Lost my dad a week ago

[Chippydippy]

I'm feeling such unbearable grief. One week ago today I lost my wonderful, amazing dad. He was 75 and died suddenly of a ruptured aortic aneurysm.

I don't know how I'm going to carry on like I did before. I feel like a light has been switched off within me. I love him so much and we were very close. He didn't live near me, but we spoke a lot and the last words I said to him were I love you as I put the phone down. He was planning on coming over to me for a holiday in September and I feel so sad that it's not going to happen.

I don't know what else to say, I just needed to get it out. I'm the one who is sorting everything as he and mum were divorced years ago and 3 of my 4 my siblings hadn't contacted him for years. I just feel such hatred towards them for that. My loving sweet dad didn't deserve that treatment from them. We had such fun growing up even though we had no money, my parents were always there for us.

I've still got his funeral to arrange and just need to find the strength to do that. Thanks for reading this

@Chippydippy hope today went as well as it could x

Apologies for not tagging anyone or replying to individual posts but I would like to thank you all so much for your support, thoughts and kind words. It really does mean a lot.

Today was surreal. Felt like I was watching it all from a distance and it all passed so quickly. I kind of feel like I want to do it again to really take it all in and remember every little detail. I'm sure my dad would've been proud though. ❤️

@Chippydippy I've no doubt you did him proud, you thought about it, sought support and got through it all.
I wish I could say it gets easier but it doesn't. Not for a long while. Be kind to yourself and take help offered x

@Chippydippy how are you doing?

So sorry OP. You can just from your words how adored he was and I'm sure he knew that and adored you too. That is priceless, I never knew my dad.

Sending you every strength to get through this, which you will. Deep breaths x

@rumred I think I'm doing ok thank you. Last couple of weeks have been a bit nothing if that makes sense. I know it's common to feel like this after the funeral. I feel guilty that I'm not crying my eyes out every day. I feel so sad though. I talk to him and about him every day but I just feel a bit numb about it all.

Thank you @littleblueorchid that means a lot, yes he was very much adored and I know he felt the same.

@Chippydippy please don't feel guilty. Grief doesn't take a straight path. Cry when you need to.
I'm having my first birthday without my dad, it's pretty horrible but I'm being philosophical. Can't really do anything else.
6 months on and it's still very up and down for me. So be kind to yourself is all I can advise

Last couple of weeks have been a bit nothing if that makes sense. I know it's common to feel like this after the funeral. I feel guilty that I'm not crying my eyes out every day. I feel so sad though. I talk to him and about him every day but I just feel a bit numb about it all.

Belated but I can totally relate to this @Chippydippy. Hope you are doing ok

Hi chippydippy, hope you got through yesterday ok x it’s a year today (almost to the minute) that I lost my dad. Strangest year ever, in some ways it feels like forever but somehow feels like no time at all

 OP and @iamme21

@BraveGoldie thanks x

I’m so sorry @Chippydippy and to everyone grieving. Hugest of hugs to you. I’m feeling so low after losing my Dad, 2 months ago at the age of 68 - he too had a ruptured aortic aneurysm.

Focussing on the arrangements and coming together as a family helped in the weeks after. It is heartbreaking isn’t it. I’m so sorry xx

So sorry for your loss @Blossom4538 , . I hope you are managing ok.... and for everybody else's....

Thank you Blossom Two days ago was the first year anniversary.

I'm so sorry you lost your dad, and in the same sudden way. Yes it's completely heartbreaking. Being busy in the first weeks definitely helps, especially with the shock factor.

Even though it's been a year for me, I miss him even more now. It does get easier but for me personally, it still feels raw. There's no time limit on grief and do what you need to in your own time.