With angel babies in the sky, some of us expecting rainbow babies, others still ttc and definitely swi!!

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started new thread! we do talk a lot, don't we?

shakey thats crap! I listened to the song, it is so sad i cried too.

Afternoon. My head is killing me today, really throbbing. Held out as long as I could and then took some paracetemol but it's not helped that much, might be another migraine. I've never had them before I got pregnant this time but seem to be getting them fairly often now. I'm still finding the injecting quite difficult, it can be quite painful at times so it take me a while to actually push it in every time. My sugar levels have been up higher today which is odd, I need to call my numbers in but called yesterday and didn't get a call back. Think I might have called the wrong answerphone .

ciwi That's good about the results. My next scan isn't until 20 weeks, I'm wondering if I should ask for one before then. I feel ok with things at the moment but I know that can change and it's probably down to me not really connecting yet, if that makes sense.

Too I thought it would help once I felt movements but it hasn't so far, which surprised me. Maybe when I feel proper kicks? I feel more than flutters now but nothing regular as such. Definitely every day and a good few times but no pattern. It's really difficult. I think it must be normal to feel this way though, at least I hope so! Your bank sounds a pain! Congrats on 12 weeks :) I can't believe I'll be 15 weeks on Sat, I can barely believe I'm pregnant still. I'm sure I felt so different last time at this stage, sometimes I wish I could have that naivety back. I feel so negative all the time.

I buy the asprin myself, I have to cut them up though as I can't swallow tablets.

Mama Are you still holding out from poas?

green Yep signed up a while back. Hope you're ok today what with it being your grandad's birthday. I feel the same about my nan, she died when I was 15 of cancer (she was only 65 I think) and she said she always wanted to see me grown up and with children. I just hope she can see me now and is looking after Scarlett for me.

Dachs hugs, that must have been a hard day. How are you feeling now with the cramping? I hope things are ok, have you had your scan yet? Fingers crossed for you xx

shakey Can you be seen or have a scan sooner? Surely they must understand how hard this time will be for you? (hugs) xx

Forgot to say dachs I have everything crossed for you. I really hope you are ok .

Dachs hope u re ok?
Ciwi was told " don t pay for anything now when you get it for free" which us a novelty I must admit after always paying for everything!!
Shakey wow 18 weeks. Hope you get your appointments sorted. Not started mat leave yet just AL. Never the less is a lovely thought a week of now!!
Hope everyone else is ok??? Xxx thank god to have finished so tired, will be lush to have a lie in tomorrow xxx

Thanks Too & AngelGeorgie
ohhh time is getting closer , not long now!
Diffeddaff- ohhh im so sorry for what you going through - Big hug! all will be well!
Green - Big hug too you missing a loved one is really hard!
Shakeyjake - could you asked for a closer scan surely they should understand!
seeing baby twice should be good more pictures!( if hospital aint too far)
Cheese - yeh still have not tested, so dont want to get a BFN!!! so just avoiding it! now thinking got dates wrong although i counted loads of times maybe cycle has changed! Wow your nearly 15 weeks thats great!

Its so nuts that hospitals dont have more of a understanding your concern policy and give scans just so your not worried!!!!! which cant be good either!

So relieved!

Baby measuring fine for dates, looks nice and healthy. Looks like bleeding was from the cervix, well away from where bean has decided to implant.

Doc not worried about cramping now he's seen the baby and established where the bleeding was from. :) Still seeing me every week though, so I get another sneaky peek next Thursday.

We talked about the twins and my fears and he said that this pg looks fine so far, is much lower risk as it's not a twin pg and he's going to monitor me as closely as he needs to for me to feel better. He really seems to care about getting me a baby this time, and he gave me a great big hug :)

So it's a much better day than I thought it was going to be when I got up this morning!

(It's a shame the baby looks like an alien on the scan pic - it must take after its father...)

