With angel babies in the sky, some of us expecting rainbow babies, others still ttc and definitely swi!!

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started new thread! we do talk a lot, don't we?

august I am a gardener, so I have to use strimmers, ride on mowers, rotavators, chainsaws, I also do weed killing and moss killing and well you come into contact alot with faeces!

blue manuka honey never heard of it, please give us your honest opinion on if it works! Well I suppose we shall know if you get BFP this month.

I had some fibroid pain last night, certain it was, it was a sharp pain where they are, so hopefully they are dying. But then there was this little part of my that thought it could be implantation pain, or egg moving pain? if this exists? Im on day 22?

Hi Angel, Too - my condolences for your angel babies and congratulations on the rainbows :)

Feeling quite peaceful today. I've invited one of my pg friends round for lunch on Thu as I have a huge chest full of baby stuff that I haven't been able to look at. Its been playing on my mind that I should go through it at some point so I've decided to give most of it to her. I know they're a bit strapped for cash and it seems wrong that it should all go to waste. I realise in some ways I should keep it all in case we're lucky enough to have another baby but this just seems the right thing to do and I'm sure my friend will take care of it and return it if and when my time comes. I have a few items that I bought for Jacob in his memory box. Still a bit daunted about seeing her lovely big bump (she's due on 4th October) - it will be bittersweet I'm sure.

Mel loving your planning, I'm going to buy some ov tests now so I can start keeping track...

Xx

green ah, that explains it... when I read yr post I was thinking zoos and fork-lift trucks!

Your pain could be implantation... day 22 sounds about right if it was that. Actually, even if you missed your ov the little swimmers can live inside you for a good few days (allegedly) so you never know.... fx

Morning all. Tired this morning. Had some really weird and worrying palpitations last night, like my heart was skipping a beat, for about an hour. I'm putting it down to being exhausted though as I woke up ok this morning. Both sons off school, only daughter is in at the moment, hoping she doesn't get ill too. Miserable day out. Hope everyone has a good day

green good news about being moved, you must be quite relieved at that. Might be your month yet still.

Mel I hope so too, it's been one thing after another lately. Your work have been awful, I'm really sorry you're having to deal with that on top of everything else. I hope you get it sorted and they realise how difficult they're being.

Angel I know that it's low relatively but it doesn't feel that way and it's worrying. I wouldn't terminate anyway and wouldn't want invasive tests but it's still worrying to me and I would prefer to know.

Too Well I called the hospital and she explained that the risks were low, it was only my levels of free beta hcg which were high and so caused the result to be as it was but the other two measurements were fine. They were very reassuring but completely understood how I felt given my history. I hope your results are good next week. Thanks, ds2 has been breathing easier now with the steroids and the anti biotics should kick in too. Just glad it didn't get any worse. Dh is doing ok, his platelets went down again a little but not dangerously so, only a little! He's being seen every couple of weeks by the consultant at the moment until they get control of things and his steroid dose is still high too so they're working on lowering that.

Blue Tell me about it, we play the lottery but I'm not holding my breath, we're definitely due some good luck soon though. We're the same as you in that we'd always continue with the pregnancy but would like to know. My dad swears by manuka honey (not for conception obviously!) for immune and colds etc I think.

August it took us about 6 months to even start to through Scarlett's baby clothes, the things like moses basket that we were bought, blanets and pram we've put in the loft and my parent's garage straight away out of sight but it was really hard doing the clothes.

Hi Cheese I agree the clothes have been the one thing that I just can't even bring myself to look at. Like you we also put pram, car-seat, moses basket and crib all away in the loft (well, DH did it) but I have this habit of just opening one drawer where all the clothes are and picking out a vest or hat and then I get all choked up. I think its mainly because the chest is in our bedroom that I can't stop thinking about it. I think it might help a little to go through it and have a cry, in a way I want to, but not alone, its so hard.

I hope your palpitations aren't anything serious - were you feeling panicky or anxious? Or some foods can cause that I think... chilli / chocolate ???

