My angel baby :(

[jellybeans]

Hi I am sad to post here but hoping to find comfort and support.

I lost my baby at 20+ weeks this week. I suddenly went into labour and they couldn't do anything, my angel was born asleep and was perfect. I feel empty and feel she should be here why did she have to be taken away, i feel I have let her down. xxxxxxxx

Just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts.

Words don't really cover it. I can't begin to imagine the pain you are suffering.

Give yourself lots of time.

Thinking of you xxx

The guilt and the uncertainty are terribly hard to cope with. Even now I wonder if I will one day open the newspaper and read about a study into 2nd trimester losses that will give me a reason for what happened, and show that it was all my fault. I have my own little list of things which I think caused it, even though my consultant assured me that they didn't.

I was also fixated with becoming pregnant before the due date, and in fact I became pregnant the month after the due date (and now have a lovely 18 month old daughter).

x

So sorry jellybeans.

So sorry Jellybeans, i hope you are getting some comfort from everyone on here. Little Mia was precious, maybe too precious for this life. I hope you are ok and wish i could give you a real hug xxxx

You didn't let her down. She was here and she had a lovely mummy for the time that she was here.

mrsdarcy, I could written the first para of your post word for word. I just so wish I knew, even now.
Jellybeans, it is possible your PM results will be inconclusive, I'm sorry to say. I hope you are one of the 50% who does get an answer from the test results.
Have been thinking of you and your little dd. Let yourself be taken care of by those around you, you deserve it XXX

Weepootleflump, thanks for the lovely thought of lighting a candle for my angel while you light one for your angel, that is so touching, thankyou. My angel is called Mia xxxxxxxxxxx Thanks everyone else for your thoughts~ checking in here cheers me up reading what nice things people have said.

Jellybeans, just wanted to add my total support on this. There was nothing you could have done and nothing that you could have done wrong to make this happen. Like others have said, these things just happen all by themselves, and whilst it doesn't seem fair that you even get an explanation, you've just got to remember that you had your little angel for a while, as close as she could possibly be, and now she's off playing with all the other little angels that were taken too soon. I can't imagine how you feel, but try and take some comfort from thinking that although she's not with you physically, she will never be away from you and you will never forget about her.
Have fun in heaven Mia sweetie, be happy and know that your mummy loves you.

Jellybeans, I am so extremely sorry to read your news. What a terrible thing to happen.
There is no way you let your daughter down - sadly these things happen for no good reason.
I really hope you get the help and support you need. Will be thinking of you and your family.

I am sure that there is no way you could have done and nothing you could have done even if you had. I know its hard to accept. You, your family, and your little Mia are in my prayers.

SO sorry this has happened jellybeans, I'm sure it was nothing you did or didn't do. Thinking of you, your family and Mia.

so sorry that Mia was born sleeping.
((hugs))

I have lit a candle for your angle

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