With angel babies in the sky, some of us expecting rainbow babies, others still ttc and definitely swi!!

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started new thread! we do talk a lot, don't we?

Happy Birthday Georgie.

ciwi hugs to you too, its a day that we all fear, be kind to yourself.

Happy birthday Georgie, may you be having fun with all the other angel babies xx Wishing your mummy and daddy lots of love and the strength to celebrate all that is you xx

Thoughts to you also ciwi and to all of us who truly feel each others pain.

ciwi big hugs to you and floaty hugs for Ciaran. x Thinking of you today too. I will light a candle later for Georgie and Ciaran x

Ciwi massive hugs, thinking of you and Ciaran today xxx

Angel huge hugs for you too and a happy birthday to Georgie xxx

I shall light candles tonight xx

Thanks all. I ll light a candle for Georgie & Ciaran also. Not a bad day ; loads of lovely texts , flowers from family. We had lunch out then took some flowers & a pot plant to Georgie's special place. Was very quiet & sedate there. Xxxx

Happy birthday Georgie angel, and much love to you, Angel. Glad the day wasn't too bad.

Hugs to Ciwi and baby Ciaran too. Thinking of you both.

Massive hugs to you Angel and Happy birthday Georgie! i hope you know how much your family love and really miss you!
Ciwi- baby Ciaran you are also dearly missed - taken way to soon xxxxxx
Hugs to you all xxxxx

Thanks all xxx

Just woken up after having the worst dream about my Ophelia, I dreamt I was pregnant and my mum kept taking her out of my womb to look at her, and then she died. And then I was blaming my mum saying it was her fault as she must have put her back in a stupid way that she got tangled, and why did she put her back anyway, she could have survived outside now. Ive woken up crying, I feel so terrible, what a horrible dream. Why does our mind do this to us?

green what a horrible dream :( hugs, they feel so real don't they? It's odd the things our mind conjures up

Didn't sleep well last night, finally dropped off gone half one and was awake at about 6.15, yawn.

cheese I was the same while pg, couldnt sleep, was so tired but ending up staying up most of the night or getting up extremely early. I hope its improves for you.
Dream did really feel real and its still with me now.

angel and ciwi thinkining of you and your angels.

green what horrible dream.

I've been feeling lots of movements this morning and last night dh felt the baby move too :o I keep saying "he" and dh keeps saying "she" at least one of us will be right :) My bump is expanding quite a lot and it still shocks me to look down and see it, I never quite expect it!

cheese yay for movements! does it make it all seem a bit more real now?

Hi everyone, thanks for all your kind messages yesterday, it was a hard day but I got through it by concentrating on the cake I am making for his birthday tomorrow. I have practised it now and it's looking good, just making the proper one now after being shopping for blue food colouring all day (eventually found some).
cheese my movements are getting stronger now too but still not very many (just about a couple a day) my bump is surprisingly big too!
green it seems that awful dreams are common amongst all of us, they are so horrible though x
angel I am glad you managed to have a nice day, Georgie will be proud x

How far along are you two, Cheese and Ciwi? I'm still not feeling anything definite - sometimes I think I feel a kick but I'm never certain. Most of the feelings are on the left of my tummy and I'm not sure if they're Bean or not. I'm 15+4. My bump is massive!

Green, that's such a horrible dream. You poor thing.

Ciwi, thinking of you for tomorrow.

Angel, when is your ELCS booked for? I know it's really soon!

Have started freaking out about the amnio now. I can't concentrate properly at work and I don't think I'm really fit to be there, but I will probably take most of next week off and then I've got 4 days booked off the week after because BIL and family will be here, so I feel like I can't miss any more time when we're so busy. I am alternatively torturing myself with a) Bean will have Down's, b) I will miscarry as a result of the amnio and c) they will scan me to begin the amnio and Bean will have died. I don't know how I will cope if any of these things happen. I've arranged for the community MW to come round on Tues morning to listen for the heartbeat and I'm going to ask her to come back every day that week to reassure me.

Blue it does and it doesn't, if that makes sense! Certainly makes me smile when I feel the movements though :)

ciwi will be thinking of you tomorrow, hugs. The cake sounds lovely, I'm not great at baking unfortunately.

Too I'm 17+3 now :) Hugs, I'm not surprised your worried, really hope the amnio goes smoothly with no complications and that the results come back good too.

I've got my anomaly scan booked now, the 28th of this month at 8am, so at least no waiting about! Then I have two consultant appointments from 9am so a busy morning. They wanted it done before my appointment so they could see how big the baby is. Hoping to find out that all is well, Scarlett had echo genic bowels at her 20 week scan so I'm quite nervous.

Knackered again today, only managed about 4 and a half hours sleep, can't seem to do it lately.

