I don't want to quit breastfeeding but I feel my hand is being 'forced' at the moment. My DD (5wks) is in hospital, she has developed chylothorax whilst here and been put on special formula for 6 weeks. I've been expressing since she was 3 days old but logistically it's been really difficult as I live off-campus. The hospital have not been particularly supportive of me and a number of nurses have advised me to give up.
I managed to borrow a pump but they now want it back and I don't have another here with me (it's at home). I've been chucking my milk down the sink since I filled the freezer, I enquired about donation to the neo-natal unit and despite a number of calls to them I've not received a call back to set it all up so clearly they don't want it. The hospital nurses are very 'judgy' about me leaving my DD to go express, and this aspect of it is what compels me to want to quit. I'm a very anxious person and I am getting really stressed about slinking out of the unit to go pump, which I don't feel I need on top of everything else.
So the top and bottom of it is that I'm going through a load of stress to pump and then chucking it down the sink! I wanted to keep my supply up so that when my daughter is well and off the special formula we could do it, but that is weeks away yet.
When my DD was first admitted and my MW was in touch with me she said I could take drugs to restart my supply. Is this true and how do I go about getting them? I think this would be a better option than my current situation which is a total nightmare tbh. Thanks for any replies :)