Emmsys weebling onwards and upwards into summer.

[VJay]

Here we are a new spruced up greenhouse

Thanks 4ever, glad you have some idea's!

Barbie huge amounts of good luck to you for today, will keep checking for updates as much as I can but know I am thinking of you and am hoping that your bean is still growing nicely

BQ You sound very happy, and your post was lovely to read. Luca is a gorgeous name - I had a little boy in my class for the last couple of years called Luca and he is a star. Bodes well

VJay and cupcake I'm loving all the HP talk [hgrin] T'is very exciting! It comes out here today, wish we were able to go and see it but M's dad is on hols so no babysitter... When are you both going?

Louey Goodness, I think you're doing amazingly I can't believe how you are managing to juggle everything, including waking up with a newborn and then being woken up by other ds's too... You must be absolutely exhausted! Do you want to give up bf'ing? It must be so difficult to concentrate on that when there is so much other stuff going on, but I think you must do what you feel is the right thing for you either way. If you feel like you will regret giving up then maybe try for a little longer - could you alternate bf'ing and ff'ing? Might give your nipples a chance at healing. I tried breast shields with ds and they didn't really help much. I really struggled and it was painful until ds was 12 weeks, but then it did settle down. It's so difficult knowing what to do isn't it. Good luck x

Must go now as am meeting a friend in 20 mins and need to get ds out the house! All fine here, got IVF paperwork through last week and now getting slightly excited about starting. Hope I'm not odd for feeling like that! Will try to come back later for more personals, but I think of you all lots even when I don't post! I miss mermaid too Really hope she's okay...

Oh yea and todays wobble is i discovered i should of been using my progesterone pessary twice a day, and have only been using it once a day.. praying it doesnt affect things Is it the 26th yet?

Hope barbies not wobbling so much she cant turn her laptop on?

X post Monkey hello! Where are you coming into on the 6th? Plane train or automobile? Fab news bout the IVF paperwork, course you gonna be excited! One step nearer to meeting monkeybabybum x

Sending sticky positive thoughts to Barbie will try and get back on later to post properly

Well hello there...

Sorry, i have been snowed under with glitter holiday packing, getting fred ready for kennels, shopping, dh birthday and all the rest. I have also picked up Dollys cold so have been knocked for 6! Meh...

My scan is in 3 hours, i will text as many as i can once we are out.... thats all to be said on the subject

I want to write more but until missy is in bed i have no chance....Love to you all, and thanks for the messages xxx

barbie hope your bean is a happy, wriggly, waving one. Sure it will be- give that happy, wriggly little girl of yours a hug from us

BQ lovely to hear from you, I too love the name Luca
Need to go now - supposed to be working and checking our budgets or doing another even more boring job....

Lots of love to barbie will be thinking of you lots. Don't worry too much about texting as we know it costs loads; we can all pass them round or get on here :)

monkey I'm not seeing HP til 3rd August aaaaages! But we too have a babysitter problem and that's the first Wednesday I can get one (we want to go on a Weds to get half price...shockingly expensive otherwise!!)
So exciting you ahve the ivf papers- of course you're not odd! You know things are going to be moving then and not just more waiting so of course it is exciting :)

4ever lol at milkshake being a good babysitter a pile of raisins works well for ds here...though he now knows how to get them out of the cupboard and shake them out all over the kitchen floor!!
Yeah it is so funny seeing him toddle around - he's still crawling a fair bit though and not that steady on his feet yet.

moon sorry hoping's message made you cry :( I can totally understand that though; it is such an emotional journey.

Vjay lol at walking in like a muggle

Right ds is asleep so I should really be doing something useful ...

Hello again,
Not sure about all this Hp talk, i refused to read the books when they first came out as i don't like being told what i should and should do...missed the first film due to traveling in OZ and then never really caught up. However dh took me to see the last one and it scared the bejesus out of me! All i do know on the matter is that *** dies in the next one

I am still here, 45 mins before we have to go and dd is sleeping so i thought i would do a catch up of sorts.

hoping if you are reading this i feel really blessed that you emailed us and told us how you are getting on. I have thought about you often. You email made me cry (happy tears) you sound so happy, i wish you all the best as you go forward into adopting. Please let us know how you get on.

bqueen Luca is a beautiful name, I am iin awe of you coping with everything on your own, kudo's to you! I hope you do get some time with your dh soon and you both relax with the gorgeous little bundle of baby smell!

moon Not long now for you my lovely, the end of july is nigh, Soon you will get answers and be well on the way to incubating your own tiny bundle of joy. How are the wedding plans going?

