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DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR A NICE LABOUR STORY!!! TMI ALERT

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Honeymoonmummy · 28/11/2008 18:33

I am writing this for therapeutic purposes more than anything...

My waters broke on Monday 3rd November at 2pm and I rang the hospital and they told me to come in. They had a quick monitor check and said I could be induced now or wait 24 hours for nature to take its course and if nothing had happened then I was to come in "for a scan and to see how things were going". I had strep B but this is apparently the procedure with or without strep B.

I went home and at about 10pm the contractions started, slowly at first but they continued over the next 18 hours, I managed to get an hours sleep... they went from an hour apart to as close as 5 mins and got pretty intense but they started to get less frequent and less painful in the last few hours. I had arranged to go back to the hospital for 2pm on the Tuesday so I did so.

I was expecting no intervention since I had been having contractions, but the doctor and midwives insisted that I should be induced because there was a danger of infection for the baby otherwise, so I agreed. I really didnt want to be induced having heard it was more painful.

They put me on the induction drip and started the dosage low but doubled it every half hour. I managed with just the tens and breathing for about 1.5 hours, then went onto gas and air and after about 3 hours I asked for an epidural.

They stopped the drip because they didnt think I would stay still enough for the epidural otherwise. They had one go putting the epidural in but ended up drawing blood, so had another go. (I really hate needles BTW!!) They were eventually satisfied so started up the drip again, they started it at the strength at which they had turned it off, rather than building it up again... unfortunately the epidural hadn't worked AT ALL. I had been off the drip (so not used to the pain) for about an hour I think. I told them I was in pain and asked then begged them to switch off the drip until they got the epidural sorted but they refused saying they couldnt stop the drip and they would try a top-up of the epidural instead - this apparently only took the consent of the head midwife to do so and they were having a change of shift so she couldn't OK it yet... in the end I said "As a patient I'm asking you to turn off the drip" - I think they got the litigious thread of the conversation and finally got a more senior midwife in who said "She is entitled to pain relief if she's asked for it, turn off the drip for now" HURRAH!

By this time, my BP is THROUGH THE ROOF. I have a history of hypertension and my mum had pre-eclampsia. They got another anaesthetist to me who tested to see if the epidural had worked by spraying a cold spray on me and confirmed it had had no effect at all (why not do this in the first place???) He said he could give me a strong top up to see if that worked or give me another epidural and there was no guarantee it would work if the other hadn't. He gave me the top up (no effect) and got a blood test to see if I was up to the second epidural and said it would be half an hour before the results came back.

By this time my contractions had started again on their own so they gave me some pethedine (admittedly with my consent but I was at the end of my tether). As I had predicted and put in my birth plan pethedine completely knocked me out (codeine knocks me out!!), I was virtually comatose, I couldn't respond to anything they asked. By the time I came round again though, I was 8cm dilated.

I pushed on the remains of the pethedine, they didnt give me any more gas and air because they said it wouldnt help. I could not feel a pushing sensation, just a contraction, so I just pushed when the contraction started. They seemed pretty impressed with my progress but unfortunately my BP had climbed so the top line was now at 190, and appparently you are at risk of a stroke over 160 - they had been telling DH this for the past few hours but only told me at the end. They told me I needed a forceps delivery because they couldnt let me push any longer as I may have a stroke - the next second I had another contraction and they told me to push!!!! I asked them for a bit more time to push because I wanted to do it myself, they said it would probably only be 5 or 6 pushes but they couldnt risk my doing it.

I had a forceps delivery and had an epistomology and a second degree tear.

DD was born at 2.30am on the Wednesday morning, 12 hours after the induction drip had started and 36 hours after my waters broke. She weighed 6lb 15. I couldnt hold her for 1.5 hours because of the stitching but DH held her and I could see her.

THAT'S NOT THE END OF IT!!!

(TMI ALERT!) When the placenta was delivered, it was accompanied with a gush of 2 litres of blood within the space of about 5 seconds - they know it was 2L cos they mopped it up from the floor to see how much of a transfusion I needed!!! The reason this happened was when the placenta comes away it leaves a small wound and because my BP was so high, the blood just found the hole and came through. The normal blood loss on delivery is 500 ml.

I had to have a blood transfusion and am still on iron tablets for the resulting anaemia. They left me in the room in which I laboured for the following few days on pre-eclampsia drugs, I couldnt drink for 24 hours, I was stuck to the bed with a catheter for at least 24 hours.

