it is 20 weeks today since Steve died, we are doing ok, I think.

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we are getting throu the days, some days I am not sure how to get out of bed or how life seems to carry on around us, but it does.
Me and the kids are in menorca at the moment a place Steve loved, I promised Steve that we would come back here and go to his fav places, we have done some of them, I am very proud of the kids and how they are coping and I know Steve would be proud too.last night we were invited to a party at steves fav resturant, the kids were looked after very well and I was too, it is clear Steve marked many peoples lives.
I am bracing myself to vist steves fav caves and also the beach where the kids want to write messages in the sand for their dad, I wish I could be as brave as our kids.

Oh 20 weeks isn;t long OJ, be kind to yourself.

oh I am being kind to myself AKA stuffing myself with terrys choc orange and of course R & C

I hope you have got home safely OJ, I have been away for half term too, visiting parents. I hope all is well at home and you are pleased with all the work, I have been having some decorating done and it makes you feel more positive getting the house in order I think. I know what you mean about travelling, I feel nervous until I set off and then I am OK. I think it is another thing you are not used to having to do alone isn't it? There is so much to remember and do if you are alone. I really admire you organising 'proper' holidays, I still feel unable to face anything like that, I said to my brother at the weekend, the most I feel up to is maybe a week in Devon or Cornwall next summer, finances allowing.