Shoulder dystopia experiences anyone?

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I am genuinely shaken to my core mums.

This morning I delivered my baby after having my waters broken and what was quite a straightforward labour only to end in the midwife calling for help what felt like 1000 doctors appearing out of nowhere and grabbing me putting me in a positive pulling the baby out of me then surrounding him with tubes masks needles papers. All the while I lay there stunned still in pain exhausted. It was actually horrific.

He's now on the neonatal ward because he wasn't breathing properly, pale and limp at the time of birth. I am just so upset thinking about it and how scary it was / how close we were to potentially loosing him which is has been my worst nightmare from day one. I didn't even know shoulder dystopia was a thing - I've googled it and understand now it is quite an uncommon medical emergency but why me? Why did this have to happen to me. I can't bring him home for a few days and I'm sick of this hospital :-(

Poor you, sending a hug.
yeah, it’s hard to figure it all out, if you’re like me you’ll want to know exactly what happened and why.
my waters were also broken by the midwife (I asked her to, to speed things up out of desperation, even though my birth preparation classes had specifically told me that doesn’t work, which is correct … bad call) and there was no meconium then (otherwise she would have said/done something? This was a good 6 hours before delivery 😱), but in my notes it says there was dirty fluid, so maybe it was stuff that came out later? I’ve always wondered actually.
It’s very common to have an inflammatory reaction (both mum and baby), if he seems well and they say he’s going to be OK I would just let them get on with it and focus on letting yourself heal and being with him.
well done for giving birth, it can’t be said enough!

@anotherscroller yes I'm exactly like you I want to know the full breakdown of everything. I did have a debrief and the doctor admitted I should have been advised about risk of SD with big baby. Okay so maybe it was just dirty for other reasons the same thing must have happened to me. It's reassuring what you say I can't help but worry as I have a very worst case scenario mindset I just want to go home!!