It’s so superb that a part of you - however small that part is - recognises vaguely that GP/Anxiety could really be it. I appreciate how “real” the chemicals feel but maybe there is even 1% of you which is a bit sceptical about it all and thinks maybe......... just MAYBE...... this has tipped into anxiety and needs support kindness and help.
Thing is : that’s the 1% you need to cling to. And you don’t need to do it alone. Speaking to your GP - and perhaps getting yourself referred to a CBT type programme might help. The NHS Apps library may also have useful things. You do have to put in the work though and it isn’t a quick fix.
One other thing I wanted to mention: like Health Anxiety (where a person convinces thenselves that they absolutely have the very real signs of a bad disease) - one thing that feeds this vicious loop is: reassurance. So the person that’s convinced that they really, genuinely , truly have all the signs of leukaemia, desperately seeks out reassurance: asking people to reassure all is ok, seeing the GP but instead of focusing on the anxiety seeking leukaemia reassurance, doing online research for hours - and indeed these provide momentary relief. For an hour or two. Then it’s back more convincingly than before next time about breast cancer maybe or heart disease. So actually it’s the reassurance that feeds it and keeps it going.
Hence - I will not reassure you about drawers or the chemicals. Because that’s actually going to feed this more. I know it feels like if o Lu - it only someone can definitely tell you it’s ok it’s going to be ok - nope, it won’t. I will advise you though to makes GP appointment ASAP, ask for CBT referral, itself refer yourself to CBT, pay for private sessions if you have to, look at the nhs apps librarydo the hard work and nip this in the bud. If it’s unchecked, what’s chemicals today will be something else tomorrow and you don’t want it to grow legs.
It’s not about how real it feels - that’s the nature of the beast - but that millions of others are happy and comfortable leading their lives with varying degrees of risk and yet its paralysing you. There is 1% in you that suspects it’s not real - channelise that 1%.