Fucking cancer

[elizabethdraper]

Am sitting in a hospital praying for my mother to die. How messed up is that.

She has battled lung cancer with seconds on her liver, spine and brain for the last 14 months.

The hospital are saying it will be hours. The sound of her breathing is horrendous, she is drowning in fluid.

This like something from a torture chamber.

Called my husband an arsehole before I left the house.

I am so tired. I want this all over now.

You poor thing. I hope the end comes soon and is peaceful. Your dh will understand I'm sure, it doesn't sounds like anything could be more stressful. Do you have brothers and sisters?

I'm so sorry, this is horrible for you. Hopefully she is under enough sedation to be unaware? You are totally right to pray for the end to come swiftly when there is no hope of recovery. It is what any compassionate person would do.

As for calling your husband that - maybe he was being insensitive in some way to your extremely stressful situation and deserved it. Maybe he wasn't at fault, but either way I'm sure he won't hold it against you.

I hope you and your Mum don't have to wait too long for some peace

Thanks.

She is heavily sedated and isn't aware of anything.
Am sitting here with sibling, aunts, uncles, cousins.

Such a surreal situation

I'm so sorry lass.

Many of us have been there and understand.

Sending you a handhold

I'm sorry, I've been there and I understand. Those last few days are terrible, but I'm so glad I was there, it has brought me a lot of comfort. I hope she is at peace soon.

I’m sorry you’re going through this.

I went through pretty much the same thing when my mum became ill with cancer. It was quick and brutal, towards the end I was praying for her suffering to stop.

All the best OP. Am sending a hug. Xx

I'm so sorry to read this
offering & another virtual handhold ,
it's the hardest thing to have to go through and the conflicting emotions you are having are normal , your husband will understand x

I'm sorry you are going through this. Have they given her a drug called Glycopyrronium to dry up the secretions - it sometimes helps with the bubbly noise. I hope it is over soon for you both.

I've been there too OP. I'm so sorry. Its an incredibly awful time. She will be at peace soon. Cancer is an evil bastard.

I’ve been there too OP it’s the club nobody wants to join.

I can only tell you how sorry I am that you are going through this. Cancer is indeed a bastard.
As your DM is unaware, that is a kindness to her. But not for you.
In the kindest possible way, I hope she passes on peacefully, and soon, for your sake.
It's a horrible thing. I've been there, so I know how you feel.
Some people need to be told it's ok to go now, some people need to be alone to do it.
I hope you all find a way through it.

She went at 830pm tonight. 1 year and 1 day from the first time she was admitted.

Last July we were told she wouldn't last 3 weeks. In November we were told she wouldn't make Christmas. We had the best Christmas in a long time.
In April we were told 3 weeks.
On Thursday we were told hours on Sunday were were told 6 hours.

Stubborn to the end.
Fly high mam

So sorry. Cancer is a bastard.

bless you. So sorry love.

She's at peace now. RIP. I hope you and your husband make up - you will really need support now.

I'm really, really sorry. Thinking of you.

So sorry, thinking of you

So sorry for your loss OP 💐

I'm glad she is at peace but I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is shit.

Keep talking to us if you find it helps

So sorry for the loss. Cancer is shit. 💐

So sorry, love x

I only 3 weeks ago sat at my husbands bedside holding his hand and told him it was time to go now.

Take care