Hope your boys are on the mend x

august fx it is but Im not going to get to worked up this month about it. just fx it is implantation
I also think that is very brave of you to give away the baby things, well done you. If you felt it was right, we packed all ours away after 3 weeks in the loft ready for the next baby it didnt feel like Ophelias things and the stuff that did we put in her coffin with her.

cheese I remember haveing heart palps when last pg used to scare me.

Quick update, met with the nicest nurse for the occ health company. She was really good and said i'll be staying where I am and my hours will be staying at 6 per shift until after my hold in Nov. Hopefully be pg by then but she was fab and I feel a lot better. Just the grievance with hr to sort out and then that'll be me sorted at work. Hallelujah! X

ok Ive started to obsess a bit, thinking of the symptoms I have, I have broken out skin is terrible this week, ususally this only happens when Im near AF as in the day before. CD22 today so that cant be reason and I have washed! Also that bit of pain yesterday. I woke up so hot the past two days Im boiling now sitting here in the office next to an open window!

Ok Im going to stop obsessing now thats it for today.

I just cant help myself.

mel such good news! Yayyyyyy!

green my fingers are firmly crossed for you!

august I too think you are so brave giving Jacobs things away. We have kept zoe's things with the aim of using them for her brother or sister (hopefully) one day. I still go into her room and look at her clothes too.

Fab news mel

cheese hope you are ok.

August It is really difficult. We had the clothes in our room too and I often would see a babygrow or snowsuit and just think about what should have been and get upset. We went through them together eventually and it was hard, but easier than doing it alone. (hugs) I'm hoping it was just tiredness, hadn't really eaten anything for the few hours before and I've not had any today, touch wood! I read they're more common in pregnancy due to hormones too so, maybe that. They're currently playing the wii so at least taking their mind of the pain and sickness.

green dh bought a lovely little dress set from John Lewis along with my birthday presents in the November as we'd seen it a few times in there and I just loved it. It was meant to be her coming home outfit but we had her dressed in it after she was born in December and then buried in it along with the teddy it came with, letters we wrote for her and drawings from the children. It's quite upsetting thinking about it again, I guess we all have those days.

My skin is awful now I'm pregnant, usually it's clear and no spots but it's terrible so maybe that's a good sign for you! I really hope so. I remember feeling off for a week before I tested positive so I guess my body knew but it was too early to detect with a test. I really thought I was coming to come on though as it felt just like that, I was a little shocked when I got the positive result.

Mel that's really great news, so relieved for you. Must be a weight off your mind.

xx

Hi jane crossed posts with you. How are you doing?

Hi everyone,
mel thats great news and fx you will well be pg by then x
cheese I sometimes get palpitations, they are common in pregnancy I think, though they don't feel very nice!
green really hoping that this is your month x
Hi august and welcome, though sorry that you find yourself here x
Sorry girls, not doing too great with the personals at the moment. I am having a bit of a rough day, it's a few weeks till Ciaran's birthday and I am thinking a lot about this time last year. Little did I know that I would only have a few weeks left with my little boy, I thought I would have a lifetime. Work isn't helping either as I am part time on a study which involves follwing people up a year later so I am now contacting all the people I met with this time last year, it feels so much like rubbing salt into a wound. I just can't help thinking how happy I was and how quickly your life can change forever, sorry for the depressing post girls, it's just so hard sometimes x

hugs for you ciwi

Yay for nice nurse Mel

cheese take it easy!

So it's green, Mel, August and me still ttc! this will be our month girls! I just have a good feeling about it!

I've got terrible headaches, AF is on its way out!
what a miserable day out there today! Been making a Brown Sugar and Oat Scrub for my friends birthday and will make a nice scented body lotion once the washing machine has finished making that horrible sound!

I hope your right Blue you are being crafty today arent you, body scrubs.

ciwi big hugs, its not depressing hun, well it is but thats what we are here for to support each other at such times.

you forgot Jane

oooh sorry Jane we should have a list somewhere

oh just made the body lotion! it's lovely! not sure if I want to give it as a present now

Whats this blue leaving me out!

cheese I am ok I think, I have been having more bad days than usual this month. I have too much time alone to think Df is working away from home at the minute.

