My beautiful mum died tonight

[mandywb]

I am totally heartbroken. We knew it was coming as were told there was nothing more could be done, but I think I am in shock.

I don't know how we carry on without her, she was only 65 and everything to us. My dad is devastated, as is my brother.

We stayed in the hospital with her all last night and today and leaving her there alone tonight after it happened was the hardest thing I think I have ever done.

I told my children when I came home (10 and 12) who were very close to her and adored her. I expected them to be a bit upset but both were so so upset, their reaction took me by surprise a little.

I don't know what I am going to do without her. We were so close, we spoke every day, went out walks every weekend and just chatted.

I feel numbness, pain, immense hurt and fear because I won't be able to see/speak to her ever again.

I am so sorry to hear of your loss.

I lost my mum about 4 1/2 years ago. I just want to say that whilst it will be hard for you, and it will take time, it does get better than it feels now. Your life becomes something different, but it does come out of the dark place with time.

Be kind to yourself xx

Im so sorry for your loss and your children's loss.

No words can take the apin and hurt away. Be kind to yourself and your dc's. The next few days are really going to be hard on all of you. Sending you warm thoughts and my deepest sympathy.

Just wanted to say that I am so very sorry you've lost your mother so young. She sounds wonderful. Thinking of you and your dad

Oh I know how you feel, we lost my mum a month ago aged 66. I think I've cried everyday since. Also the worry for my Dad is difficult, it brings me to tears to think of all he has lost.
for you, hope your ok in the circumstances.

So sorry to hear of your loss, it must be a horrible time for you. You are in my thoughts, sending and ((hugs))

Thank you for your lovely messages.
Well, the funeral is tomorrow and I am dreading it and scared I will be a wreck. Have a constant sick feeling.

It's strange as the past couple of days I haven't had so many tears and felt relatively ok, then this morning I was in the car and passed a place we sometimes go for a walk and that was me again in floods of tears. Just the slow realisation that I can never do that or anything with my mum again and it's so painful.

I suppose there will be good and bad days ahead.

I hope the funeral will go as well as these things can go

Yes, you will have good days and bad days, and with time the bad days will become less frequent, but not necessarily less intense.
Places or smells or music may set you off again.

Grieving for your lovely mother is a reflection of the close bond you had - imagine your mother passed away and you did not feel much: what would that say about your relationship with her?

Wishing you strength and light for the way ahead

Mandy. I know what you are going through. This happened to me two years ago. My mum was 65 and age went to bed and had a massive stroke and didn't regain consciousness they said there was nothing they could do. Devastating living night mate
I too miss my mum loads. My best friend. And I've hated my life having to change without her in it
I too have a brother and my dad and at the time was a 12 year old but youngest was 8 but like yours they were very upset.
Hugs to you.
You will go through all the emotions take each day/ minute as it comes surround yourself with caring people eat and delegate if you have too
Please come and join us on the thread also named anyone lost a parent.
Take care, thinking of you xx

Night mare * meant to say. Excuse the typos blooming phone ! X