4ever Hey weeble, i keep feeling something touching my arm and i know its just you wobbling into me Im not sure if only taking one wil make a huge difference, can you call your doc....I did a very positive thing earlier, i book my scan for back home. Its 2 days before the big wedding, i will be nearly 12 weeks. If all goes well we can tell everyone at the wedding, although it will be obvious anyway!

blue your holiday pictures are fab I doubt i will have any pictures taken will lounging on a sunbed...least not in cornwall with the weather predicted!

Blurgh....dh has called and i have to do something before i leave..so bang goes my mn time. I will be back (hopefully will a wiggly beany )

Sitting here rooting for barbie - absolutely feeling her anxiety right now..

Just checking for news?

Oh and I didn't get hopings email I think I've dropped off the email list

4ever Only 13 more sleeps, I am willing the time away for you!
BQ Love the name Luca It is hard recovering from a CS without DH there, I did the same thing, just make sure you take time out for you every now and again
Louey Don't beat yourself up about BFing, you've tried and tried so it's not giving up it's just an alternative
Blue Are you very brown?? Hope you got through the mountain of ironing in one piece!
Another one here missing Mermaid too
Moon I had a little wobble last night I was thinking about how I've been moaning about my lack of sleep etc and there you are - you'd be grateful to be having pants sleep due to the demands of a little one so apologies for my insensitivity and I hope I didn't offend x
Vjay Loving the HP references keep them up

Unfortunately the sleep was a one off so after 4 nights we're back to square one and another ear infection too but hey ho we're still smiling

Good news from barbie Well done you!!!!

Woo Hoo Barbie Fantastic news (I bet her DH dreads her mobile phone bill ) now you have to be Mrs Positive Pants too!

Monkey I missed you out last post oops How wonderful it is hear you're getting excited about IVF paperwork, makes me feel all warm inside that something is finally going your way

Thanks Buddha Lets hope it continues hey! re your phone bill barbie!

4ever I'm sure it won't make any difference wrt the progesterone pessary. I think it would be a problem if you had been taking two, and then reduced it too soon, but even that one will be supporting the natural progesterone your body will be making. Try not to worry!!
Re London, we get into at St Pancras at 10 something (I think 10.46 ) and then are leaving Euston at just after 5pm. Will have to store luggage somewhere, probably at St Pancras as I know my way round there. Am tempted to keep our Trunki with us, as ds will object to being dragged round London. I don't know the tube, so if we need to use it a bit of advice would be great please!!

Well done again barbie I hope you and dh get chance to enjoy this evening, hopefully you are both feeling more relaxed after todays fab news

DS is calling so must go!

Woop woop woop to Barbie SOOOO Incredibly pleased for you sweetheart!

Buddha oh poor Es ears, when is that apt? No wonder its messing with his sleep poor sausage.. Did you get my email yest as well? If not PM me your address and ill send it on..

Monkey brave lady with all that travelling! So we need somewhere comfy relaxed and chilled, and easy to get too! Our last meet place was fab i thought on south bank, Curly your good at all that stuff! I would be veering towards the same again though, what do you think? Oh yea and barbie gutted you will miss it by such a slim margin when your actually in the uk too!

Iv been wobbling alot today, think iv actually driven to the scan with you barbie and walked in the room feeling sick with worry, it was me touching your arm, you were right. Anyway it made me realise I just cant wait another 2wks, i was actually getting quite irate thinking about it, my original wonderful sonographer (that scanned me weekly on all 5 pregs, that i tx, that i invited to Summers christening, that visited me daily on the delivery suite whilst in labour, and then one of first visitors to meet Summer) has been at uni on weds, so we have had a different lady the last 2 scans. She is still lovely and scanned us intermittently previously so knows our history, she also came to visit Summer on the mat ward, to be fair I am very lucky to have either of them, however i love my original lady, who would happily scan me daily and knows us so well. The other lady really pushed me into waiting 3wks and iv got more and more pd off about it. My cons is adamant as many reassurance scans as required can help prevent mc even. Anyway iv changed it to next wk, but still weds, so still no lovely lady. At least its less time to wait though. MIL 60th though so praying all is well, specially as we had a bad scan on DH 30th with mc no 2

Sorry needed to vent!

Ladies thanks for all the positivity, sorry for those i missed via text. Im off to have mani/pedi and to relax!!

Back laters... on phone so cant re back thread xxx

lost long post...stupid computer

barbie I'm so so pleased you got to see your wriggly bean enjoy your mani and pedi and try and take it easy and get rid of that cold.

