Somebody stop me from walking out the door and not coming back

[passedwitsend]

I'm falling apart here and need help. Last night I put LO to bed at 6.30, she woke up at 9 fed, screamed and cried and eventually fell asleep at 10. She woke up again at 11.20 fed, screamed cried and fell asleep at about midnight, same again at 1.30 - 2.15, 3.30 - 4.15, 5 til god knows when and then I lost track. I've just put her down screaming in her crib and I think she's fallen asleep. I'm downstairs and don't dare go back into the bedroom to sleep incase I wake her up. I can't do this anymore. I've got to the point that I don't care why she's crying, I just want her to stop. I hate being like this, I know she's a defenseless little baby but I can't help it.

You could be me and my dd.

She is now 18mo, sleeps like a log and I no longer want to put her on eBay (which I was very close to when she was doing the same as yours at 4mo).

I'm in Edinburgh too and was diagnosed with PND. They thought it was mainly sleep deprivation but I'm a hundred times better now. If you do have PND then your HV can put you in touch with a charity called the PND Project in the west end. They have a free creche and free councelling for PND. Well, they recommend you make a donation, but you can give as much as you can afford.

There is also a free creche in the Scottish Parlanment. You have to stay in the building, but you can go to the cafe and fall asleep in a chair for an hour while your dd is looked after. You'll see hundreds of other parents doing the same thing.

I know how soul destroying sleep deprivation can be, it tears you to pieces and makes you resent your lo. It turned out my dd just had really bad wind, she was on infacol untill she was 6 mo and she stills needs a burp before bed. I know your dp works but if he gets 2 days off a week, then he can at least give you a lie in on one of those days. Most men will admit going to work is easier than being a feeding, cleaning slave 24 hours a day. Tell him how much you need just a little break.

Good Luck.

PWE, well done you for being proactive. There are many Mums now going 'ah, growth spurt', so it's good to know that there was a reason for the crazy sleeping- it symbolises light at the end of the tunnel. Terrific weight gain- again well done you. Please endevour to take as good care of yourself as you obviously are of you LO.

Pleased to hear that you're happier .

Glad you have found some good help, PWE.

To clarify: I think talk boards are great. They offer a place for sharing knowledge and experience and they can make someone realise they are not alone with their concern.

My point was that in some situations - and this is one - they may not be enough and RL help is needed as well.

Deaby - it's not helpful to say babies should go at least 2-3 hours without feeding. It's not accurate and it's undermining. I am sure you meant well, but misinformation like this is going to be challenged.

My baby (5 weeks) has been giving me hell the last few nights. Wanted to send her back. HV weighed her today and she's jumped a centile.

Last few nights have still been hell, but you see things in a much more positive light when you can see the results of your efforts don't they.

Well done for sticking with it!

BTW Around 20 weeks is a very common time for what you described in your OP

Just caught up with this PWE and wanted to congratulate you on your marvellous milky achievement over the last wee while - what a superb gain!

So glad you are feeling happier and have some reliable support in the form of a knowledgeable HV. Honestly, I promise hand-on-heart it will ease up soon, and she'll demand less and give so much more.

Hi everyone. Thought I would update you. Yesterday was ok, I managed to get her down for a good 2 hour sleep at about 11.30 and then she had another hour in the afternoon. Last night was a tiny bit better than the night before, she still woke frequently and was hard to settle afterwards, lots of crying, but I think I felt better able to cope with it after speaking to the HV and dealt with it a lot better. I'm still tired today obviously but feeling more positive. Thanks again for all your support yesterday, I think between you lot and the HV you saved my sanity!!

good to hear yesterday was better pwe hope today is as good