I have wanted to say this to you in person but I know I can't so I am doing it this way instead .
I need you all to know that just because I am no longer curled up in a ball on the kitchen floor it doesn't mean the pain has gone away , I know I look and act ok most of the time but that doesn't mean I have forgotten . You will not remind me if you mention his name , there is barely an hour goes by that he is not in my thoughts .
I know you all hurt sometimes too and yes it is ok to tell me and talk to me about it . Who better to understand your feelings than me ?
I want to talk about him and like the fact that people remember him , I need you to tell me that you care , your silence is devastating to me , do not change the subject if I have been brave enough to mention him .
You may not be able to handle it and choose to push it to the back of your mind . I don't have that luxury and wouldn't take that choice even if it was offered to me .
He was here , he was my son , your nephew , your grand son , your god son , He was Harry and I give a shit that he seems to have been wiped from your memory .
So please next time you think of him , let me know
Next time you see something that reminds you of him just casually mention it
Every now and then ask me how I am doing and actually listen to the answer .
You have no idea how much it would mean .
You are all good people and are capable of doing this .
Thankyou