so do you think i am depressed or just grieving.?
i seem able to function, such as make sure the hosue is tidy and theres food in and dds needs are met
i'm a sahm though so i don't have to go to work, although i do have to do the school run and mix with people there etc.
i 100% know that being able to do what i like when i like is the right thing for me at the moment,if i find a spa day a bit too much, i think i would certainly find a whole day at work toommuch, so sah is the right thing for me i think, even thpugh others have told me i need to get a job, as if thets going ot sort all my grief out
thanks for your advice, its upset me because i was actually feeling pretty ok today and shes really really pulled me right down
its so nice to have you to talk to as the first thing i thought, i must tell you guys on here and a few friends from sands that i know will understand
i think she genuinely thinks she was trying to help me, yet it just makes me feel more and more and more isolated
the isolation is one of the things i find the hardest.
and its a bit likethe whole you can feel more lonely in a crowed room than anywhere else
i feel more isolated when i'm around others, well some others
expat i get what you say the word you used preach lept off this page for me, as thats exactly what i feel it is people telling me that i nned to let ds go, to move on, get over it, etc
and then telling me to concentrate on what i do have, ffs dont these people realise we do this every single day
mias mummy, it was upsetting me the way she was acting as if she had fgured it all out as if its some sort of puzzle, when its my life, i was told by great ormond street the chance of this happening again is miniscule, yet if her theroy is right and i can't have boys, tehn that means its 50% likely not to work out of we ttc again
euurggh ive had all her comments whirling around and round my head all bloody day now.
oh she also said ive got a black hole in my heart now, and i should have another baby
shall i just never talk to her about my ds again.
what shall i do next time i see her and she asks me how i am
perhaps i should say the one thing i dont feel helps is being told what i should and shouldt do
perhaps i shold borrow that look i know your trying to help phrase,but your not
but i just dont seem to be able to stick up for myself anymore, i get trampled on, getting quieter and quieter everyday
sorry to go on about myself so much.
shes just made me all mixed up now
and now im thinking what if i can't have boys and if i get pg again and its a boy will he die