Trinityrhinos Unspeakably Shit Stuff part two

[TrinityRhino]

Hi everyone
Thank you for so much help and such kind words x

Will be thinking of you tomorrow. You can do it. X

I wish that I could type half as eloquently as Mouse does. She says the right things, at the right time and she says them perfectly.

Trinity, go with what feels right to you today, tomorrow and all the days after that. Cliff has helped you to become so strong, that you will do the right thing I have no doubt.

I feel so helpless down here in South Wales, but am sending you love and strength for tomorrow and beyond.

Xxx

One last thing..... I imagine you feel like your heart is broken and shattered just now. We're all going to hold a piece of it in our hands, we'll surround you tomorrow with it, your heart, safely holding it, and we'll start helping you by putting it back together with you, each day, rebuilding the strength, the Rhino in you.

We'll all stand by you, catch you if need be but I doubt you'll fall. Not this time. This time you are solid, resilient and brave. We're just going to be close enough to hold you, but far enough away so that you can breathe.

I'm shutting up now, I promise! xx

Hope you're asleep, or at least calm and peaceful now.

Tomorrow is a huge hurdle, but two things about it are guaranteed.
You will get through it.
And it will end.

There will, of course, be lots more hurdles, for a long time to come.
But I think they will be more manageable because you'll have more control over them and they won't involve other people so much.

You'll be able to think, right I'll do that one today and that one tomorrow and the others can fuck off and wait till I'm ready.

See you in the morning. (((((big hugs)))))

not at all calm
just had the runs
totally panicking that I have a vomiting bug
I have IBS so can have the runs for no real reason but I"m completely panicking now that I'm going to be sick
I cant go tomorrow, thats it

Take deep breaths into a paper bag to try to stop the panicking. Can you get yourself a warm drink after that , then try and get some sleep. If you can't sleep at least lay on your bed so you get some rest. Then in the morning you can decide what you want to do, it's your call.You have been a real trouper, but it's not possible all the time when you are heartbroken x

Hi Trin
I've came across your thread yesterday and am so, so sad to read what you've been through. It is shit on an epic scale and I admire your strength so much. I really hope the funeral goes well later. As mummylin says, you can decide what you need to do in the morning- I find the daylight always helps, however dark and shitty the night before has been. In less than 24 hours you will be in a different place- everything has been building up to today and you just need to live through it, whatever you decide to do.
I know you don't always feel it but you are so strong, you have managed so well! And you have so much love and support here- I am new to MN and it makes me want to roar with pride at womankind, it is bloody marvellous.
I love your user name- it makes me think of Trinity from the Matrix, so I keep imagining you having a serious Rhino with mirrored shades and a leather coat, like a big bodyguard in the background!
I bet your runs are down to your IBS- stress is a big trigger, and it doesn't get more stressful than this, does it?
Hope you've managed to get some kip
xxxxx

trinity from the matrix was the inspiration for my username. shows how long ive had it
dh and I loved that film

oh Trin, just seen you are still awake.

I know its not really surprising - I know its a heart breaking and hard day ahead for you, maybe a zombie like state may actually be the best thing to get you through.

Strength and peace to you

ok managed some sleep and had no more runs or anything

feeling shattered though

Morning Trinity, glad the tummy's better. Can you manage to eat something?

oh god no, I'm not eating anything lol
sorry but there is no chance, I will be taking something with me though so that as soon as I feel I can eat I will

I cant believe I'm doing this again
its not bloody right

I want a cuddle from him

I loved it too, but thought Matrix 2 was a bit pants though (didn't bother with 3)!
Trin I hope you managed to get a bit of sleep? Sod's law means you may have dropped off about half an hour before the alarm goes off though.....
I think it's just about 8 in the morning there? (I'm in China at the mo) I'm imagining the morning light and the wonderful salt-tanged air near the sea (missing the UK, can you guess?! ). Breathe it in. This time tomorrow you won't have to worry about the funeral because it will have happened. Whatever you decide about today will be the right thing for you. Everyone here is thinking of you and sending you love.

Duh crossed posts. Glad you managed some sleep.
It isn't bloody right, it is incredibly crap and unfair. I wish we could cuddle you .

Thinking of you today Trin

Sending you love today Trinity.

OK, makes sense, drink something though?

Sorry sweetheart, I just don't know what to say about the cuddle, have you got something of his you could wear?

Thinking of you.
Cliff has left you so strong and brave, it's a fine legacy.
You'll get through today, you're already halfway there, and then the days to come will be less daunting.

Thinking of you today. X

I haven't managed to catch up with all the posts yet, Trin, there are so many people who love you and care about you and many more, I am sure, who haven't posted but will be thinking of you today.

I will hold a little piece of your heart and keep it safe, as Mouse said, there are enough of us to help you through this day, one moment at a time x

There are a lot of us who will be spending the afternoon thinking of you and willing you on Trin.

Trinity I have followed your threads and just wanted to send you a HUGE hug from Wilf and I. My husband died eleven years ago so i have followed a similar path. I will be thinking of you this afternoon.