My daughter died on Saturday

[accidia]

I can't sleep. There's so much I have to do. Just waiting for daylight so I can go outside and see to my animals. The insomnia has been going on for months but it's harder to deal with now.
She had a life-limiting illness so we knew this day would come but didn't think it was going to be then.

[shabbatheGreek]

Hello my old friend

[MyShoofly]

So sorry OP.

Be kind to yourself - nobody can prepare for this.

[psychomum5]

sending huge hugs. My thoughts and love with you and your precious family. xxx

[shabbatheGreek]

Thinking of you and your family today. Have lit a candle here in Lancashire to honour your precious girl.

I am always here if you need anything my friend....always xx

[ChippingInWiredOnCoffee]

I'm so very sorry to hear about your DD xxx

[pookiecat]

xxxxxx

[shabbatheGreek]

Snorris - thinking about you and wondering how things are? Haven't been able to get you out of my mind for many days xxxxx

[snorris]

I don't know what to write really. Still doing all the routine stuff. Dd1 has her last exam today & she'll be around so at least I won't be on my own too much. It's very hard to explain but because S had long stays in hospital in the past we were used to her not being here at times but I'm sure it will hit me properly soon. I haven't got to the point of sorting out her stuff, I've been able to deal with coming across her clothes in the washing but for some reason the thought of sorting her bed bothers me. She shared with dd5 & we were going to swap rooms around when dd1 goes to uni but I don't know what to do now .

[GenghisCanDoHisOwnWashing]

Snorris- I am so sorry to hear about your gorgeous daughter.

Try not to worry about the room swapping, it's really early days, just keeping your head above water is enough for now. Maybe in a while talk to your other dc about what they'd like to do about the rooms?

My heart goes out to you. Take care.
((((Hugs))))

[RatherBeOnThePiste]

so, so sorry, big hugs Xx

[BeaWheesht]

I'm so sorry, I wish there was more I could say

[ChippingInWiredOnCoffee]

snorris - you don't have to do anything about DD's bed or the rooms right now. Just leave them as they are for a bit.

Don't feel you have to write anything if you don't want to.

If you do want to write you could tell us more about DD or your other DC... or about what you had for breakfast... it's up to you.

We are here for you... I wish there was more we could do too. We'd all take a bit of the pain each if we could x

[foofooyeah]

just wanted to add my condolences.

Don't be in too much of a rush to sort things out - unless of course you find it helpful.
I think its almost very hard to believe sometimes. I lost my sister over a year ago and I still cannot believe it has happened.

[snorris]

It's just so rubbish really. I don't know if it hasn't sunk in but I feel like I should be more upset. Of course I cry but I hate showing that sort of emotion in public. I feel like everyone else is in denial about dd-we had been told several times since she was a baby that she wasn't going to live. The hardest thing I ever had to do was tell my then 11 year old dd1 that her 5 month old sister was expected to die . The others were too young to understand & of course dd5 hadn't been born. Maybe I've already done some of my grieving over the last 7 years, it's very hard to live with that kind of knowledge.

[shabbatheGreek]

I totally 'get' what you are saying Snorris. One of my twins was born with serious heart problems and he died just before he was 8 months old. We were always told IF he survived he would spend most of his time in hospital. Just wanted you to know that I am always here for you xxxx

[merlin]

Just seen this and wanted to pass on my condolences to you and the rest of the family. We only me a couple of times but I remember you talking about S so I know she was loved very much. Xx

[merlin]

Met not me.

[Choppymilks]

I am so sorry about your daughter. We lost our daughter 6 months ago. The hardest thing is that so few people can relate to the experience. I pray that God helps you in your sadness. Some people live long lives, some short, but some people make a bigger impact in their few years than some of us do if we lived 100 years. It is hard to figure out why this happens, but there is a lot in life that we don't understand. I find it helps to just think of the impact she had on my life, and on those around us. Your girl is safe in Heaven, totally healed and happy. I have spent so much of the this year in tears, but it is getting easier to handle now. Our girl will forever be past of our family, but we have to live in the present too. You have a future. God bless you, love. Xx

[shabbatheGreek]

Oh my word thinking about you Choppy xxxx

[seasalt]

I am very sorry for your loss.

[3girlies]

So very sorry for your terrible loss, I am also a bereaved mum. Thinking of you all. X

[TrinityRhino]

snorris. I'm so sorry for your loss.
it utterly awful.
big warm hugs
one foot in front of the other

[sybilfaulty]

So sorry for your loss Snorris. I think we were on the same ante natal thread at one point (December 2008). Thinking of you and your family.

[snorris]

Thank you all. It isn't just the loss of a child, it's all the other crap that comes with it too :(. At least HMRC have apologised for having to write to me - the bastarding council have sent a letter which I don't totally understand at the best of times so now I've got to sort that out.

[Tiggygirl]

So sorry for your loss .X