I am currently breastfeeding baby no2. With my first child I fed her for 17 months and loved it - didn't mind about changes to body and enjoyed the whole experience. However, my second child is now 11 weeks old and I am hating breastfeeding - this time round I feel mortified if I have to feed in public, I can't stand my enormous breasts (they go from an AA to a DD when I am breastfeeding)and I feel like I look like a leaky hideous blob and feel utterly depressed about the lack of clothes that will hide breastpads (I have always had bad oversupply) and the amount of clothes that can't be worn with a bra. I don't mind the actual breastfeeing bit when it's just me and ds, but hate everything else. I am currently mixed feeding (bottles at in evening and bf in day), however, feel dreadful that I am even contemplating giving up when I fed my first child for so long and know all the benefits but at the same time feel miserable. I know this is all very selfish and vain - has anyone else ever felt like this? I just want someone to tell me what to do!!!! Sorry for moaning. Thanks x