Thanks Lulu I don't think last night was anything to do with the irritable uterus, I really think it was one of these 'false starts' everyone is always going on about, it was so much more intense than previous bouts of contractions, I can actually still feel now where the pain was as though it is bruised.
I am back from the midwives now, obviously!! She wouldn't do the sweep. I honestly don't know how I made it home and in the front door before I cried!
When I first asked about it she said she wouldn't even want to try because she didn't think at 38 weeks that she would even be able to reach the cervix, which I accepted obviously she knows better than me, so no problem, then she went on to say about how if the cervix had started to come down and started to soften I'd have lost my show... erm HELLO????? So I told her I had been loosing it for weeks now, and she looked at my notes again and said oh yes so it says here, then she turned to the student midwife and said, once the baby is engaged, and pushing down on the cervix from the inside, it will then push the cervix far enough forward for me to be able to reach.... erm HELLO AGAIN?????? Look at my bloody notes woman - the baby is engaged!!
So basically she was saying once the baby is well engaged and you start loosing the show she will probably be able to reach, so she turned again to the student and said we would have to check the lady over completely first (and gave an example of why that was needed) so they did all my checks then, confirmed baby is now further engaged, everything was fine and clear, so I thought she she would then do the sweep, but nope, she then decided that she wanted to wait another week, just to see if the same starts again as last night but turns into something....
If there was some medical reason as to why she didn't want to do it, then fine, I would have accepted that no problem, but to hold it off for another week just so she can see if anything kicks off tonight.... GRRRRRRRR!! She even said she could feel my uterus contracting, and with everything else that has gone on she doesn't expect to see me back at the surgery next week, but the m/w last week said more or less the same then.
I really don't think I can take much more of this. When are any of them going to put their money where their mouth is and actually help me?
Sorry if that makes no sense, I can't even be bothered to check it for typos so you will have to put up with them as well!!