Bless you, Yorkie..
I need to post this..
I've written and deleted it so many times...
Grief is not competitive, I know.
But there is a 'sliding scale'... of that, I'm sure.
I'm so struck by the fact that in losing Nigel, you've lost your best friend.
And now I'm wondering whether I should delete this too, as I don't want to make you feel any worse than you do. But I'll plough on and probably regret it.
I lost a baby. For no reason. A full-term and healthy baby due to the (in)actions of others.
But I didn't lose any memories. I lost the potential relationship that we should have had.
The sight of 'deceased' on so many pieces of paper cut me to the quick. Seeing the home address that he'd never even been to hurt so much.
BUT. I cannot even begin to compare this with what Nigel has had to leave behind. I cannot even begin to comprehend what you are feeling and everything I try to say to you sounds so trite.
Bless you, truly. And I'm not remotely religious. But what has happened to you has made me feel beyond sad and utterly useless. I wish I could take some of your pain away for you.