I struggle with Princess Charlotte

[IHateCoronavirus]

Just that really, and I so wish I didn’t.
She was born just after newborn DD died.

Every time I see a picture of her in the news I long for my own little girl with brown hair who would have been the same age. First day at school broke me, but there will be first day at secondary, university, marriage, babies.

I know I should get over myself but the what could have beens always get me when I least expect it.

I'm really sorry, OP, and all of those who have shared their stories here. It's something I do think about (I know parents who lost their little girl to cancer at 14) how it must break the parents hearts afresh as various milestones happen, finishing school, starting third level and so on.

OP please dont feel like you need to pretend. Especially to those close to you.
I'm so sorry for your loss of your daughter.

I'm sorry about your dd.
'Getting over yourself' is not something which applies to grief 💐

It takes longer to come to terms with the death of a child than loosing a spouse or parents. Because we all know that we are likely to experience death of parents. It is 50/50 whether you outlive partner or they you. But we expect not to have to deal with death of a child so it hits us harder. I am so sorry you have this reminder. It is never to late to have counsilling. You might find it more effective now than when it was still so fresh.