mid 30s, TTC #1, 2 years so far, fed up. anyone else?

[CaipirinhasAllRound]

Just wondering how many of us there are in the same boat

Ps do any of you sometimes freak out sometimes? Having crazy thoughts that it's all too hard, ttc is making me miserable, my husband's an @rse & maybe I should jack it all in to flit around the world without a care in the world?!?

A real quick one from me literally to say 'Hello'. Sorry for the lack of personals. I've just realised that it's 4.30 and I really haven't done all that much work today .... ! And (not that I'm counting) but I only have 3 working days left this year ..... ! Really will have to pull my finger out for the rest of the week !

Right - am trying hard to get into the Christmas spirit - but not really feeling the Christmas love this year .... !

Hope everyone is well xxx

Hi everyone, sorry I've been quiet too.

Lesley - yes! Suggested to DH the other day that maybe we rent the house out and join the UN in some disaster relief type thing. He didn't really know what to say! This is pointless though, getting up and going to a dull job everyday to pay the mortgage on a 3 bed house we don't need unless we have kids.

Anyway, had scan on Friday and no sign of new cysts so the horrid nasal spray is in the bin and I am well and truly embracing alcohol! Probably shouldn't as at some point in the next 2 months we'll be doing IVF again but for the moment, fuck it.

missbrightside - I'm looking forward to Christmas, mainly because of food and drink, but we don't have a tree and all the cards we've received are just in a pile on the table

Hello to everyone else and sorry for the lack of personals, I'm on my phone and can only see the messages on page 21

It's our Christmas party and my birthday tomorrow so hopefully I won't get too pissed and start telling everyone about my woes....

Xxx

A very happy birthday to you Caiphirinas. Have a lovely day and enjoy your party. Glad that your scan went well.

I have my work Christmas party tomorrow. Tried on the dress I intend to wear last night and it's a bit short ..... ! (It was bought in a charity shop earlier in the year. It still has the £8 Scope label on it. Must remember to cut it off before I wear it. That's how enthusiastic I am about this party ...... !) But it is free booze and I too intend to embrace alcohol for the next week or so ........ ! Although maybe not so much at the works do as I too have a tendancy to tell all my deepest secrets when I've had a few. That, or sob into my glass ....... ! Luckily I usually have to run for a train before I'm too drunk !!

Welcome to the new ladies. No, this has not been a lucky thread but I think our luck is just about to change so hang on in there ........... !

Lesley This time of year makes me have particularly miserable thoughts. Four years ago we were the only childless couple at a Christmas Eve party afternoon party and - when we were the only ones who were able to carry on to the pub - I dunkenly declared to DP that "next year we will have our own little elf" (all the children were dressed up !). He had been the one who had wanted to start ttc and I had been reluctant (We'd only been going out at that time for about 18 months and I thought we were 'rushing' into it. How I laugh now ....... !). Four years later and we are now wondering what excuse we haven't used for a while to avoid the very same party on Monday ........ ! I do ofter wonder how different my life would have been if instead in the pub I had drunkely declared that we should sell our flats - buy a camper van - and drive around the world ........... !

Hello to everyone else !

Right - I've come in early to work and so far I've not feeling the work love ....... Am feeling easily distracted and would rather spend the day in bed !!!!!!

xx

Hi Ladies and merry Christmas. I agree that sometimes I feel like taking a year out and just going travelling. I really want to go to Borneo next year, but keep putting off booking a flight as I keep hoping ill be pregnant, even though if I'm honest I know I won't be :(
Yet another pregnancy announced at work this week and what made this worse was having the scan picture shoved in my face and hearing, "it's was so easy to get pregnant"... I just wanted to scream f**k off.
Just a quick question, have any of you found that your periods have changed/become shorter during this process?

Xx

Hello Pomatron - Yes, I think my periods have got much lighter (albeit that they still last the same duration). Obviously I've convinced myself it is an early menopause symptom ..................... X

PS : I had a work pregnancy announcement this week. She told me to my face and it came as a bit of a surprise. Let's just say that there were a few tears in the toilets ........

(and to make it worse I sit very near her so will hear every single word uttered about it. I couldn't BEAR her before the announcement ..... !)

Right - I'm not helping myself - am logging off to try and find my work enthusiasm .........

xx

It's me again. No, not got into the work mood yet .....

I'm a little bit overexcited as I just put a question to Robert Winston on the webchat and I think he answered (the questions and answers aren't all linked).

It was :

Q : I appreciate that everyone's medical circumstances are so very different but - if you could give just one tip to women going through IVF to increase their chances of success - what would it be ?

A : Go to a doctor who gives you time and clinic that you trust and preferably one in a good academic centre (not purely a private clinic boasting about its 'excellent' success rates which may be unrepresentative anyway). Units doing serious research in universities are best in my view.

So there you have it ! From the man himself.

xx

Ooh good mine is part of oxford uni!

Happy birthday caprinhas!! Hope you have a fab day.

Brightside - really feel for you on your work colleague. Wouldn't it be nice just to have a few weeks of no pregnancy announcements, baby updates etc at work or on bloody Facebook!

Now come on 2013 - this thread deserves some good news!

