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my mum has died - should I ring my dad or give him space?

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geekgirl · 02/12/2007 09:59

My mum died on Friday morning after 10 months of suffering with ovarian cancer, at only 58 years old.

I have always spoken to her or my dad on the phone every day but now I just don't know what to say to my poor dad.
I feel so desperately sorry for him, on Friday he sounded all composed (we had been expecting her to go for a few weeks and she had suffered terribly at the end), but when I rang him yesterday afternoon he was in bed, he had obviously been crying for a long time and sounded exhausted and devastated.

We didn't talk for long, but I made sure to let him know that I am always there for him at the other end of the phone, day or night.

I don't know whether to ring him today - dh says that I absolutely must do - because I don't feel that I have anything helpful to say, I am so upset too and maybe he wants to be left in peace to cry?

I am so sad I have dreamt of her two nights in a row now, last night I had a really vivid dream that it was all a mistake and that she was actually getting better - I woke up thinking 'phew! that's ok then. ' only for realisation to hit me.

And I feel so so sorry for my poor father - he is due to retire in May. They had been looking forward to so many plans.

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RubySlippers · 02/12/2007 10:01

how for you all - i am very sorry for your loss

ring him if you want to - even if it is to say i am thinking about you. You can keep it short and sweet

do you live near him?

beansprout · 02/12/2007 10:01

I'm really sorry for your loss, I hope you are ok.

I would say ring him. If he can't talk he will tell you but I'm sure he will appreciate you calling.

ellceeell · 02/12/2007 10:02

So sorry to hear about your mum. When mine died three years ago I was like you, not sure whether to ring my dad or not. But I did, even though I wasn't sure what to say. A while after, he said it was a real comfort, so I'm glad I did, desite the awkwardness and odd silences.

TwinklyfLightAttendant · 02/12/2007 10:04

I'm so sorry Geekgirl

Is there any way you could go and stay, or him come to you for a bit? Seems wrong for him to be alone atm?

Camillathechicken · 02/12/2007 10:05

I am so sorry to hear of your loss, i really am. I think that a short call, just so he knows you are there will be enough.. sharing your grief might be helpful. if you ring him every day, don;t stop now, you need each other.

BreeVanDerCampLGJ · 02/12/2007 10:06

You must ring him.

When DH's Mum died I rang her husband every day for a year, he had good days and bad days. Some times all I needed to do was listen. Even now 7 years on he says that he will never forget it. He said he always knew that the phone was going to ring at least once that day. IYKWIM.

I am so sorry about your darling Mother.

scrummymummy1965 · 02/12/2007 10:07

Just want to say I am sorry - I can't imagine how you must be feeling.

I am with RubySlippers on this one.

lucykate · 02/12/2007 10:07

oh geekgirl so sorry for you and your families loss

i would ring your dad today, even if it is only for a few minutes. if you've been ringing every day until now, keep that routine up, it's important to touch base with each other at times like this

LongMeg · 02/12/2007 10:09

I am so sorry for your loss - and for your father's.

I think you should call. You're his daughter; he won't need space from you.

You don't have to have anything helpful to say to him; in fact, you don't have to say anything at all. Just don't let him feel alone today - if you don't call he may feel that he's lost you, too.

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geekgirl · 02/12/2007 10:15

thanks all, I'll ring him then

unfortunately I can't go round - he lives in Germany and I'm in Yorkshire . I'm going next weekend for the funeral, and then he's coming to stay at ours for 2 weeks over Christmas and New Year.

This is so hard. I always thought it would get easier once she has gone because we wouldn't have to helplessly see her suffer any more, but it doesn't feel easier at all right now

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Nemo2007 · 02/12/2007 10:17

agree would phone just to check he is ok and looking after himself.

krabbiepatty · 02/12/2007 10:17

So sorry for you and your dad geekgirl. You sound like you are being a great daughter to him. You poor things.

ellceeell · 02/12/2007 10:18

It is still very fresh and raw for you. It does get easier - over time - but sometimes it can get worse again. What happens is that you get better at coping with it all.

TwinklyfLightAttendant · 02/12/2007 10:18

Sorry It is great that he is coming to stay over Christmas. I am sure that will be very much what he needs.
What a horrid thing to happen, just before Christmas - or any time. Thoughts are with you x

SquonkaClaus · 02/12/2007 10:19

ring him.

If he is not ready to talk to anyone he won't answer.

If he is sitting there thinking "geekgirl will ring in a minute" and you don't ring, then that would be awful.

so sorry for your loss

ABudafulSightWereHappyTonight · 02/12/2007 10:19

geekgirl I am so sorry. Have read some of your threads about your Mum.

Yes - ring your Dad. Every day. Just to say hi - am thinking of you.

wilbur · 02/12/2007 10:21

I'm so very sorry for your loss geekgirl, that's awful for you and your poor dad. I would call him, just to let him know you are there - it will be a comfort to him. When my mother died, I also wrote to my dad telling him what a great dad he was (at the time he kept saying "girls need their mother, like he felt he wasn't good enough ) and to tell us if we were fussing too much, or not doing enough. When he died, I found the letter I'd written in his personal files, so I think it must have been a comfort to him.

Take care of yourself. x

wilbur · 02/12/2007 10:24

Also, your dreams are totally understandable and normal - I think everyone who loses someone they love experiences something similar. They are exhausting though .

Beetroot · 02/12/2007 10:26

geekgirl - I am so sorry. YOu must be feeling terrible and in a daze. Losing a parent is something that takes along time to come to terms with - if ever - take care

Beetroot · 02/12/2007 10:26

geekgirl - I am so sorry. YOu must be feeling terrible and in a daze. Losing a parent is something that takes along time to come to terms with - if ever - take care

Beetroot · 02/12/2007 10:26

geekgirl - I am so sorry. YOu must be feeling terrible and in a daze. Losing a parent is something that takes along time to come to terms with - if ever - take care

Blu · 02/12/2007 10:28

Very sad, geekgirl - sorry you have lost your mum.

Call your dad and tell him about your dreams and your waking realisation - he is probably experiencing similiar things - you could share them - it might help make him feel less alone.

Some older people are funny about the phone...emergencies only - he may hold back from calling to avoid bothering you.

seeker · 02/12/2007 10:30

When my dad dies, I arranged with my mum that I would ring every day at a particular time. Sometimes she didn't answer - sometimes she wanted to talk, but she knew that there would be someone on the phone at that time every day. It worked for us.

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geekgirl · 02/12/2007 10:56

ok, I've rung him. he sounded terrible

says what keeps him going is the thought of seeing us at Christmas

I told him I'd call again later

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WideWebWitch · 02/12/2007 10:58

I'm so sorry to read this geekgirl

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