The whole thing has left me completely traumatised and going from being certain I wanted another child to being not sure I could do it.

I feel better for doing that!!

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Jacksmama · 28/11/2008 18:38

OMG
You could be me... forceps, tranfusion and all. Oh-my-God I am so sorry this happened to you. Congratulations on DD's birth but this is horrible. Please get some counselling as you are at risk for PND from the trauma.
HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jacksmama · 28/11/2008 18:44

Just wanted to tell you that in the childbirth topic there is a birth trauma support thread that is wonderful.

As I said, I had a delivery like yours. The first thing my wonderful GP said to me was "sweetie, for the next baby I promise you an elective C-section". That made me feel so much better.

belcantwait · 28/11/2008 18:44

echo jacksmama- i had a very similar experience to you and i really was traumatised for a long time afterwards because i didnt sort it out in my head to start with.
fwiw i did go on to have 2 more dhildren- the second being an elect cs and the third a vbac. both were wonderful tho i remember the first like it was yesterday (and it was 10 years ago!)
congratulations on the birth of your lovely dd tho. the main thing is you have come away with a healthy beautiful baby . i am sure someone more useful than me will come along in a minute but there is lots of support out there post birth trauma- just make sure you get some!
take care of yourself- you have had a hard time {{{{HUGS}}}}

PictureThis · 28/11/2008 18:47

You need debriefing. Please contact a supervisor of midwives at the maternity unit as it may help you to talk about your feelings and experience with someone who has the written information of your labour in front of them.

Sorry that you had such an awful and frightening time.

lauraloolajinglesalltheway · 28/11/2008 18:51

Congratulations on your dd

Im sorry to hear you had a bad experience, I agree with the others. Ask to go through your notes until you are happy with why things happened that shouldnt have.

jenwa · 28/11/2008 20:00

oh no, poor you, what a horrible experience but congrats on the birth and getting thorough it. Believe me next time you will know exactly what you do and dont want and will go in their head strong (or choose c-sect!!) and things will be better (if you do decide to have more!) It was a far better experience for me 2nd time round as 1st time I had 3rd degree tear from the forceps that were turned in me and not at all a nice experience as the Doctor was not at all helpful and the consulant was not great either and I was new to it all!!
I hope you are over it now and writing it down has helped you in some way.

ronshar · 28/11/2008 21:35

I too had a similar experience with DD1.
I waited 4 years before we were prepared to do it again. DH was more upset than I was because he was so powerless to help me. I dont remember alot but he remembers it all.
I had DD2 at home, perfect birth. DS was born very rapidly & in hospital. It was only then did I find out that DD1 was put on the resusitaire post delivery. 9 years later!!

I hope you work to put this experience behind you. Enjoy your DD and dont think about another one until you are ready.

MrsHappy · 28/11/2008 21:46

Congratulations on having your DD.

I had a similarly difficult experience with my DD. A birth like that is a lot to process, but you will be ok. Just take your time and talk about it as much as you need to.

Honeymoonmummy · 29/11/2008 18:11

Thank you all for your kind messages, they really mean a lot. I have a review booked Picturethis, thanks.
The consultant assured me it wouldn't be as difficult the next time!! For those of you with more than one, did you have problems the second time?

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PictureThis · 29/11/2008 19:40

I am so pleased to hear that you have an appointment booked, well done in taking that step. Hopefully it will help you move forward.

JacksFirstChristmasMama · 29/11/2008 19:58

Just want to tell you to take some Kleenex with you when you go to the review... it can be a bit upsetting to relive the experience. Helpful, though, in the sense that you can ask questions and will get answers. And if you have flashbacks or find yourself unable to let go of the experience, counselling is a really good idea.
(((((HUGS))))) to you!!

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Honeymoonmummy · 30/11/2008 12:05

Thanks everyone! I forgot the bit where they gave me a local to do the stitches and it didn't work first time

I don't think my body is made for labour!!!

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loler · 04/12/2008 23:20

Congratulations - how is your dd and what's her name? How are you doing now? Hoping you're enjoying everyone running after you for a bit!

I had awful first labour, fab second one and amazingly quick third one! I was so scared the 2nd time and had people saying at least you know what to expect . Every birth is different - don't worry about the future, just enjoy your baby now!

Honeymoonmummy · 05/12/2008 16:28

Thanks Loler. Her name is Poppy and she is fine, putting on weight (I'm bf ing). The only problem is she wont settle in her moses, we're having to co-sleep.