4ever (((HUGS))) I'm sorry you are weebling, I think if you are just stressing yourself out then moving your scan forward is a good plan. Try not to worry about the fact its MILs 60th and just concentrate on yourself. I'm sure the progesterone won't have made any difference.

buddha oh poor E and poor you. But take heart, you know that he can go through the night and he will do again. Sounds as though his ear infection has pushed him back again. Have you got a date for his appt about the grommets yet?

cupcake oh I really hope you get lots of doting family helping you with J on holiday. And perhaps you and DH can have some time away, even if its just for an afternoon.

neeko glad you are having a good holiday

vjay [hgrin] vodka definitely needed to survive the ILs

monkey I'm excited that you've got your IVF paperwork too!! It is going to happen.

lbm budgets, urgh. You have my sympathies...

blue ironing, what's that Did you survive? Will go and have a look on FB later if there are holiday pics on there.

moon the 29th is not so long away now. Glad you are lurking and you know that we are here if you want to chat x

Thank you all for your kind words about bf - my head says it would be sensible to stop, my heart isn't quite there yet. I'm as stubborn as a mule and hate admitting defeat. Part of me thinks that tomorrow could be the day when he gets it (as happened with Summer 4ever) so I am keeping going at the moment. Having said that, I've just been expressing today and will try to bf again tomorrow - need a bit of breathing room. He was weighed today and has put on a lb in 2 weeks, so is just under 7lbs which is fab - heading back up towards the 2nd centile . I know a lot of that weight gain has been since we started the top-ups so I think its unlikely we are going to ever properly bf him. Monkey I originally thought I would do what you suggested and alternate ff and bf but my life is so complicated that no two days are the same at the moment and it makes it difficult to get into a routine. I can't realistically bf while out because the nipple shields are fiddly to put on and make me look like a porn star . He won't latch on at all without the shields.

Isaac had his school induction this morning and it went really well. He even came out with some long sentences - asked the teacher (by name) whether he could look in a different room. Normally he clams up when he's anywhere new. I'm hoping its a good sign.

barbie yay for a happy healthy bean! So pleased all is ok. Wedding plans are going well, I just need to find the dress, which am reluctant to do yet in case of any developments...

buddha you didnt offend in the slightest so please dont worry. Yes I would give anything to be in your situation but I also dont know what its like with lack of sleep etc. so I dont take it personally. If I'm honest then I skim over stuff which is hard to read (not you specifically, anything which makes me teary) so rant away if you need to, thats what we are here for, I just cant advise!

Flying visit I'm afraid, not long got in from Zumba (we've done belly dancing the last few weeks too - hilarious!) so need to eat and dry my hair!

maybe I mean I need to eat full stop and then dry my hair, not eating my dry hair....

Hurrah for barbie and her wriggling bean - lovely lovely news

4ever, of course you are worried. Go for that scan - it will be fine. sumer is going to be a big sister and you and Barbie are going to be sharing the big pants bench together

vjay just had to tell you about this. My dd and ds came home talking about harry potter and asking if they could watch the film, so tonight they watched the philosphers stone. DS loved it, dd was a bit scared at the end.

neeko Also had to tell you this, as dd is going into the juniors in September, they did a garden party with her class today when they showed a video of what they had done in the year, read poems, did a song and then did country dancing. Finished off with tea and scones that they had made ( bit rock like but then they are only 7!) Anyway, the bit that will make you quake is the headmistress then appears with a very important looking guest, who turns out to be the cheif ofsted inspector, as the school is bring inspected. Being the next to last week at school, its a bit busy but the teachers looked more stressed than normal, now we know why! The funny bit is that I think they are in all week and on Friday, it's the annual trip to the beach. I wonder if the inspectors are coming there too!!

moon X post - I've been tempted before to eat dry hair, sure it hasn't got many calories The belly dancing sounds fab - did try zumba once but my friend stopped going and I was too chicken on my own!

Afternoon from sunny Scotland, it's a scorcher here today and DH and me are still off .

Tried to catch up last night but B must still be on Mallorca time as he was just not tired and had to e brought down stairs until 9pm. DH and me almost high fived in relief when he yawned and finally nodded off but by then I was cream crackered and watched Cougar Town instead...

Anyway, catch up

Barbie - delighted for you and relieved of course, you can go ahead and enjoy your hols now. Deja vu from last time too, were you not over here after early scan? Loving th epics of Dolly's play room but take note she may have one but will insist on playing wherever you but beauty of playroom is you can put all the toys back there at bedtime = adult only zone reclaimed

4ever - understand your wobbling and need to be scanned regularly.. Think my coping mechanism would certainly be one scan at a time with hopefully some reassurance post-12 weeks. You have the knowledge this time round that you grew a baby to term, your body knows what to do, doesn't diminish the anxiety tho' I know, just hang on in there xxx

cupcake - meant to say - yay! to Jude walking, your wee blonde bundle of loveliness . I'm dying to see Bridesmaids at the pics, loks hilareous and apparantely v. witty. Need to txt some girlfriends...

