18 today, no cards, no presents, just nothing.

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I can't believe it. My boy is 18, should be 18, I don't even know how to say it anymore.

I am lying in bed hiding away and crying my eyes out.

It's been so many years now but the pain is so raw on days like this still.

I can't do it anymore I just want to curl up and the pain to be gone now.

I should be taking him out for his first pint, I should have bought him his first car already, I should be disapproving of his girlfriends and rolling my eyes as he attempts to iron his work stuff before I take over.

Instead I have some photos and a blanket and clothes that don't smell of him anymore.

My gorgeous boy, gone but never forgotten.

3 years ago today it was my darling dads funeral.
I shall light his candle.
I am lighting it for your boy too
X

So sorry for your loss. I lost one of my daughters 2 years ago and the pain goes on the indescribable ache that never goes. Sending hugs

Of course it's your boy's birthday. I can't imagine how you feel but sending you a huge hug

Happy birthday to your beautiful boy. You have me in floods of tears here OP- you write so beautifully about him. I laughed too at his troll hair! I know exactly what you mean. So sweet.

Sending you a big hug. He was lucky to have a mother who loved him so very much

Happy Birthday to your little Skittle OP. So sorry for your loss

My heart is going out to you. I have no words to bring comfort. I just want d to let you know, you and your lovely boy are being thought about today.
😪

2rainbow and confused I am so sorry that you are also here, it's just miserable.

Badders I'm so sorry that this is a hard day for you also. Thank you for lighting a candle.

Thank you so much everyone. To know that my boy has touched your lives even for a minute is heartwarming. I wish I could be one of those people who sets up a charity or something but I just can't, it's too painful. I wish I could speak to those who remember him but I can't. Most of all I wish he was here so I could see the man he would have grown to be, that's my biggest regret of all.

Thinking of dad today, and of "skittle"
So dearly loved, so badly missed X

(((Badders))) much love to you.

Feel free to tell us about your dad if you want to xx

Ah this is your thread op
But if you don't mind I shall light dads candle each year for him and "skittle" X

I'm sorry I'm certain, though, that there will be people thinking of him today and always. Those that relieved his organs will be forever grateful and I'm sure would love to thank you if they could and everyone whose lives he touched will remember him I promise.

Thank you badders I'll never forget your dad's day either and will spare a thought for him each year

Thank you OSE I know you're right. I guess I just feel so isolated today and want to scream at all the people walking past my house as normal, I want them to realise that it isn't a normal day, it's a day that crushed my world. I guess everyone has a day like that. I'll be alright tomorrow.

Thinking of you today. One of my twins died at 24 hours - her sister turns 21 this year. Can't believe it's that long ago. It must be so much harder for you having so many more memories - sending you and all your family love tonight x