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PeachyBidsYouNadoligLlawen · 05/12/2008 16:35

Poor you honeymoonmummy.

I agree you need a debrief, it does make a difference.

I too had a nightmare delivery with ds1- eclampsia. However if it helps I have never had a prioblem with delivering any of my other three and indeed wuld say i generally have pleasant labours (last was abit quick but thats about it).

this site may help you?

And most importantly glad you're OK now, welcome to little Poppy and congrats on your new family. X

Honeymoonmummy · 05/12/2008 17:19

Thank you Peachy. That website looks really useful. x

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mistlethrush · 05/12/2008 17:51

Your experience sounds similar to mine - except that contractions started before waters broke but there was meconium in them so I wasn't allowed to progress slowly and was dilating extremely slowly. Managed the drip for 5 hrs with just tens - when they said it would be another 9before pushing I opted for the epidural still on drip (and, of course, tens machine off) - 1st one failed. 2nd one the anesthatist said she thought had worked and she'd be back in 5mins. 3 hrs later she reappeared (emergency surgery) - hadn't worked - she had to put spinal block in to get an epidural in that worked. Started pushing at 9. Nothing by 10.30. Into surgery for forceps trial - one put on - consultant gave up at this stage and went straight to emergency section. He later told me that he could tell that I'd pushed right by all the room around ds's head - but he must have got really jammed. Didn't have the bp problems - but otherwise sounds just as traumatic! Yes, catheter for 24hrs - but lots of lovely staples rather than stitches! (Ds was rather large - 10st5lbs at 39 weeks.)

Honeymoonmummy · 05/12/2008 19:09

God almighty mistle - I feel like a fraud now!!
Have you had a review/ any counselling etc? Would you have/ have you had another?

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GreenMonkies · 05/12/2008 19:26

Wow HoneyMoonMummy, congratulations on the birth of your DD and sympathies on the traumatic way she came to you. And a huge pat on the back for managing to bf despite such a rough start.

I had a long traumatic labour/birth with DD1, it took me a long time to get my head around it, the final healer for me was having DD2 at home completely naturally. You will get over it, but don't expect to bounce back and feel chipper in a few weeks. Be gentle with yourself for months, you deserve it!!

quaranta · 05/12/2008 19:31

you poor girl, i am so sorry, great to get it written down. be gentle and enjoy dd. don't do anything you don't you feel you can until you can your body has been through something massive.. well done, and i am sorry it has been such a traumatic experience. let dh look after you so you can look after dd x

mistlethrush · 05/12/2008 23:52

HMM don't be silly - it wasn't meant like that. Yes, I have got over it - in fact, I don't think that I probably reacted as strongly as you because we had quite a struggle getting to have a dc at all (ds was 6 yrs down the line after quite a bit of trauma) so I think that I was so relieved to actually have my child in my arms that nothing else mattered. My story was there to sympathise, empathise and show that you are not alone. I've not gone on to having another, but not through lack of trying. I would go through the same again to have another but I don't think its going to happen.

Give yourself some time. Enjoy your daughter and get fit again, and don't even consider the possibility of another for the moment! If, in 6mo or a year, it is still playing on your mind, go and see someone and get some help, but hopefully it will fade into just a bad memory.

BTW, you might want to try some carob to boost your iron - fantastic - lost 1.5l after a d&c following 3 months of sporadic v. heavy bleeding - I got my iron levels up to an OK level in 1 wk when they expected it to take with just the iron tablets. No side effects! I just use the carob powder and add a teaspoon to yoghurt, porridge, cereal, hot milk etc.

JacksFirstChristmasMama · 06/12/2008 00:02

Am PMSL at mistle's 10 stone and 5 pounds baby... anyone else catch that? Gee, mistle, no wonder he got stuck!

DingDongMerrilyOnEI · 06/12/2008 00:21

JFCM i was going to say that
honeymoonmama so sorry your birth was not a good one (except for the beautiful DD you have out of it of course) i havent any exerience of what you went through except for the pain-killer withholding dance the midwives love to do and the 2nd degree tear part and i am really sorry you ended up with a traumatic birth
i hope you get some answers at your review and can move on
congrats on the birth of poppy
xx ei xx

JacksFirstChristmasMama · 06/12/2008 00:56

How are you feeling today HMM? And how is Poppy? (LOVE the name!!)

Big hugs. There are lots of people on here who empathise with your experience. Have you checked out the Birth Trauma Support Thread?
((((HUGS))))