Louey - great to hear Isaac took his school visit in his stride , you must have felt releived and proud. Not put any holiay pics up yet, its on my to do list. Have one as my profile pic so far...

monkey and curly have a great meet up. I would have been there like a shot if I lived locally but will be there in spirit

monkey - so chuffed all your IVF paperwork is in order and my god girl, of course you are enttled to be excited

Vjay - DH is going to see Deathly H on Friday and I can't go as have still to read half of book six and all of seven To think I read the first five within six months of each other (pre-schildren...)

Neeko - are you away, away or just on hols from school away? Hope you're having a fab time x

MLS - loved your holiday pics on FB, Kitty is getting so big x

BQ welcome Luca what a beautiful name and well done you for flying solo from day one, really hope your DH gets some time of soon. Recovering from a CS is no walk in the park but by 6 weeks you can drive again and a whole new world opens up

LBM - that a for your DD's school, in the last week too - blardy hell. Had to chuckle at the rock like scones

Buddha - missed your posts last week about your tiredness and constant night wakings, really, really feel for you as sleep eprivation remember is a form of torture. Are you any nearer into getting e's op? Totally understand you not wanting to go hard core CC as he is in pain but at the same time not knowing if it is truly pain or just bad habit . You have my utter respect at functioning and being a fab Mum to E on so little sleep and for such a long time.

Talking of sleep I slept until 11.38am this morning . DS1 is staying at his cousins and DH took B downstairs to let me catch up. We've all been a tad jetlagged (from Majorca! how !!) and I could hardly stay awake yesterday. Anyway feel miles better now.

Holiday was just lovely thanks. Had a great room (ground floor on quiet side of the hotel, own decking area and enclosed garden so boys could run around naked and pop next door to see DH's parents). Met some lovely people, food great, pool ditto, just what we hoped for. They had a mini disco every night at 8.30pm and it was sooo cute watching them all, B was right in the middle of it while Isaac played it cool hands in pockets stylee. He was chosen one night by the Brazilian dance troop and did cartwheels and booty shakes with them, I videoed it and you can here me whooping and cheering

Anyhoo, so glad we took this week off too, got all the holiday ironing done and off to see my friend and her 14 day old DD, broody bench a go-go!!

Safe trip home today barbie hope you can lurk/post when poss! X

Blue your hols sounds perfectly blissful! So glad you had a lovely time..

Thanks for the hand holds and understanding girls.. Keep thinking of that kids thing - 'wibble wobble wibble wobble jelly on a plate' - thats me..

Will try and get back on later for more personals x x x x x x

Hi ladies, it's flip-flop Friday and where is our mermaid? Has she been around on facebook? Just as long as she's ok.

blue holiday sounds perfect!! Glad you had such a lovely time. I know, I reeeeally want to see bridesmaids too!! Will have to wait for the dvd though I think, boo.

4ever shame you haven't seen your lovely sonographer this time round, but glad you're getting another scan soon, will put your anxieties to rest for a few days hopefully!

One of my NCT friends just told me she's 6 weeks pregnant today...joining you on that broody bench blue

buddha I'll send you hoping's message too don't know how you fell off the list though

barbie YEEEEEEAHHHHHHHH!!! So excited for you!! :)

Bum, ds is awake, thought I had way longer...hmph

just sharpening my pencil and lining up my rubber and post it notes.... ahem.

I waded through 12 pages a week or so ago and staggered through the rest today and i have missed so much up and downs that i don't really know where to start first.

barbie I went off crying at one point and so hope that somewhere flying around up there (it's raining) that you are now ok.

louey* very very late congratulations, will go and have a look at your pictures in a mo.

bq so proud of you well done and a truly lovely name, well done for going it solo.x

qa think you may also be on the big bench too x

monkey huge hand hold and know that been if i am not around much that i do think of you andwish with all my heart that things will take a very positive turn.x

moon appoint. at the end of the month everything crossed and excited at the thought of choosing a dress.

stupid to start this now cos i am going out in a minute. have had lots of friends in rl going through utter crap and just had to go with it all a bit. my scan results came back from my car accident claim a looooong time ago and i have spondolitus obviously can't and don't even want to spell that, bought on early y the accident. Has been a bit of a major agggghhghghgh. Coming to terms with it now but it was a bit of a shock. Now understand why lots of me hurts!

anyway, have missed you all and don't know how often i will saunter in but you know that you all are very special - jude walking

have to go, heaps of love, xx ps 4ever stupid mil ignore ignore ignore x

mermaid here - hurrah! Lovely to see you, as you will have seen, we've been missing you lots.
Sorry to hear there is so much rubbish going on in RL for your friends, not to mention your accident hangover - doesn't sound much fun. How is your DS?

Nothing more to say tonight, just wanted to make sure our lovely mermaid was welcomed back!