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Just lost my mum. Devastated.

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MummyBex1985 · 11/12/2015 17:35

I don't even know where to start.

My mum had a massive brain haemorrhage and there was no treatment. I sat with her whilst she was on a ventilator, knowing she couldn't survive.

I can't even start processing it. I'm broken right now. She was only 62. I'm 30 and didn't expect to deal with this for years.

My mum loved Christmas and we had plans for this coming Christmas (like every other). Now I just feel overwhelming heartbreak even thinking about Christmas and knowing she won't be there. My best memories of her were around this time of year and now I feel like it's been tainted. Her funeral will be two days before Christmas Day.

Just had to write it down. I'm not coping.

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LisaMumsnet · 11/12/2015 17:47

MummyBex1985, I am sorry to hear about the loss of your Mum. Sending you a big hug across the miles. Losing a parent is such a hard thing to go through but I found what a friend said at a time like this when my DH lost his Dad very comforting. She wrote: 'Your Dad lives on in you'. And as the days pass you'll see how true that is about your Mum too - you'll see her in your smile, or your laugh, or how you like your tea - and then you'll realise she'll always be with you. Know too that it does get easier, bit by bit, day by day. Try to keep remembering the good times you did share rather than the ones you won't, and light a special candle for her on the 25th.

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