Hi guys, Angel I find I'm doing the "keeping busy" route at the moment and I'm not even pg - also love the mantras, razz you will remain strong enough, thanks for the honesty, I thought it might feel as you described. Cheese you are overdue some good luck - things sound like they are really tough - you deserve to feel happy about your pregnancy although I understand how hard it must be. I saw my pg friend today. She's due in 12 days. We had lunch, with another friend who's not pregnant and before she left we, very quickly, went through some of Jacob's baby clothes and just put a load of stuff, neutral stuff - vests and muslins, nappies, a couple of blankets and the breast-pump - in a bag for her. I still have lots of things, she doesn't know whether she's having a boy or a girl and so didn't take any "boy" stuff. Initially I felt fine about it, even a bit of relief just because there's less here to contend with but then I suddenly burst into tears a minute ago with a pair of socks in my hand. Sometimes feel so lost.
Too I can imagine I might also feel a bit calmer if I were to be pregnant, I still don't know if losing Jacob means I can't get pregnant again, hope and pray that I can.
DH home from work now so will be back in a bit, sorry, not had a chance to fully catch up with all the posts.

shakeyjake :)

I just got Ed Shearan's album in the post from my bf in Spain, literally this afternoon. I had already downloaded the "A-team" song having heard it on the radio but I haven't heard "small bump", not sure if that's why she sent it. Will have a listen now.

Dachs that's fab news. Am so pleased that everything went well with the scan and that you have a good consultant. That'll hopefully make things easier. Out on nightshift soon so away to grab an hours kip. Hi to all of you xx

meL don t work too hard. Poor you I used to hate nights.
Dachs fab news so pleased for you xx
Mama glad you re ok?
August you re being very brave. Seeing your pregnant friend x
Love to all xxx

Sooo tired and feel a bit rough...

Dachs so glad all is ok, you must be so relieved!

angel enjoy your lie in

August hugs dear! I'm being confronted with 2 pregnant friends all the time, so I know how it feels! I should have been bigger than them by now, instead I'm thinking about what to put on my baby's grave instead of getting everything ready for her to be born :(

shakey I hope you get your care sorted! It is such a shame we have to do it all ourselves and that they aren't better at organising it properly so we can be at ease with it after what we've all been through!

Hi everyone else

dachs fantastic news!

Well I poas today and anothe bfn . Im now 6 days late and expecting af to show up in full force on saturday whilst I am at my bf wedding!

dachs thats great news Im so glad your doctor is stepping up and looking after you and your little bean.

Jane that sucks!!!!! Boooooooo for AF why does she alwsys seam to turn up on the days you wish she wouldnt!

August well done you, you are so brave giving that stuff away.

blue get better soon.

I am so knackered! Yesterday I was so tired at work coldnt stop yawning, when I got hope had a eye strain migraine and had to go to bed so Ive slept like 10 hours! Stil dont feel right this morning. I was quite surprised yesterday a lady from work was asking about Ophelia and she asked to see the picture of her I wear in a locket around my neck. I dont mind showing everyone but I was surprised as she is the first person to ask.

Hi ladies -
Dachs -Ohhhh thats wonderful new about the scan! im sure baby is lovely and dont look like an alien!!!!!!!
August -I hope feel that its too be expected you crying and feeling sad, is going to come in waves and can be sparked off by anything!
trust me i cried last night watching stupid Emmerdale and this young girl upset that shes pregnant! i know its just a stupid program but it happens in real life everyday!i found out someone got pregnant by accident and shes upset, while im out for another month! so all the stress starts all over again! blahhhh!
Mel - i hope nightshift will go quickly for you!
Blue - sorry you not feeling great, it will get better!
Jane - sorry for the negative but i hope you enjoy the wedding!!!!!
Green - boo for the migraine, i hate them!!!!!! but nice about Ophelia picture in the locket, that so nice always with you.

