As we go through this painful journey together

[lavandes]

As we go through this painful journey together we share, cry, scream and shout but we never judge, we know that there is always someone to listen. We always remember our precious children who will never be forgotten and will live on forever in our hearts.

Remembering my beautiful firstborn daughter who was born 4 years ago today and passed away four years ago tomorrow. Only my best friend has contacted me. Everybody else has forgotten.

I am so sorry sh77. I don't think most people intend to be unkind, but god it hurts. Remembering your daughter with you x

Shabbath, that poem is lovely and so very true.

Not been on here for a while,sometimes I just don't what to say.

Morning girls xx

sh77 we will always remember with you, whenever you want to talk about your daughter. Any day of the year. xx

saintvera sounds like you are doing all the right things. Can't believe people are being so petty. You really don't need them and their irrelevant concerns in your life. xx

Hi, everyone :).

hey there expat. How are things with you? I have been lurking on the GoT threads - just discovered the whole series, and we are hooked... and you are an expert!! So - should I read the books?

hi guys

shabs i love that poem

it reminds me of this one, excuse me if ive posted this one before and forgotten

My Mom, she tells a lot of lies,

She never did before

But from now until she dies,

She'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mom how she is

And because she can't explain,

She will tell a little lie

because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mom how she is,

She'll say"I'm alright."

If that's the truth, then tell me,

why does she cry each night ?

Ask my Mom how she is

She seems to cope so well,

She didn't have a choice you see,

Nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mom how she is,

"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."

For God's sake Mom, just tell the truth,

Just say your heart is broken

She'll love me all her life

I loved her all of mine.

But if you ask her how she is,

She'll lie and say she's fine.

I am here in Heaven

I cannot hug from here.

If she lies to you don't listen

Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,

We'll smile and I'll be bold.

I'll say,

"You're lucky to get in here, Mom,

With all the lies you told!"

white, that is a favourite of mine too.

Morning girls xx

White I love that poem - so truthful and honest x

In the garden for the first time this year. Our Mamma Mia rose hasn't made it through the winter.

Morning girls xx

Sorry to hear that Mias...I have four rose bushes - all in separate tubs.....looks like only one has made it through Winter as well.....just hoping its my favourite 'Blue Moon' because I cant remember which is which!!!! Its been a long and harsh Winter here.

oh sorry to hear the mamma mia rose hasn't made it throught the winter, its sure been a long winter

we have a mini free for ds, a
thats only just starting to get a few buds on it, no real leaves or anything yet, its nly in a large barrel so really hope it will make it

oh, ive not heard of blue moon before i shall look that up, its hard to find blues ish flowers isnt it

to ds, love you and miss you so so much, want you to say stay close to me, make sure i'm ok
but i would feel guilty, as i want you to be free to run and play, not keep an eye on me
my heart breaks for you every single day, just wish things where so different and you were still here and you were healthy and well
can't understand why your gone and i'm still here
it is not right
i love so much, and i miss you so much

two songs for you

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
love forever mummy xxxxxxxxxxx

Blue Moon roses are, sadly, not blue - more of a lavender/blue combination!!! They are beautiful though.

My Dad bought it for me because we both support Manchester City and their song is 'Blue Moon'

just googled blue moon rose, its lovely

Morning girls xx

morning x

Just watched 'hoarders next door' on telly (think thats what its called)

The man had lost his brother when he was 22 and the lady had lost a child. The psychiatrist said 'the bereavment of a child or a young sibling was the most traumatic event and many hoarders had suffered this trauma. That one sentance made me so sad I had to turn the tv off. Just stood in the kitchen with the radio on.......I wanted a large bottle of gin, large bottle of tonic and 20 cigarettes!!!! I have none of them so am sat back in the living room quietly sulking!!

Morning girls xx

Morning ladies xx

If only more people would take that on board then maybe more people would understand us xx

Certainly would be better for us if more people 'got it' Lavandes.

Im a bloody mess today...shaky, teary and feel 'mentally poorly.' Dad was in hospital again at the weekend (is home now)....think he had a water infection that was making him confused. He is fading away in front of my eyes, Mum is 'away with the fairies' and my brother has left his wife of 30 years everybody is telling me their problems and expecting my support and I truly want to help BUT I feel like I am choking in all this sadness.

OK....Dad is going for his weekly day to the hospice - to tell them its boring and he isint going again so I have my lovely Mam for the day - she wants to go into Bolton shopping!!! Dear God, bless us and piggin' save us - its going to be a long, long day!!

Passes Shabs the gin and a fag xxx I'm so sorry you have so much to deal with I wish I could help you xxx

Thanks love xx

I keep reminding myself of the depression and sadness that came with the loss of Gareth & Matt and telling myself that I 'recovered' and we 'regrouped' afterwards BUT the situation with my parents is so difficult, and then I realised it was because of their strength and support that I did somehow survive the loss of my boys.....now it is my turn to help them in the same way. I can and I certainly will but I wish that I didn't have to. xxx