Hello,
I had my ds two weeks ago during covid measures in the hospital. I had a c section, dh was allowed for the operation and recovery but had to leave after.
It was pretty traumatic, to start I didn't get a suppository because the scale wasn't working and they didn't know my weight. Then at recovery I asked for help to latch but nobody came, and when they wheeled me to the ward I asked if they can help me sit up and bit to breastfeed since I have big breasts and they brought a bed ladder (a rope ladder attached to the end of the bed to pull myself up). I had to use it 3 times to get to the incline I needed, and messed with some stitches in the process. Ds wouldn't latch correctly, and the "lactation consultant" that came after 6 hours told me to just give formula cause ds is starving (she didn't even try to help me or watch me latch). Nurses would come and go to check my BP but never helped with the baby so I had to stretch in and out of the cot. After 8 hours they came and asked me to get up and sit on a chair and put my underwear on (no help again). In the process the nurse took the cannula of my hand off by mistake and all she said is "just put pressure on it" (didn't try to put it back in). The night was awful and I spent it awake crying and asking to go home. Next morning they made me shower but I had compression socks on that I had to take off and wear again on my own resulting to some more stitches being pulled. Took forever to discharge me and by the time I came home all I could do is cry.
Ds is a difficult baby and I'm exhausted, I have no appetite and now I have no milk as well (and I tried so so hard to breastfeed). I feel like Im getting depressed and I worry cause its just me and dh and he works 12h night shifts and sleeps during the day.
Is it normal to feel this way? Is it just baby blues or pnd? :(