Hi ladies,
AF kicked in properly so I'm on day 4 now and feeling that glimmer of positivity that always comes as the beginning of a new cycle, maybe this will be the one? I had a terrible down this time, thanks everyone who picked me and set me back upright. I had a big howl at DH, the usual stuff - feeling alone in the grief, feeling alone in trying for no.2, feeling frustrated that our attempts are rather feeble. He did finally promise that we could 'try harder' this month and every month after until we get pg again. Which was good. He also asked a very good question - "what do you expect having another child will do?" It is a good question, and I do often wonder whether I pin so much on getting a successful pg and my wish granted than I might be setting myself up for a tremendous fall if it actually happens and I struggle. I had a brush with PND with DS and don't feel like I enjoyed his babyhood anywhere near as much as I good have. I do often feel guilty that part of my wanting no.2 is so that I 'do it better' the second time around. Oh dear. Anyway, it was good to have the talk and now I feel like I can be more upfront about expecting more sex in those crucial days.
battery I'm really very sorry that you don't have that opportunity to be reassured about the clotting medication level. And that you feel your body rejected a healthy pregnancy. That's a very painful thing to come to terms with. I'm very interested to hear how you get on with your consult with S tomorrow. Good luck for that.
mouse and digi hope the cycle oddities sort themselves out soon.
Oh mummyA sometimes I lurk on the 40s thread (it makes me feel happy to know that even though I'm getting ancient, it doesn't cut me out of the game completely) and there is a woman there who was recently told she had scar tissue. Can't remember her name off-hand but if you were to drop you might recognise it, or if not might be able to help?
Dachs that's brilliant, it's amazing what a difference to your confidence successfully negotiating that sort of thing can make. I was always very very nervous driving in London and every time I did it made me feel like I deserved a prize. Really hope that those 6 follies all give nice good quality eggs so you get a good stash to freeze as well as transfer.
TomboyWife that's sooooooo annoying! Argh! if he'd just told you a bit earlier you could have made other arrangements with more time to spare. Damn, I'm really sorry this is turning into a nigtmare for you. Seems you're not alone with waiting a long time for the WTF cycle to be over, hang in there.
thanks for the lovely baking freezing, I'm trying to avoid too many sweet treats as with the cafe culture over here it's far too easy to consume cake or muffins with every coffee!
I'm making good headway with the boxes but something quite unexpected arose from having our stuff appear. I think it contributed to my down mood as well - every time I would take a piece of glassware or a photo out from the box I'd get a little flash of where it had been in our old house. And then get a flash of one of too many sad memories of crying in the kitchen or standing in the hallway telling DH it was over (again). By bringing all the things over, I have a mad paranoid feeling that I've brought our bad luck over too. It's nonsense, I know, especially seeing it's not luck, it's genetics/medical conditions and those are the same one either side of the planet. Anyway, I'm trying to look at it more positively now that I'm making this house into a proper home for our family and setting it right for a new member to join us. I think AandR might approve ; )