Page 2 | My mum died a few hours ago

Bati · 2025-05-27T01:22:31+00:00

I know it's real but it in some ways it doesn't feel real, I wish I could go back 24hrs. I feel numb and I keep playing the day back in my mind. I can't go to sleep, I don't want to go to sleep, for some reason I don't want today to end. Sorry for my rambling, I am just not sure what to do.

Gettygrip · 11/06/2025 00:39

So sorry op for your loss. My mum passed away july 2023 . I think about her everyday and miss her soo much. Its hard to take in and you will never get over it but you will manage it.i found that talking as if she was sat down in her chair next to me very comforting sounds crazy but it has helped me.💐

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Bati · 11/06/2025 06:30

Tazzytazz · 10/06/2025 23:51

I’m so sorry for your loss. How are you doing now? I lost my mum last night and I’m still in shock and I don’t want to sleep yet. Reading these posts is helping me feel I’m not alone. I keep playing all the events leading up to her death over and over in my mind. I trust that this will ease and happy memories will start to fill my mind. It’s the shock factor at the moment - kicks you me in the gut every time I think of it.

I am so sorry for your loss - do you have anyone with you.
It's been 2 weeks now since my mum passed away - I find keeping busy really helps me.
It seems a bit surreal, like it's all one bad dream and she can't possibly be gone but then reality hits me.
I replay the day my mum died a lot and I have so many questions that I will never know the answers for.
The worst times for me are being in a car on my own (I cry everytime). Also when I am in bed.
The other problem I have is guilt - I feel guilty for carrying on with life, I laughed at something the other day and felt so guilty because I laughed - how can I laugh when my mum has died.
I know I shouldn't but in those moments I just feel guilty.

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Tazzytazz · 11/06/2025 17:40

Bati · 11/06/2025 06:30

I am so sorry for your loss - do you have anyone with you.
It's been 2 weeks now since my mum passed away - I find keeping busy really helps me.
It seems a bit surreal, like it's all one bad dream and she can't possibly be gone but then reality hits me.
I replay the day my mum died a lot and I have so many questions that I will never know the answers for.
The worst times for me are being in a car on my own (I cry everytime). Also when I am in bed.
The other problem I have is guilt - I feel guilty for carrying on with life, I laughed at something the other day and felt so guilty because I laughed - how can I laugh when my mum has died.
I know I shouldn't but in those moments I just feel guilty.

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Yes I totally get that. It doesn’t feel real yet. Today I’ve not been able to cry, feel numb.

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Bati · 12/06/2025 16:22

@Tazzytazz
How are you today?
Do you plan to go and see her.

I went and saw my mum today - I have wanted to see her to say my final goodbyes but also didn't want to see her as I knew it would be the last time I saw her, so have been delaying going.

I held her hand, spoke to her and gave her a kiss goodbye - god it was hard.

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Tazzytazz · 12/06/2025 17:30

That must have been tough, so sorry you are going through this. I said goodbye when I saw her after she had passed. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done in my life, along with saying goodbye to our baby we lost 21 years ago. It brought all the grief back like a steam train.