Today would have been my mum's birthday

[lou33]

She would have been 70, but she died 5 1/2 years ago. She was my best friend and I still really miss her.

I didn't see this before, lou. I'm sad for you - it must be so very hard, particularly on anniversaries. Your Mum is still there though - in you, and in all your children - though I know it's a poor second to having her there with you. Be kind to yourself today. Lots of love, moo xx

I don't really know what to say apart from and that to let you know that your cyber friends are all sending huggs{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}

loubs. I must 'phone mine tonight. She's a bit intrusive vis a vis dds, but I really love her. My thoughts go out to you. No one can replace her. Just think of all the lovely (and horrible - they can be just as good) times you had together.

Big ((((((((((((hugs))))))))))) to you Lou. Anniversaries are really hard. I miss my Mum desperately.

Hugs from me too, lou. She would be so proud to know how you feel about her. XXX

Thanks everyone. I have felt pretty crap all day I have to say, but your messages are very supportive and mean a lot. I'm trying not to let on to the kids about how important today is, because I know dd1 and dd2 would get upset, so it's nice to come on here to do it.

lou33 i cant imagine how u feeel, its only since i had my children that i realise how much a mothers love is and i know just how much my mum loves me, so much more than she can ever express. when you feel sad just think how lucky you were to have her and her you, and that you were great friends. your children will give you that bond when they are older too.

Thanks hermy.

Your mum sounds like mine, lou. I miss my mum a lot too. There's a gap in my life that no one else can ever fill. We always used to speak on the phone around 9.30 am and I still feel odd and sad around that time. She was such a friend to me and so loved my oldest son. If she was alive I can picture the relationship they would have had, now he's getting older. She would have enriched his life so much and I wish my youngest son had known her love.

Pamina, I am very sorry to hear about your mother, it must be such a worry.