I've been sick for a loooooong time main problem being really very serious daily migraines.
I've had millions of other symptoms that have recently got worse like a thorn under my right eye and the right side of my face being numb and pins and needles in my arms etc but I'm knackered & dont really feel like listign it all out here.
anyway eventually after it all getting much worse I had an MRI & they found englarged blood vessels & indications of AVM or anuerysm on the right side of my head so I just had a 2nd contrast MRI on Thurs to get more information. I know if it is one of those things they can operate to remove them before they burst which will sort me out really but frankly I'm scared shitless, especially after today when we were all out and I have barely left my bed this last few days because I find it so hard to stay awake but I made the effort to go down the road to a pizza place and then on the walk home I passed out crossing the road, although it felt to me that I just fell asleep for a minute. DS was screaming and crying and relaly upset that I fell down.
DS and I are extremely close, he has got used to me spending a lot of time in bed but we are really physically affectionate and I am a major softening influence in his life. He really depends on me for so much love. Although I must admit I wish I were dead most of the time now, because of the pain I'm in, I am desperate to hang on and protect him.
Either way can you help me to help him deal with this, in case I die. I dont want to leave him without me covering him up somehow.
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How do I help DS deal with my possible death, he's 3.9
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joycetheripper · 05/04/2010 19:30
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