Hi
Can I join? I am 30 in march and me and OH are in month 3 of TTC our first. This is the first month of using OPKs, I got a plus on my OPK on the 18th and DTD on that day and every day the 5 days prior. AF due NY day.....11 days of waiting and torturing myself symptom spotting. Really really really hope this is our month. I have a PMA and feel calm, happy and have everything crossed.

Hello all and welcome Cleo

Right, just 30 minutes of work left ..... !

Am going to make a point of not looking on the internet over Christmas - and we are going away for NY - so am going to wish you all the very best for the festive season now.

Goodbye and good riddance to 2012. May 2013 bring us all good things.

Speak to you next year !

xxx

It's the most wonderful time of the year... Term is over, wine is mulling and singstar is calling. I may be off for the holidays as well (depends how bored I get at the in-laws). Hope you had a great birthday Caipirinhas. Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night. See you in the new year.

Merry Christmas & happy new year to you all!! X

Merry Christmas ladies and hopefully a bump filled 2013 (surely it can't be any worse than 2012!).
Eat and drink (even if its sparkling water) lots.
Xx

Bollocks to sparkling water! Bring on the wine - all bets are off between now and Jan 1.

Well said notnow! I'll drink to that (surely it'd be rude not too?)

I definitely think it would be rude not to. It would hurt the champagne's feelings. And then all the cocktails would feel left out.

Disclaimer: am not actually an alcoholic; just embracing the Christmas spirit(s and wines).

I'm not actually going to be drinking water.. Mulled wine last night and now a nice glass of red to finish the eve off... In fact not sure when my next alcohol free day will be now as I finally finished work for christmas today :)

Merry Christmas ladies!

I'm feeling a bit down today - not so much with the TTC thing (although it's always in the background making everything else so hard to deal with), but because sometimes (being a step-mum) I feel like I get all the s**t bits - not being able to go travelling, having to go on holidays with kids during the expensive school holidays, driving halfway across the country to pick up and drop off (only to get sarcastic nasty comments from self-centred OH's ex because she's a mum and thinks her kids are the centre of the universe), skint because of all the child support that goes out of OH's account, not eligible for any funding because OH has kids already etc etc etc - without any of the good bits, like actually being a mum! Grrrr.

Also, just had a visit from the in-laws as I (kindly I think) suggested that they come down for the weekend to see their grandchildren on our only weekend with them before christmas despite the fact that I was on night shifts, only for OH's mum to go on about OH's ex (yet again) and the family holiday when oldest and OH and ex went swimming with dolphins and youngest was "still in mummy's tummy" - what a delightful image for me to have in my head - I could have slapped her!

Now all the arrangements for contact over christmas have been changed yet again without any consideration of my working hours over the holidays (christmas day - only the morning thankfully, plus loads of other shifts) so I'm going to get about 3 days off with OH and his kids, the first of which they'll have spent 8 hours in a car. And, of course the in-laws want to come down again.

I can't believe I'm sending such a ranty post - think the fact that I'm shattered after nightshifts probably isn't helping - just need to get it off my chest.

On TTC, had mmr so off to get a huge glass of wine right now!

I really hope that all of our luck changes in 2013 - things have got to get brighter soon.

Going to put big smile on my face now, forget all the crap and concentrate on mine and OH's christmas...at least there'll be pressies! Hope you all get some lovely surprises from Santa.

Love to you all x x x x

Happy Christmas everyone and a successful 2013!
Currently listening to my little niece and nephew opening their stockings with their parents in the room next door. They're so excited and I'm so jealous of my sister right now
X

I have very light spotting today! eeek, I hope I find the magic pee stick by new year when the witch is due

Happy new year everyone!!
Hope you all had a chance to celebrate with something fizzy and people you love.
Here's to 2013 bringing good things for us all x x

Happy New Year everyone

Well the witch is due today but so far no sign, no cramps, no spotting, checked and my cervix is higher than the last 2 days and my cm is finally creamy rather than brown spotting. Hoping I had implantation later than I thought (pos day 9 or 10 not day 7 when I first had spotting) that would explain the lack of a nice clear BFP! Waiting till Wednesday to test again....eeeek.

Hello ladies

Happy new year to you all!

Sorry not been on here for a while, I have just read all the posts (going back to nov) and would like to welcome all the new people. My New Years resolution is to check this more often!

butterflyhopes82 you sound just like me and my DH, we must be 25 or 26 cycles in without a single BFP. Just finished month three of clomid and AF due tom. Thinking of having a month off it as read lots of stories of people getting preg when they have stopped it. Besides we only have three months of it left and a 12 month wait for Ivf so might as well spread it out! Hope it works for you too. How amazing you're a midwife, if I wasn't such a wimp I'd definitely retrain as one!

missbrightside hope you are having an amazing holiday and lots of sun, sea and sex! Wish I was somewhere hot now, rather than putting off going to bed cos got to get up for work Tom. A friend of mine had Ivf about 15 years ago and actually saw prof winston for a consultation. His advice to her was the same as he replied, find a doctor that you trust and have confidence in and that will give you the best possible chance.

Everyone else, hope you had a lovely New Year's Eve and that 2013 is full of lots of luck and happiness. Xxxx