Jealous of Grannies my mum never got chance to be

[waltonsmountain]

My mum died 4 years ago after a long awful fight against cancer. I thought I was dealing with it ok until I had my children...
Now, I have 2 children (3 and 1)and another on the way. Life is really great. But I cannot get past this overwhelming bitterness about the absence of my mum. Some days it seems that everywhere I look I see Grannies having fun with their daughters and grandchildren and it cuts me to the quick. I can't help but feel vile bitterness about what my mum has never got chance to enjoy, what my children are missing, and ofcourse, what I myself, am missing. I find myself glaring at Grannies in playgrounds/supermarkets and then often burst into tears with fresh grief and longing for my supercool mum. She has been robbed of so much and we have a massive void in our family.
Does this bitterness ever go away? I don't like to feel such jealousy. I feel I should almost post this on the AIBU thread as I feel it is not rational. Does it get better with time?

I know what you mean but about Grandpa's. My Dad died 10 years ago, DS1 is 8 an dDS2 is 3.

The Dairlylee advert where the Grandpa is tired out by the Grandson has me weeping.

It does get better, I don't forget, the pain just sits easier.

It is the biggest sadness in my life that my Dad never met my children.

But I do see him in them which gives me great comfort and joy and I appreicate how hard he worked for us and how he protected us.