some sort of sainthood!! And if anyone ever tries to tell me that I should be 'over' losing Mia, even if it is in twenty years' time, I think I will flatten them...

Good luck too, hope the jabs are ok. Nice and quick at least I guess.

cheese no babyblues here either which I was a bit surprised by as something like 90% get them. I guess I was just sooooo relieved she was here ok and I could breathe a massive sigh of relief that the pg was over.

blizy you poor love, you must be heartbroken that it's your sister and not you. I'm so sorry xxx So sorry they don't "get it" either. Of course you aren't over Zoe, and tbh I doubt you'd ever even want to be. She's your DD forever.

Oh Blizy of course you are not 'over' losing Zoe. How dare they suggest that xx

Just got my Down's syndrome combined blood and nuchal screening results and I am low risk 1:1410. Phew!

I have reported my posts, I am ashamed of them so I want them removed.

(((blizy)))

Blizy I didn t see your posts but (()) xxxx
Too you ll be fine. They din t hurt xx
Whatever good news xxxx
Cheese think Spilt is right think after wr ve experienced such a horrible loss it's just such a sense of relief when your baby is here that I think that overrides any depression. Xxx

Oh Blizy. You don't have anything to be ashamed of!

Angel, you were right, it didn't hurt! I'm all excited now - feels like things have started to happen. Next injection tomorrow plus the pre-op stuff. Hope Phoebe's weigh-in went well. 20 weeks already, wow!

Wtw, phew for the Down's results!

Fan, I wish you could pop round and pack my bag for me! My idea for packing is to chuck in as much stuff as possible, which may not be the best policy this time. I need DH to be able to find things for me!

Angel I really hope this is the start of you and DP being abel to talk together, me and DH have been through a few cycles of getting into a rut and treating each other less well than we should do. 10 years ago it would end in a screaming row to get us back to equilibrium, these days we seem to manage to have an honest chat without getting defensive - I'm still more than a little amazed about that.

too and Vicky sooo excited xxx

blizy don't know what to say, don't be ashamed no ones judging you at all, it's how you feel - you don't 'get over' this (that's awful, I've had some bloody horrible things said to me since Sproglet but that's nasty). You learn to live with it day by day.

I had two sure start ladies visit yesterday, they are going to see if I can have my home start volunteer early as I'm officially 'vunerable and isolated' nice... not! Nevermind there is a craft group at the local sure start center they've invited me to, I'll probably be the only person without a child in the creche but hopefully it'll be ok. I know it's far too early - but I've started knitting baby clothes, they are so easy and quick to make I just worry it might seem a bit strange at 13 weeks - ever the optemist I'm making mostly 6 month+ stuff, as I've already got loads of newborn and I won't have time to make anything in September by then. I just worry I'm tempting fate

Trickle think you ve got me confused with someone else as Ant & I are ok. Plodding on through crap but ok!! Thanks for your concern anyhow!!!xx
Too glad all went well. They re fine aren t they? Wow 2 days , well, nearly 1 ... So close xxxx
Blizy xxxx
Went to HV but she really pissed me off!!! I ll post tomorrow as no doubt I ll post an essay!!
Xxxx

whatever so glad to hear that news!

angel shall be intrigued as to what you say about HV. If it helps, please know that you are in no way obliged to visit them. I never took Mia along, as I had been loaned some baby scales, and that was all I checked. (Her heart infection was something very rare, and could never have been picked up by an HV anyway.) But I remember a friend becoming very stressed by the HV pressurising her, saying her baby was underweight and to support BF with formula, which she didn't think was required.

trickle I think that is good news? Can't quite tell from your post. Just hope the classes at the creche aren't too challenging emotionally for you.

blizy hope you are feeling a little better. Don't be too hard on yourself.

and too, glad the injections didn't hurt!!

I want to thank you all for yesterday, I don't know what came over me! I feel so much better today after a sob dh shoulder and a sleep.

too im glad the injection didn't hurt, - 2 more sleeps eeek! How are you?

tricle No such thing as "tempting fate", if you are happy knitting I say carry on. I hope the sre start craft thing goes well for you.

I hope all the little rainbows are well.

Bluzy glad you feel a little better xxxx
Mia thanks. Don t think we ll be going back. Every time we go we see a different HV , they never introduce theirselves. However, yesterday we saw 2 staff: 1 staff nurse,1 HV again only 1 introduced herself.weighed Phebs ,she's 18lb,11 oz. She's on the 98 th centile & because she's jumped up 2 centiles... They were in a state of panic!!!saying " she's taking in more calories than she needs".Read in to thar what you will!!! So basically they re saying she's overweight at 20 weeks ffs!!!
She's still within the normal range. As I advised them she never finishes a bottle , sleeps 8-10 hours per night & Isn t even having the full amount she could have.
They have advised feeding her 4 hourly as opposed to intermittent feeding!!! Want me to re-attend in 4 weeks for her to be re-weighed but after giving it some thought & talking it over I m not taking her back. My appt is tge week before I return to work & I cab think of better places to go. My beautiful baby is perfect she is smiling, laughing, talking , maintaining eye contact & thriving. Yet, they re in a state of panic she's not overweight nor will be as we re watch out for her weight but come on get a grip!!
Why not focus on the families who neglect their children or abuse them or I'll treat them not me who does everything correctly attends every appt etc..,
Mia I m with you & your friend . I win t ve going back the HV s have been shit from the start & I ve given them so many chances but bugger that now. Tge practice nurse does her injections so I ve no need to see them.
Rant over!!!!
Hope everyone's well?
Too last day.so excited for you xxxx

angel I fostered for 5 years and HAD to endure h/v for the entire time. It was mainly quite an unpleasent experience. I think that we no our own children best and usually have a gut instinct about things so you go with that. I think things/advice in the land of the h/v have gone mad!!!!
too you brave girl, the steroids really stung me and I promise Im not usually a wimp!! Sending you love and all the best wishes in the world for tomorrow. Cant wait to read your news
wtw great news about your nuchal results, one less thing to worry about.
blizy sorry to read about your rough day yesterday. You are bound to feel like you did. Glad dh was there for you and you feel a little better today.
cheese my sugars keep dropping to the low 3's and I have been told to try to aim to keep them between 5 and 7. Still having the odd spike of 9 when I dont think I should have!!! Oh well, only 1 week left to get through!!!