So yes the hag got me early on this morning, no clue why late, but never mind !
Enjoy your days ladies!

god I feel like crap! Im trying not to get my hopes up that its symptoms! But it is in the back of my mind. I have a headache now but generally feel unwell, a bit fuzzy. Im going to give it till lunch at work and then see how I feel but I think I might go home. Its funny isnt it, any normal person would be upset they are feeling unwell but when your ttc you start to hope you will feel unwell so it will mean your pg!

booooooooooooooo for AF mama5

Sorry mama xx
Take care all. I m excited as off to gorgeous Thoresby Hall soon for 3 days of blissful pampering. Lush xxx

ahhh take care of yourself Green! and if your not well go home!!!!!!
AngelG- enjoy the pampering you SOOOOOO deserve it!!!!!!!!
retail therepy for me i think!!!!!

angel Enjoy your break! xxx :)

green Everything crossed that you soon feel even more rubbish and sicky! :)

mama5 sorry AF showed up - happy SWI in two weeks! :)

jane sorry for BFN - I hope AF doesn't show up at a bad time.

blue Sorry you're feeling rough. I hope you feel better soon xxx

mel Hope the nightshift went ok and you are now slumbering peacefully! :)

Morning, feeling like crap today. My head is throbbing, cannot get rid of this headache every day. I'm still in pain and aching from the crash we had a couple of weeks back too. Blood sugar is on the high side again, sigh. Hope the rest of you are feeling better than me.

dachs that's really wonderful, so pleased baby is looking well :)

hey cheese I really feel for you, when I was last pg I pulled my back while coughing and the pain never went away untill I had Ophelia. It think its coz your bones are so soft while pg it makes it harder to heal quick, or something like that. Everything is stretching aswell which cant help with healing and feeling better either. Poor you.

I have a splitting headache myself and finding it hard to focus.

Oh Mama, how rubbish. FX this is your month. x

Cheese hope you get some rest and feel better soon, take it easy x

Dachs Hi, and great news on your scan x

Morning all (well it is for me as I was on nights last night too)
cheese I have an 18 week doppler scan because last time Ciaran's growth was already on the lower centile at 20 weeks so the consultant wants to scan me before that point this time. If you have a headache you should take paracetamol, I have been told loads of times by doctors and midwives that it is perfectly safe to take, hope you feel better soon x
mama sorry af showed up, fingers crossed next month will be your month
dachs yay for the scan, great news!
green I have everything crossed that you feeling rubbish is a good sign, when are you thinking of testing?
angel enjoy your pampering, sounds lovely
blue hope your cold clears up soon
jane sorry about the bfn, our bodies can play horrible tricks on us sometimes, hope you can enjoy the wedding without the witch though.
No real news here, just got up after nights and now trying to keep myself busy so I don't fall asleep again else I won't sleep tonight!

I would say ig AF hasnt arrived by wednesday thursday next week then I shall be testing then.

I'm another headachey one today - not migraines though, Cheese. Just the tired type. I am resting on the sofa when I should be packing a bag to go up to Mum's tonight. Mmm, sofa. I could so easily fall asleep.

Dachs, so pleased to hear that all is well! My heart sank when I read your post about bleeding and cramping, so it was a delight to read the next one saying everything is fine. All babies look like aliens at 8 weeks! Baby Bean looked like a roughly frog-shaped blob.

DH went into the pharmacy and asked for 75mg dispersible aspirin - mine wasn't the enteric coated stuff. I am also a big believer in getting free stuff, Angel, but I didn't have time to go to the surgery to pick up a prescription before the weekend. When this lot runs out I'll make sure I get the next lot on prescription.

Green, FX for testing next week!

Jane, sorry to hear AF is messing you around. I hope the wedding goes well - have fun!

Mama, grr for AF! FX for next month.

Cheese, sorry to hear you're feeling so rough. I hope your blood sugar stabilises soon. Did you get a call from the hospital?

August, you are so brave giving things away!

Shakey, I hope you get your scan sorted for week 18. They just don't get it, do they?

My booking scan is next Wed - must find letter and check what time! I got the bank sorted out yesterday and have money again, hurray. Now I must not spend it all at once...