Fucking cancer

[elizabethdraper]

Am sitting in a hospital praying for my mother to die. How messed up is that.

She has battled lung cancer with seconds on her liver, spine and brain for the last 14 months.

The hospital are saying it will be hours. The sound of her breathing is horrendous, she is drowning in fluid.

This like something from a torture chamber.

Called my husband an arsehole before I left the house.

I am so tired. I want this all over now.

I'm so sorry op. Take care of yourself, try to eat and sleep xx

So sorry OP. May she rest in peace.

You're in my thoughts too Wuss

Just been through the same thing yesterday with my beautiful mother in law. My heart goes out to you & I will be thinking of you over the next few hours.

Wuss - thinking of you too, how are you coping?

I cope as I have two children. It's shit though .... Half of me has been ripped away from me and all so suddenly we were told he'd have 12months he had 2.

So, so sorry you are going through this

So sorry op 💐💐💐 x

I’m so sorry. I’ve just been through exactly what you are going through and it’s horrible. My thoughts are with you and your family

Bless you I went through this 10 months ago with Dad.Cancer is so cruel.xx

Elizabethdraper - how are you doing? You must be exhausted. Been thinking of you all day.
Wuss- I think you must be superhuman to get through it all, your children are very lucky to have you as their mum.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Sending you an unMumsnetty hug

So sorry ElizabethDraper and Wuss, know what it's like. Sat at my DH's bedside in February doing exactly the same, just wanting it to be over for him, but not wanting to let him go. F#####g cancer....

Yep me too. I was there in March with my dad. It’s awful and heartbreaking and you want to just hold onto them but for it to be over so they are no longer suffering.

Big hugs to you and everyone else on here who has gone through or is going through this xx

My mum passed away 3 weeks ago from cancer. It was the most horrendous time and the last few days I too was praying she could go be in peace. I will never forget the noise of her breathing at the end. The pain is so real and raw take care of yourself

Thanks everyone.

I don't know how I feel. Back to work on Monday. Not sure I can bear the head tilts and the concerned faces.

So sorry for your loss, elizabethdraper, hope it goes well as on Monday. There's a lot of nodding and smiling to be done as the bereaved, unreasonable as it feels. Think of the smiles and head tilts as coming from their best place.

And breathe.

Hi @elizabethdraper. I have just had my first week back straight after my mum passed from lung cancer that went to her liver. We only knew just over a month ago that she was ill. It was so quick. I was with her during her last days and moments. It was very surreal. I had cancer just two years ago which my mom supported me through. And now it’s taken her. Life will never be the same without them. Sending you the biggest hug. Really hope people leave you to it this week and don’t get in your face with the sympathy expressions. I’m lucky that a couple of colleagues came up for a quick hug, but most just left me alone. If people are too head-tilty, I just say something like “I’m just happy she’s no longer suffering”, and then they usually agree and bugger off. Thoughts are with you for this week. Xx

My dad has been at home since Thursday, now on a syringe driver. No idea how he is holding on. No recognition from him since Friday.
Diagnosed in March.

Already had liver disease from an auto immune disease so didn’t stand a chance. In hospital with an infection 3 weeks ago from the one chemo infusion he managed. The speed of decline has been unbelievable.