Can Someone Hold Me Or Kick Me Or Just Bloody Help Please?

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One of my best friends died 6 months ago. Tonight is her d's 9th birthday, they're having a family party & we've her eldest boy (my eldest's best friend) at our house for a sleepover.

I knew the birthday would be hard but what I wasn't prepared for was being just as teary lately as I was shortly after her death. I had thought it would get easier, that I wouldn't be sobbing so uncontrollably 6 months later.
My house is full of loud 11 yr olds, her son too, that's lovely. I just can't stop crying. ANd I have to.

Fink you asked for a joke

Lol so have I - you will get double the visitors.

Mine may be annoyed with the lack of porn, but they will get over it

hey fink, poor you struggling with this tonight

i try and picture myself somewhere lovely, on a beach etc.

plus i remind myself sternly of how awful i look after crying - a total mess!

it doesn't always work though...

how about a mental challenge, we could all quiz you or even better you could try your ds's homework

(((hugs)))

be good to yourselves.

flamesparrow excellent tread title, fink you will have loads of people helping you now!!!

right, found something funny...i hope... www.youtube.com/watch?v=81NeQJWGYJY

FInk - sorry no words of wisdom, but just the knowledge that things change and mellow. nine years tonight since my dad had a fatal accident and I can not deal with the day and the weeks until his actual death.

Your friend would no dobt be really pleased that her son is happy and enjoying PSP night.

this too...tell me if they ain't working for you www.youtube.com/watch?v=5K6fESuNivo&feature=related

travelling, thank you, don't really care what's done or not! It feels so good to feel supported & to have someone out there. Am so conscious of my red eyes and my heart jumps every time one of the boys opens the door. It is such a comfort to know I am not alone. I cannot even think of my friend tonight as I know I just can't, all I want is to get through this evening. Give the boys their ice-cream, say good-night, nothing more.
My lovely s1, her s's best friend, just came into the kitchen for a drink, commented on how teary I seemed so I lied & said how I think I have a cold

Can you put on a soppy film and say you're crying at that. If you need to cry you need to cry.

Whilst children can be remarkable aware they are also pretty self involved and if you have a plausible reason if they enquire they'll probably just get on being lively kids.

Its such a short space of time give yourself a break, part of the reason it feels so raw could possibly be because it is such a big deal you haven't been able to deal with the whole thing at once and its slowly bubbling out of you as you allow yourself to remember and deal with more.

Thinking of you.

Joke for you...

How do you make a wardrobe LAugh?

Tickle his knob.

It's a bit lame, but best I have in my brain at the moment.

watch the bunnies

Children seem much more confortable with emotions and death than we sometimes give them credit for.

Nothing wrong with saying you had a sad thought. They wouldnt even give it a second thought

i have a joke what animal goes Oooo Ooooo

a cow with no lips

I have some jokes, they are Very Bad, but i will post them anyway. I am good like that.

Whats brown and sticky?

A stick.

Did you hear about the magic tractor?

It turned into a field.

Sorry. I am a trier.

I'm so sad to hear about your friend. It's normal to still be sad after 6 months, especially when it is a special occasion like a birthday.
You are doing fantastically well though and i'm sure your friend is so very proud of you and all the support you give her children. x x

Flamesparrow you daft bint! thank you so bloody much for making me laugh
and you others
I've never had to rely on MN before, and yes, YKWIM, but, hells teeth, women, you come through.
Thank you!
Am now a peculiar shade of bleary-eyed puce. But it's 9.10pm, I have just about stopped crying and I will now have a glass of wine.

can you get him on his own and tell him you are really missing his mum and that you are a bit upset - so if you disappear he will understand.

I am sure he has times just like this - so he will understand.

You lot have cheered me up no end, thank you all - have been on YouTube & feel a whole heap better
Have even stopped hiding my face in the dishwasher!

Result

what's ET short for?

Cos he's only got little legs

{boom} {boom}

Thinking of you, darling.

Fink - ich proste dir zu (not yet as ds2 is stubbornly awake ).

Can I say how lucky your dear friend's children are to have a maternal friend (in both senses of the word) like you?