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My wonderful mum died today

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aprildaffodil · 08/04/2023 00:18

My best friend, my incredible, lovely mum.
I'm only 28 and she was only 65. It was a very short battle with cancer that we sadly found out about too late. We were so blessed that she wasn't poorly and she was just tired, she tried her best to talk to us and joke with us before the medication eventually helped her to sleep after a couple of restless nights and she went peacefully in her own bed, in her own home surrounded with love.
I feel like my world has ended, I'm trying my best to stay strong for my family, I've been in charge of everything and it's so hard and so sad. I have a toddler who she absolutely adored more than anything, and I am devastated that she won't get more time to be a granny. I'm glad she wasn't poorly or in pain and she didn't suffer at all, but my god I want her back so badly. All I want is a hug from my beautiful mum.
We don't have many family or friends but I just wanted somewhere to acknowledge her and tell people what a wonderful mum and granny she was and she was so so loved by us all.
I feel like a part of me is missing and I don't know how I'm going to do this without her.

OP posts:
gallina · 08/04/2023 00:20

I'm so so sorry
Sending you a big hug x

Needcoffeeimmediatley · 08/04/2023 00:20

I'm so sorry Flowers

snitzelvoncrumb · 08/04/2023 00:21

I’m so sorry. Sending you a big hug. Xx

Pixiedust1234 · 08/04/2023 00:22

I'm so sorry. I have no words to comfort you but I do know how you feel ❤Flowers

TheCentreSlide · 08/04/2023 00:22

So so sorry. Flowers She sounds wonderful OP. Bless you and your lovely mum. Take good care of yourself and be very kind to yourself ❤️

FerreroRocherAreAmazing · 08/04/2023 00:26

I'm sorry. I'm in the same boat as I lost mum to cancer about 4 weeks ago. It's absolutely rubbish. All I can say is take each day as it comes and having your toddler will help be a distraction sometimes with the overwhelming grief. You may have grief fog which our brain protects us so you are numb for a while.

It's horrible and I'm sending lots of virtual hugs. People keep saying you will become strong without her but at the moment it will be hard , it's just putting one foot in front of the other and keep breathing.

You can do this and if you want to chat I know how your feeling. Xx

thebaneofmylifeisacat · 08/04/2023 00:26

Oh my darling so so sorry for you.

Your mum sounded wonderful and she is honestly still with you and proud of you.

Keep going snd give her a bloody good send off. And keep talking to her she's listening xxxxxxx Massine hugs keep posting for support xxx

Wittow · 08/04/2023 00:26

I went through similar, 5 years ago. It is a dreadful loss. You must be in terrible shock.

No words can really help. Just know that you are not alone 😔 ... Sending love x

thaegumathteth · 08/04/2023 00:28

I'm so sorry, I lost my dad almost exactly 7 years ago and it sucks but you do find happiness in things again

WaxingGibbon · 08/04/2023 00:50

I'm so sorry. Your mum sounded truly wonderful. Sending love and big hugs to you x

NurseCranesRolodex · 08/04/2023 00:57

Oh, what beautiful words, your Mum is with you in all you do and your DC. I know it's so hard to believe and seems unreal. From what you've written it's clear your Mum did an incredible job and you will too. Take care 💐

Unicorndreams24 · 08/04/2023 01:02

Sending lots of love to you . your mum sounds amazing ❤️ xxx

SNWannabe · 08/04/2023 01:06

She sounds lovely sweetheart. But a part of you isn’t missing- she IS a huge part of you, and you’re a mummy too now so your mum shaped you into that role- she is with you every single day and her love for you did not die with her.
Of course you are going to be devastated, but know that she wants you to go on every day and not waste away pining for her. I have amazing children and grandchildren and my greatest fear is leaving them and them being sad… I know they would be, but I would want them to carry my love with them and be happy as that is all I have ever wanted for them. And your mum will have wanted that for you too- all that talking and laughing, she was trying to make this easier for you.
Much love. @aprildaffodil

ticktock19 · 08/04/2023 01:14

I'm so very very sorry for your loss

IneedcoffeeinanIV · 08/04/2023 01:15

I am so so sorry. Thinking of you ❤️ Make memories with your toddler and tell them all about how amazing your Mum is xxx

Blueheartpinkheart · 08/04/2023 01:18

My mam died last April and my dad died yesterday. Life is so cruel but I am sending my love to you xx

PhoebeFriends · 08/04/2023 01:21

sending love,
I am thinking of you 💐

ReadersD1gest · 08/04/2023 01:29

So sorry, op Flowers

Realjournal123 · 08/04/2023 01:30

This is very sad to read. I feel for you and you're so young to lose your lovely mum. So shocking for you and at the moment you don't know who to turn to. You have to get through this for your little girl and the mind has a way of coping and getting you through this truly horrible event. Do you have other family members to turn to? It helps to talk a lot about your mum and reminisce about her and the fun times. Bless you sweetie and take each day as it comes. Your mum k ew how much you loved and adored her and she gave it right back to you.

0hs0s0rry · 08/04/2023 01:34

I’m really sorry for you loss. Please look after yourself. I lost my Mum 9 years ago. It was sudden and unexpected. I was 24 years old.

It may not feel like it, but I promise you, it will get easier. It won’t be the same, but it won’t be any worse than how you feel right now. You have your memories of your Mum and no one can take that away from you.

There will be good days and bad days. And they are both perfectly fine. Your Mum may not be with you physically, but you are a part of her and always will be. She will always be with you.

Gasketcracker · 08/04/2023 01:39

Oh love, I'm so very sorry. Losing your mum is indescribably painful, I remember the physical pain of the loss of my mum and it was almost unbearable at times.

One of my friends had lost her dad a few months before my mum died, and she said to me that the pain doesn't lessen, but your capacity to live with it grows until it's no longer all encompassing. You'll always miss her, but you will learn to cope without her and she'll always be a part of you and your family. Be kind to yourself, there's no one 'proper' way to grieve and no time limit on it either 💐

Original poster
aprildaffodil · 08/04/2023 11:32

Thank you everybody for replying, I'm sorry I can't reply individually but I have read everyone's replies and I really appreciate it.
She was the best mum. I just don't have the words, we are getting through it at the minute crying and laughing and remembering the good times but also allowing ourselves to feel the sadness. She's left such a huge gap in our lives we will never be able to fill. We were so lucky to have known her and loved her and have her for a mammy.

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Mammyloveswine · 08/04/2023 12:11

I'm so sorry, sending you lots of love.

Be kind to yourself, allow yourself time to grieve.

Life is very cruel at times.

I lost my mam suddenly just after Christmas. I am back to work now and whilst it's horrible it does get easier to accept with time.

Wafflesandcrepes · 10/04/2023 10:41

I’m so sorry for your loss, AprilDaffodil. Your mum sounds like she was really lovely.

I lost my mum very suddenly and unexpectedly in January. As another poster says, take things one step at a time. Focus on the now, focus on your little one and you will get through it.

xxx

TheSilentSister · 11/04/2023 16:21

Sending you lots of ((hugs)). I know how you feel. I lost my dear Mum 5 weeks ago and had the funeral today. It's heart-breaking. You'll be going through a range of emotions for a while. Just go with the flow. xx