fan the online slimming clubs are good, dh has used slimming world and weight watchers when they've had offers on membership and both seemed really good and easy enough to fit in with "normal" meals. He's really self conscious about his weight and I hate to see him feeling so bad about himself, I don't care what his weight is. It's so hard as he can't excercise either due to his health and bad leg, so many things wrong with him and he's only young :(
too that's the last thing you need! Please don't worry about bean being prem, she will be fine even if she does need a bit of extra help at birth. Ella was 34 weeks when I was induced, well half induced, and although she needed a lot of things in the nicu she is doing amazingly well now. It was hard seeing her with so many tubes and wires in her but it was a million times better than the possible alternative. I truely believe it was for the best and also that the result wouldn't have been a happy one had I not been induced when I was. I need to think long and hard about the future too as my problems started a few weeks before and had they been worse I'd have been induced a few weeks beforehand.
You do use extra calories up when you bf but I always have to be careful afterwards as you're used to eating a bit more and then put weight on again. I lost a fair bit while I was pregnant due to being so careful with the diabetes. I weigh less now than I did before I got pregnant and still losing as I've now also gone dairy free to try and help Ella as she was being sick a lot and I thought it might be a milk intolerance. She's hardly been sick at all since I stopped with dairy so it might be helping. I'm a vegetarian anyway so going vegan wasn't a massive step, although I am missing cheese...
ciwi I love the name Cillian, it's beautiful. How are you feeling now? I'm sure you're so relieved! It's a big rollercoaster of emotion though isn't it. I also felt the same during labour, the thoughts going through my mind were only if the baby was ok, nothing else mattered at all. I cried when she was born both with happiness and relief.
whatever I really couldn't picture everything working out and I still worry constantly now. We bought (well my parents bought it for us) an apnea monitor for Ella's moses basket (will work on a cot/cotbed too) just for peace of mind. One of the scbu nurses said a lot of the parents of preemies buy them and that she'd be using one when she has a baby too as it's just extra precaution. Ella had one while she was in hospital but it was attached to her foot/wrist, she never set it off though.
miasmummy sorry af arrived :(
angel those breaks sound lovely, very envious. I don't think I could go away just yet with all the dcs with Ella so young. I hate flying too, so much so that I've refused for about 15 years! Such a wuss and I know I need to do something about it but I get such bad panic attacks I doubt I'd even get on the plane. It doesn't help that I'm also terrified of heights, sigh.
blizy dh is after losing a fair amount of weight and I know that the grief didn't help him either, that on top of being ill and on huge doses of steroids made him gain more weight. Good luck with the swi 
vicky great news about your brother
I've been doing good here, it's a bit disconcerting that I haven't felt depressed or had baby blues at all though, is that normal?? I'm worrying that something will come back to bite me at some point. It's an odd feeling now that I'm not pregnant and worrying all the time, I realise how much I had going on in my head. I was thinking all the time, always worrying about what would go wrong and thinking through every possibility. It's a huge weight off my mind but feels a bit empty now too. It's a lot easier now but the worries I had are replaced with new ones. As I said, it's not the same as before but there are still worries there.
Not sure if I said before (that's one thing now, I cannot remember anything! Conversations with dh are so hazy and I put down to broken/lack of sleep!) but Ella was born with a tooth! Yes a tooth, and it's huge! It's a bottom front tooth and she nips with it a little. She's worse when she's ending a feed as she pulls a bit as she spits my nipple out and it's a bit ouchie! Need to get some nipple cream tomorrow as it looks like I have a graze/little cut from her.
Phew, epic post! Hope you're all well :) By the way, if anyone has facebook that isn't already on there then please pm me and I'll add you. I would pm but don't want to send out lots and hassle people.