Ciwi thanks. Yesterday was nice really & what can you do??? We can t stop time can we??? Your cake sounds lovely. It's Ant who is the cook/ baker in our relationship. He's just baked a load of scones for my work colleagues. Hope tomorrow is not too painful xxx
Was it you who asked when my section is ??? Can t remember!!! It's next Tuesday the 18 th.
Cheese glad you ve got your appts/ scan sorted. Insomnia going on here also!!! Thankfully , it's bearable now as can nap in the day. Was a nightmare when I was at work.
Too poor you. It must be a very worrying time for you. I so hope everything turns out ok for you & the next few weeks fly by.
Green don t know about you but I do find when I m pregnant I have the mist vivid , horrible dreams. Mine are not so much horrible but really odd relating back to friends from 15 years ago!!!! Hope you dream better tonight x
Hi Blue, hows the house going? Any news?
Hi Jane hope you re ok?
Hi Shakey hope you re well? How many weeks are you now?
Love to all. Hope everyone's ok?
Last scan tomorrow !!!( 10th scan of this pregnancy!!!) & seeing my consultant afterwards. Then hair appointment....
Nice to be off work & chilling , pottered today & a bit of cleaning.
Love to all xxxx

cheese yay for movements, I loved to feel Zoe squirming about, i miss the feeling so much.

too Im sorry you are feeling so rubbish just now, I am praying everything is ok with bean. hugs to you.xx

angel wow 7 more sleeps until gils! hope the week zooms past for you.

I am donating Zoe's moses basket to the maternity unit she was born, they have a shortage of them and I would love to help. We found it so comforting that Zoe was in a pretty moses basket in the hospital.

Hello all
Im going to be quick as so very tired. Worked the night last night then drove straight to oxford when shift was over....took me 2 hours to get there!! My appointment was for 10am and I didnt get seen until 1230. Had scan and they did nuchal test, measurement was fine. As I predicted they want me to return in 2 weeks to be 100% but baby is looking fine at the moment. I dont have a feeling of relief as I no only too well that it could all change next time.
cheese I am also sleep deprived but so desperate for some so you have my sympathy.
too I really do understand your dreadful wait and no wonder you cant concentrate, has the date for the amnio stayed the same??
angel glad that yesterday was peaceful for you. How lovely to be able to do things at your own pace. Enjoy your last scan x
green what a dreadful dream, try to have a really calm evening before bed tonight.
jane it is lovely that you feel able to donate Zoe's moses basket, what a very kind thing to do.
ciwi best wishes for tomorrow and enjoy the cake. If you feel able to it would be great if you posted a picture as I would really love to see it.

Hi everyone, I am quite proud of the cake, it's not perfect but it's made with lots of love and for someone who is not very artistic I think it's quite good. I will try and post a pic tomorrow when I have done all the finishing touches.
too I feel for you with this amnio hanging over your head. To be honest, Ciaran's birthday is distracting me from the doppler scan but I do worry when I stop to think about it. I am 17+4 today x
jane thats a lovely idea to donate Zoe's moses basket x
razz great news about the nuchal test x
angel just one week to go! Hope you get plenty of rest this week then x

Jane that's a lovely thing to do. Xxx
Ciwi as I said your cake sounds lovely xx
Razz fab news. As we all know things can change so quickly however try & find a little relief in todays's results. Throughout this pregnancy I ve taken every stage step by step it's all any of us can do. Xxx hope you sleep well tonight. Xxx

DH took me out last night for dinner which was good, hes such a sweetie.

too stay strong, I hope this is the only blip you have this pg and that everything is fine.

ciwi thinking of you, I hope you have a gentle day. And enjoy the cake.

jane that is a lovely idea to give away Zoes moses basket a lovely gesture.

I have signed up to make a few squares for the condolence mumsnet blanket they are making for chipmonkey whose baby died. I thought as Im a crocheter I might as well lend a hand.

Well Im off to work in a moment, swi at the mo to due to impending ov today? thats if it happens, havnt had the usual run up of near pos ov tests. But we shall see. Though Im not going to get too upset this month if I dont get a bfp I am really over weight and I am trying to do something about it, Ive put on nearly a stone since I had Ophelia, its not good! (damn you comfort eating)

green my ov sticks still don't show near pos... but ov should be sometime this coming days, probably at weekend. Hope I can convince DH for some swi-ing, he's been too tired the last few days :(

Hi girls, been very emotional the last few days and have been crying for all our precious babies. I hate that we have these dates to get through! However, we have the strength to do it.
AF is due this weekend and I'm too impatient for it. Actually feel like I'm about to get it with the usual cramping but decided that I'd like to torture myself a bit so decided to test early. Test yesterday had nothing, test today had a really faint line (and no, I'm not just seeing things). However I just feel really crap about it all and think I'm never going to get pregnant and have a living baby. Sorry for being so negative about what could potentially be something positive but I'm just terrified of never getting a baby x
(sorry it's a selfish post too - I am thinking about everyone and what they're going through especially Ciwi today) xx