I am on cd 32 and af has not shown her face yet, we only dtd twice this month and i really don't think I am pg ( i had 2 bfn), just wish she would hurry the hell up. I want to get back in the saddle for next month!

I'm sorry. I'm sorry!

Well, loads going on again so I am bound to forget something. Here goes....
cheese you poor thing, you must feel like it is one thing after the other, it certainly seems like it all happens at once in your household!!
green that is great news about your job and it would be so lovely if you did get a surprise BFP this month ready for your move into your new home, fingers tightly crossed for you.
mel Im pleased that work have allowed you to keep your current hours, what a shame they have put you through so much stress to get there
august hello and welcome. I have not been on the thread for a huge amount of time but have found the ladies on here to be fantastic and such a massive form of support to me.
ciwi sorry that you are feeling so low but do keep telling us about it and we can all keep helping each other through. Sending hugs.
too I am exactly two weeks behind you (had another shady scan yesterday) and am now 9+5. My consultant has kindly offered to deliver me in the last week of march if I would like to keep the month of April for Thomas.......am currently pondering this
angel yay for the rest time and your journey nearing it's end
blue and jane hoping for BFP this month aswell as for mel, green and august

My sickness isnt quite so bad at the moment I am pleased to report and I havent given the game away at work
Can I ask you all a sensitive question......did you keep your prams that you had purchased for your next baby? I ask as my dad brought me a gorgeous pram that cost him a lot of money and it is currently stored at my parents house.......bit undecided about it. What did you decide??

razz we still have the pram its up in my parents loft, we were thinking of using it for the next babies if Fi was still here so it didnt feel like her pram if you know what I mean. It was the personal things like her going home outfit, a bunny my mum had brought back from china to symobilse the chinese new year animal, and a pair of pink booties that MIL made especially for her. I think because we didnt know what we were having all the clothes and stuff we had bought was unisex and didnt solely feel like hers, some were hand me downs as well and I would have kept them all for the next babies too.
Now thinking about it keeping all that stuff was a good thing as when I fall pg again I dont want to get anything till the baby is here and well we already have it, so I dont have to go into shops and think about getting stuff, with the thought in the back of my head that this baby might not make it either. Does that make sense?

maybe its an omen jane that your actually up the duff!

Hi ladies, I have calmed down a bit now. Spent most of the day in work crying off and on, luckily I am in an office on my own! The thing is I hate the research job I have and love working with children with complex needs. I wish I could leave the research job and just do the other one full time but I will only get mat pay from the research one and can't afford to lose that. I also had a doctors appointment this afternoon for my blood test results which are not back yet, really annoying because I was supposed to let the consultant know what they are tommorrow. Hoping for a better day tommorrow and really hoping I will see the consultant (apparently there is a note on my file that says I need to see him and not the juniors)
razz glad the sickness is getting better, I sent the pram back in the end, I was trying to relax about ttc and think along the lines of it will happen when it happens and I just felt like the pram was putting pressure on me (totally crazy I know)
Really hoping for bfp's for green, mel, august and jane x

Ciwi hope u feel better soon.
Razz we ve got the same pram, car seat everything. A lot of stuff is at my folks house we ve just bought the car seat back to ours at the weekend but it's still in a large bag as too painful to look at. We , too, have a full wardrobe of gorgeous clothes that were bought for Georgie GILS will be wearing. My mum has bought GILS her " coming home " outfit and like Georgie we will buy her , her first teddy.
Mel glad stuff is getting sorted. X
Too hope u re ok?
August you re very brave seeing your pg friend I initially avoided pg ladies like the plague!!!
Jane, Green, Blue all good luck for this month xxx
Hi anyone I ve missed
Very, very tired didn t sleep last night awake from 2.30-5 am then long day at work. Only finished 10 mins ago!!! However, only 2 days to go then off for a pampering weekend and 1 week of AL yeh!!! Xxx