Anyone else TTC after a stillbirth?

[loopyloops]

Hi all
I lost DTD1 15 months ago, still breastfeeding DTD2 and considering TTC, but terrified.
Is anyone else considering trying again after a stillbirth? I think I could do with some support if so.
Thanks :)

Thank you Spiltheteaagain
No the post mortem came back with nothing, her heart just stopped beating... It still kills me everyday but thankfully i have my DS to keep me going ( a very big job for an 18 mth old).

Its gonna be a very long pregnancy i think but, im gonna try and enjoy it as if it does go wrong again i wanna make sure i have celebrated my 3rd addition to my family. Can you tell im trying to pep talk myself already hahaha

Oh, congratulations Badger!

It'll be a really hard time for us all, but statistically it should all be fine, and we have each other....... also trying to pep talk myself!

Take care, sickness has just hit me and I'm struggling today, but at least my mum has gone home!

Lots of love all xxx :)

Hi Loopy,

How are you doing? How far gone are you now? Have you had any early scans?

Hope everything is going well.

Spilttheteaagain,

How are you? I hope your doing as well as can be and getting lots of suport and hugs in RL xxx

Hi Badger
I'm still going but having some really awful days. Today's been ok ish but it just all feels like such a pointless trudge at the moment. Very down.

How's about you? Any sign of the vomiting yet, or are you not a puker?

Awww spilttheteaagain,

Big hugs to you. It will get easier i promise, well... actually you just learn to cope with it better.

I find myself having days where i start daydreaming and then come round realising im crying... Its such an awful empty feeling.

Took me ages to stop stroking my non existant bump and thinking like a pregnant woman. But i promise you will get to a place where you feel you can cope a bit better but you will never forget your lovely little Bobby.

Do you talk about Bobby in your family?
I refuse to let anyone forget about Freya as she was and always will be my beautiful daughter.

Its really hard now im pregnant, i cant let myself get too excited incase it all goes wrong again and i dont think i will until i have a screaming, breathing baby in my arms.

The nausea and exhaustion have set in now but im actually enjoying it

Be kind to yourself spittheteaagain xxxxxx

Thanks Badger, I completely know what you mean about forgetting that you aren't pregnant. I am still surprised by it

I am glad you're feeling sick and tired (in the nicest possible way!) it must be reassuring to have symptoms to hold onto.

We do talk about Bobbie, I've had to tell people that I do want to talk because they had assumed it would be best to say nothing in case I got upset . I do understand though how hard it is to know how to act to help someone.

Seeing the doc tomorrow about some of the blood test results (from the post-birth blood tests). Apparently they've found I have an underactive thyroid which I'm quite anxious about. It might explain though why I am so knackered and can't stop sleeping. I'll need to get it investigated and treatment sorted before I get pregnant again (fat chance right now as I am still waiting to ovulate!)

Hope you are ok x