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TW- Suicide and an unidentified weird object. I don’t know what this is. Please help?

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WTHisthis23 · 23/10/2023 17:18

Hi everyone.

I apologise in advance, I am posting here purely for traffic. Anyone who is squeamish, please look away now.

My lovely little sister took an overdose on 15/01 this year. She died on 19/01. Life has been hell, I am still so traumatised. She was 34 years old, my best friend, my person.

A brief history. She had BPD (that we thought was well managed) She moved countries at the end of 2022 to be with a man she had known in her early twenties. He promised her the world. Marriage, babies, financial security, all of it. Some of you might remember my story from a previous post under a different user name.

She fell pregnant and miscarried on Christmas Eve. Shortly after new years she had a massive haemorrhage and was rushed to hospital. She had to undergo surgery and had a few blood transfusions. She was discharged and this bastard of a man kicked her out of his home on 05/01 and said he didn’t want to marry her. A few days later he changed his mind and took her back. She was still so so ill. So ill she felt suicidal.

On 13/01 she sent this to her partner. Later that day she fainted multiple times and told us she was so sick she wanted to die. Her partner took her to the doctor the very next morning but this is the first time we’ve seen this. We now have her phone and access to her WhatsApp and photos. You have to understand, she never left a note. Never said goodbye. It might be controversial to some but my mum and I have looked through her phone to try and piece this puzzle together. We thought she was happy. That she was going to be ok.

Two days before she died she sent her partner these pictures. WTAF is this? We know now that my usually sober sister was drinking and had been given shrooms (which might be what is in this picture next to the ‘thing’) just two days before she overdosed. She was in so much emotional pain. In the caption of the photograph she asked for the pharmacist’s number. What is this???

On a side note, this man did collect snakes. Could this just have been a dead unformed snake? I feel like it’s unlikely and that this came out of her body due to the caption. Less than 48hrs later she took a lethal overdose. Please help us figure out what this is 🙏

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MatildaTheCat · 23/10/2023 17:28

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m afraid I’ve no idea what this is though it does look like some sort of tissue. Very gently I don’t think you are going to know exactly what happened and what she was thinking.

Have you had any counselling or support?

Take care x

Motnight · 23/10/2023 17:35

MatildaTheCat · 23/10/2023 17:28

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m afraid I’ve no idea what this is though it does look like some sort of tissue. Very gently I don’t think you are going to know exactly what happened and what she was thinking.

Have you had any counselling or support?

Take care x

I am so sorry for your loss, Op. I agree with @MatildaTheCat.

Ericaequites · 23/10/2023 17:37

I’d like to send my sincere condolences. Losing a sibling is like losing a part of yourself and the shared memories. That thing looks like an earthworm or night crawler to me.

Ollifer · 23/10/2023 17:39

I have no idea what that is op. I understand you're trying to piece together what happened but it won't change the outcome or reality. Try not to obsess over things that you can't understand, it won't help you grieve and move on, as hard as it is. I'd be going out of my mind aswell.

Londonrach1 · 23/10/2023 17:40

Sorry for your loss x

OnlyFannys · 23/10/2023 17:44

So sorry for your loss op. My first thought was umbilical cord but I am no medical expert x

MadameCamembert · 23/10/2023 17:47

I’m really sorry for your loss. I also thought umbilical cord. Doesn’t necessarily mean human. I’m also by no means a medical expert.

CacenCaws · 23/10/2023 17:48

I would say umbilical cord too. If you search images it looks very similar. So sorry for your loss

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WTHisthis23 · 23/10/2023 17:48

Thank you for your lovely supportive messages. I’m always a little scared to post on AIBU so you’ve really helped put me at ease, thank you. I thought I’d be attacked for going through her phone. It’s just so strange. I’ve done a reverse image search and it’s coming up with nothing vaguely similar. I’m so confused. I have done bereavement counselling and I’m currently halfway through a course of EMDR (trauma counselling) my mum and I flew halfway around the world to be with her while she was dying 😞 We were there at the end. I just thought there might be someone out there that could shed some light on this for us .

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INeedAnotherName · 23/10/2023 17:49

My first thought was worms (not tapeworm) but pp might be right. Do you know why she had multiple blood infusions?

I am so sorry for your loss. Can you ask for her hospital records for that time or a meeting?

PurpleOrchid42 · 23/10/2023 17:53

I'm so sorry for your loss. You must be devastated. 😔 I have had miscarriages at 6w, 9w and 12w. I personally immediately thought it looked like something from the miscarriage, that she had rinsed, so she could look at it. Several things are passed when you have a miscarriage. And it's confusing, and obviously emotionally very hard too. I think that she may have rinsed it and sent a photo to her partner, to explain to him what she had passed. Im really sorry. I hope that helps.

PecanPeach · 23/10/2023 17:57

How awful, I'm so sorry for your loss and for your sisters pain.

SaracensMavericks · 23/10/2023 17:57

I also think it may be an umbilical cord or another product of the miscarriage. Sorry for your loss OP Flowers

PutinSmellsPassItOn · 23/10/2023 17:59

That looks like a decidual cast to me. Which is basically the lining of the uterus coming out whole.

Mummapenguin20 · 23/10/2023 17:59

Sorry for your loss

Pollyannamex · 23/10/2023 18:00

Sorry for your loss

Icannoteven · 23/10/2023 18:02

I’m so sorry for your loss. There must be so many questions going through your mind right now.

I might be wrong but this looks like a blood vessel/ vein to me. Did your sister have a history of serious self harm?

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WTHisthis23 · 23/10/2023 18:02

@PurpleOrchid42 Thank you. I’m so sorry for your losses too 💔 I’ve lost three babies too but never had anything like this. I did have two D&C’s and the third was natural that ended in a life threatening haemorrhage but I never experienced this. My gut is telling me it must be something to do with losing her baby. @INeedAnotherName It was from retained products of conception, I had the same thing and ended up in resus. She was so ill after though. She had a serious UTI, shingles and an awful case of thrush. She was in so much pain and was living with someone who just didn’t care 😞

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Maddy70 · 23/10/2023 18:03

I really think it's tissue from a.miscarriage

I'm.so sorry you are all going through this. I can't possibly imagine how.awful this is

Balloonhearts · 23/10/2023 18:07

It looks like a product of miscarriage to me. Perhaps an early part formed umbilical cord.

Pinkocsb · 23/10/2023 18:09

I’m afraid I can’t shed any light on this. Just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. I have lost parents, my partner and many friends, but I can’t imagine losing my sister. As others have said, you may never have the answers you want, but try and remember how much you loved each other and focus on that. Hugs xx

19847499fddqqedxx · 23/10/2023 18:10

I remember your story from before op
Did anything get done to her partner? I’m so sorry for your loss

AlmostBulimicType2 · 23/10/2023 18:10

I'm so sorry for your loss. Flowers

BandicootCrash · 23/10/2023 18:10

I passed a decidual cast a few weeks after a miscarriage, which looked much like that. It really upset me before I found out what it was. I'm very sorry for your loss.