As we go through this painful journey together

[lavandes]

As we go through this painful journey together we share, cry, scream and shout but we never judge, we know that there is always someone to listen. We always remember our precious children who will never be forgotten and will live on forever in our hearts.

I can almost imagine how frightened you must be....and especially when it has happened before. There are times when my heart argues with my brain and my normal optimistic attitude starts to fail. I think this is understandable for anyone who has lost a child of any age and through any circumstances. Take care of yourself - wish I had some good advice other than try to rest. xxx

white, like shabba, I can only say try to relax, but that is such easy advice to give. While I was pg with Finn, and I would say I was worried, people would say blithely "Oh, it will be fine", which is very hard to hear.

Instead, I'd like to pass on a saying from the rainbow babies thread, which came from AngelGeorgie, and I don't think she would mind me sharing it here. It is for when anyone is feeling vulnerable, worried or anxious - "For today, I am pregnant." It is a bit of a mantra now.

Shabba, how's your father?

MrMia and I have just had a lovely weekend in London, reminding us of how wonderful it can be - delicious long lunches, walks in the wintery sunshine in the parks as the blossoms start to peek through, and spending time with special friends. And a bit of a first for me - I went out to a big birthday bash, knowing I would only know a few people, and even then, not particularly well, in that I hadn't seen many of them since ever before Mia had been born... and I still looked forward to the evening. I actually really enjoyed myself, and we did talk about Mia. I had to explain pretty much everything, but it was so nice that they wanted to hear, and ask questions, and engage. Not exactly party talk, but it meant a lot to me that they did.

Thank you for asking about my Dad xxx

He is very unwell have been with him this afternoon xxx

shabba that must be worrying. Hope you manage some sleep tonight. xx

xxx

shabbs your dad sounds like an amazing man, he sounds very kind.
is your dh much like your dad? they say us women seek out men like our fathers

i'm so sorry to hear he is so poorly xxxx

DH (been married 35 years on 18th March) was a 'bad lad' always in trouble and very cheeky. Over the years he has become quite like my Dad. They get on well with each other - maybe my Dad was a 'bad lad' when he was younger!

its lovely they get on well, yeah you will have to ask him if he was a badlad when he was younger

I like a 'bad lad'

;-)

What are your.fav things about your dad shabbs? My fab things about my dad is his compassion and warmth and amazing sense of humor he's often.crying with laughter at his own jokes
And he loves it if we, me and my brother take the Mick out of him

Morning girls xx

Dad is always there, whenever we need him. He loves my children almost as much as I do. We share a passion for football and Manchester City. He used to take me to all the home matches when I was younger. He was an only child at a time when people had large families and he hated it!! Most of all he adored his Mum and always says I look just like her

he sounds really really lovely shabbs xxxx

mias mummy, thanks for your kind words, i'm alot more glass half empty when it comes to pg, i'm just looking at it, as it's probably a mc, just hoping its not an ectopic or anythng that makes it even more a physical ordeal.
while still 1% of me hopes it will all be alright, but im pretty much resigned myself to thinking it isnt

white I do know what you mean. It feels so impossible that anything good can ever happen again - and if it does, you don't want to hope for it...

Morning girls xx

Morning shabba!

morning chip and shabba and everyone

white how did you get on at hospital today? Been thinking of you xx

hi five boys how are you doing?

gott on quite well i think, its not ectopic, it is in the womb.
there is only one
and atm everything looks ok.
going back next wed.

the sac was 8.4mm, and she said she thinks she can see the start of contents in the sac

she said she didnt really want to say, but that she thought she could possibly see a heartbeat, even i think i could see a flickering.

so trying to stay calm, but at least its not an ectopic pregnancy
trying not to get my hopes up too much as its such such early days

but today not had any bleeding, and she could see any bleeding or blood either on the scan.
my consultant will be there next week.

So pleased that it's positive news for now, keeping everything crossed for you xx

I'm having a pretty crappy day today, picked up Dexters post mortem results today, a very hard read, upset as they had spelt his middle name wrong. I'm just glad that I now know everything that everyone else knows iykwim.

Hope everyone else is as good as can be xx

thanks myfive x

so did you ask to get a copy of dexters pm results
we never actually saw a copy of our ds's, we just went for a chat with the consultant told us, well paraphrased i guess what it said.
i would have liked to have read the whole document though tbh

i'm not your suprised your upset at the spelling error, these things are so important to us.

myfive, how very upsetting that they spelt Dexter's middle name wrong. I remember feeling a bit upset even when Sylvie-Rose was still alive if people spelt her name wrongly and when she had died, it was worse, almost as if her name was almost all she had and people couldn't get it right. Inexcusable for an official document though.

White, that sounds so positive. Praying your little bean hangs in there!

We got a very brief paraphrasing at our meeting with the pathologist. They said they would send a copy to my doctors surgery for their records. I asked my lovely doctor if I could get a copy. He wanted to read it first, then left me a copy at reception. I thought I was maybe being stupid being upset at the spelling mistake, nothing I can do about it though.

5boys - any chance you could mention it to them?

White - great news - everything crossed here for you xxx