It's three years next month since I lost our little angel. We have another dc now but the sadness is still there even though life has moved on and is good.
I lost my baby earlier than you and we know our baby would never have survived beyond birth but nothing prepares you for the wall of grief you hit.
I have the babies ashes under my side of the bed so she is close to me every night.
Few things that helped me (though obviously different for everyone) was talking things through with the few people who were there for me (believe me you will soon find out who your true friends are) and keeping the memorial service just for dh and I. I know a few family members were hurt about this but the baby only belonged to dh and I at fibs point and I did not think I could cope with anyone else bring there at the only thing I would ever do for my baby.
The minister read the poem little snowdrop..........
The world may never notice
If a Snowdrop doesn't bloom,
Or even pause to wonder
If the petals fall too soon.
But every life that ever forms,
Or ever comes to be,
Touches the world in some small way
For all eternity.
The little one we longed for
Was swiftly here and gone.
But the love that was then planted
Is a light that still shines on.
And though our arms are empty,
Our hearts know what to do.
For every beating of our hearts
Says that we love you.
Look after yourself xxxxx