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How will I be able to get through tomorrow?

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Mummy2TandF · 14/06/2008 18:05

I have been avoiding everything to do with Fathers Day like the plague, I ordered 2 lots of flowers months ago, so I knew I would have something to take to both lakes. We are going to the lake where dh actually died tomorrow to take the flowers and then going on to the lake where we scattered his ashes , which is owned by a friend with the 2nd arrangement, so should be a little easier (if anything can be) ... I have been in pieces for weeks just walking past shops with fathers day cards in them and I broke down on Friday when I picked ds up from Playschool, everybody was collecting the fathers day cards their dc's had made - that started me off and hen when I got to ds's card it just said "to someone special" I actually collapsed on the floor in tears, sobbing I was so ... Anyway that's it really, just not sure how I will do it tomorrow - my mum & dad have gone on holiday, my sister has gone on holiday, so it's just the dc's and I, but we will get through the day, we have to, we have managed the last 9 months

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sarah293 · 14/06/2008 18:07

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JaneHH · 14/06/2008 18:15

so sorry Mummy2TandF It WILL get easier, I promise.

Furball · 14/06/2008 18:17
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fawkeoff · 14/06/2008 18:21

I can't say anything to you that will make tomorrow any easier for you sweetie other than i will be thinking of you and your lovely litlle children tomorrow x

Bridie3 · 14/06/2008 18:22

I am thinking of you, too.

Pinkchampagne · 14/06/2008 18:23

I am so sorry, M2T&F. It must be so hard for you.

NotABanana · 14/06/2008 18:25

Oh lovie.

You have done so brilliant looking after your children. You need to remember to look after yourself too.

We are all here to get you through this.

Twinkie1 · 14/06/2008 18:28

Oh Darling - I really don't know what to say other than I will be thinking of you and the little ones.

Txxx

cathcat · 14/06/2008 21:43

Are you taking a friend to help you tomorrow? I think you should have some support for yourself as it will be very emotional for you. Wishing you strength for all tomorrow. x

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Mummy2TandF · 14/06/2008 23:11

Thank You everybody for "listening" am stuggling already tonight so I know tomorrow will be hard but I will try to keep it together for the dc's - ds chose a blue star helium balloon today and he wants to let it go up to Daddy tomorrow
Cathcat - No, nobody is coming with me, my family are all away (although I don't think they would have come with me anyway) and all my friends are spending the day with their dp's/dh's and children. So it will just be the 3 of us.

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cathcat · 14/06/2008 23:20

Okay, just imagine a big bunch of MN friends beside you, giving you support and a helping hand. Come back tomorrow night and tell us how it went.

windygalestoday · 14/06/2008 23:21

thinking of you x

2shoes · 14/06/2008 23:25
callmeovercautious · 14/06/2008 23:25

Exactly Cathcat. You are not alone, you have us all by your side.

Be strong tomorrow.X (put the card on the Lake perhaps?)

onlyjoking9329 · 14/06/2008 23:25

if i were nearer i would come with you.
tomorrow will be difficult for you and the world will seem to be full of fathersand it will be bloody hard going, i am here for you if you want to chat on MSN, sending you hugs.

callmeovercautious · 14/06/2008 23:49

OJ - you are so generous. I hope you get through tomorrow OK as well. X

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Mummy2TandF · 14/06/2008 23:51

Thanks again everyone - I will take a big group of my MN cyber friends with me...I think I might hole punch the card and tie it to the balloon when we let it go? When we bought the balloon, the lady in the shop asked ds if it was for his Daddy - he said "I haven't got a Daddy, he is in heaven" I tried to tell him that just because Craig isn't here it doesn't mean that he hasn't got a Daddy - it is so unfair, he is still so young and doesn't fully understand. In some ways the earlier milestones were easier to get through because the shock and numbness was still so strong, but we will get through it.
OJ Thank You - Steve and the 4 of you will be in my thoughts tomorrow and you know only too well that the MSN offer goes both ways xxx

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callmeovercautious · 15/06/2008 00:04

That's a really good idea about the card. DS will love that I am sure. X

onlyjoking9329 · 15/06/2008 07:21

thinking of you all today.
shall we meet back here tonight for a large glass of something strong?

Egg · 15/06/2008 07:27

OJ and MummytoTandF, thinking of you both and your DCs today. Such a lovely idea with the card and balloon .

minniedot · 15/06/2008 07:31

We are all here for you, I wish you lived near me, you and your dc could come over for the day.

You are such a brave and lovely girl, your strength is a credit to you and your children. They have an amazing mum.

Today will be hard, but Craig will be with you in your heart and soul.

OJ, thinking of you and your family today too.

stickyj · 15/06/2008 07:37

I don't know where you live, but if it's near I would gladly come and hold your hand.
xx

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Mummy2TandF · 15/06/2008 08:06

OJ - that sounds like a plan, will see you back here later for a tipple - love to all of you today also xxx
Today will be hard but we WILL get through it

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ToughDaddy · 15/06/2008 08:07

you are not alone; we are thinking of both of you. xxx

BBBee · 15/06/2008 08:15

will think of you today