Can't even believe I'm having to even write this but on the 11th of July this year I was 28 weeks pregnant I had celebrated my brothers 29th birthday the day before everything was fine...but on the morning of the 11th of July I started to bleed and had this very painful pain in my bum that I couldn't explain and the pain was getting worse luckily I had a midwife appointment that morning so I rushed of to the doctors.. by the time I had arrived and it was only round the corner from my house I was panting and sweating and my waters went as I arrived and then the blood started to pour and pour ... the midwife rang the ambulance and said this is life threatening I didn't know what was going on I just knew i had to get to the hospital quickly....by the tine I arrived I was rushed into theatre and I had literally 15-20 people surrounding me and these tubes in my nose and mouth putting me to sleep... my placenta had detached from my womb a very rare life threatening expierinence for mother and baby and normally both don't make it, i lost 2500 ml of blood half of my blood they told me if I had been out it the sticks it would of been game over I have been one very lucky woman to be writing this story today ... as a result of me loosing oxygen and blood so did my son he was 12 weeks early and the trauma was just to much for him..they said they didn't give him 10 seconds to survive with the circumstances and my little boy showed them .. 6 days he was with me they were the most beautiful but heartbreaking days of my life.. the doctor on the 4th day sat me down and he said there was no hope left for my son I either had to let them carry on and he would crash out or take him of his life support and let him be safe with me in my arms while he passed...I wanted us to be together when he passed I couldn't bare the thought of being asleep when it happened so I chose to do what I had to do .. when they took him of they said he might only last a couple of minutes my boy showed them again 4 hours he lasted in his mummy's arms while I talked to him cried to him told him I loved him more than life itself I then went in to spend a week with my son before his funeral in a respite home for children which I am so thankful for as I had a week to cuddle my son and make memories before he had to leave me ...and in all of this I had my ex partner turning up at the hospital screaming and shouting that it was all my fault he came early and that he was going to the solicitors on the Monday morning after me telling him our son was very poorly I then had to have him arrested for harassment and assault as he had hit me when I was 8 weeks pregnant... I am now in the grieving process and feeling every emotion possible from guilt anger heartbroken I just don't know how I will get through this I miss my son so much it hurts ... Thankyou for reading my story I just felt like I needed to get it all of my chest and have some support